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Selamat Fucking Hari Raya.

While everyone else is busy eating good food and dressed up in traditional costumes, happily video calling one another, the atrocities at home got out of hand this morning.

Another fight.

Yeah, well, what do you expect?

'Oh, I'm sorry?'

Is it as simple as that?

I wonder what my Mum was thinking.

''Forced forgiveness'' is such a ridiculous concept.

Her intentions were pure. But really, it did not help at all.

In fact, it made things worse.

And clear - that there was no hope for reconciliation.

It's been a while since I've screamed at anyone.

And I do not like to, at all.

I have my childhood traumas too.

And most of it revolved around the family fights.

The violence.

Where do you think my anxiety & abandonment issues came from?

Because everyone's so fucking hostile here.

But hey, who the fuck cares about the psychological impacts of your actions on your younger brothers right?

:)

Yeah, everyone is selfish in their own ways.

We had a long discussion.

Wrongdoings were addressed - and that was much appreciated, at least.

And we came to a conclusion that there is no more 'family'.

Not a full one anyway.

Peace is officially disrupted - with tension in the air.

So yeah.

This is how it goes.

And it's for the best.

I just cant wait to move the fuck out of here.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Aquilo - Sorry 

The note you wrote upon a shell
The frozen air in Silverdale
My heart is breaking by the shore
And I couldn't give you anymore

And I'm still shaking
And crawling back again
And all my brothers
And all my sisters are gone

I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared
I'm sorry that the feeling shows
But I just wasn't there
I'm reminded of the fool I was
I cut you off and fucked it up again
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared

This pillow case it smells of you
And time itself it stops to prove
That for a moment nothings changed
And everything just stays the same

And I'm still shaking
And crawling back again
And all my brothers
And all my sisters are gone

I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared
I'm sorry that the feeling shows
But I just wasn't there
I'm reminded of the fool I was
I cut you off and fucked it up again
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared

I left the light on
So you could see me from the dark
But then it blinded us
And left us where we are

I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared
I'm sorry that the feeling shows
but i just wasn't there
I'm reminded of the fool I was
I cut you off and fucked it up again
I'm sorry that I let you go
I'm sorry that I cared

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In the midst of the nudity and sweat, I was damn restless.

This wasnt what I wanted.

And I knew the minute I decided to go.

This..

This wasnt for me.

As a desperate hand tugged my arm.

Signalling me not to go.

I gazed at myself in the mirror.

I knew I couldnt stay.

And face this anymore.

I'm so sorry.

Sorry to all my unknown lovers.

Cause I'm not ready for anything...

Someone will love you.

But that someone isn't me.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Sorry

I've missed your calls for months it seems
Don't realize how mean I can be
'Cause I can sometimes treat the people
That I love like jewelry
'Cause I can change my mind each day
I didn't mean to try you on
But I still know your birthday
And your mother's favorite song

So I'm sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind
Ooh
Ooh
Ooh

I run away when things are good
And never really understood
The way you laid your eyes on me
In ways that no one ever could
And so it seems I broke your heart
My ignorance has struck again
I failed to see it from the start
And tore you open 'til the end

And I'm sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind

And someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me

Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry that I can't believe that anybody ever really
Starts to fall in love with me
Sorry to my unknown lover
Sorry I could be so blind
Didn't mean to leave you
And all of the things that we had behind

And someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me
And someone will love you
Someone will love you
Someone will love you
But someone isn't me