Pills N Potions

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Another hectic week has ended. Just came back from a trip to Geylang Bazaar with my babes. :) Met up with Tomei at Admiralty then headed to Paya Lebar. Met up with the gang then headed to Anis to get baju kurung for Yx haha! Then went to the bazaars and bought fooooood! I swear I ended up checking people out instead of looking at food ._. Mymy. Cant help it. LOL.

Shuq was like so distracted when we took this photo LOL.

Oh wells we went to break fast under a nearby block like some hobos. I just ate a kebab and felt full enough! After dinner, we went for a second round (LOL) and went to buy churros and coconut ice-cream! It was my first time trying both and it was really good! Tomei dropped her pack of churros though. >_> Hahaha.. Also had a nice chat with Yx. *winkwink*

CHURROOOOOS

Le boyz.

Iftar on the floor yoz. Haha.

Went to lepak somewhere near Delifrance before heading home with Tomei & Lily! Hahaha Lily was so full she wanted to explode. ._. Anyways I love them soso much. We need more outings!

Oh oh and on Wednesday, I went to break fast at this new restaurant called Tenderfresh with my classmates.

Weirdos.

Squeezin dem boobies. ._.

The food was good!! Although kind of pricey, but it was worth it. :) Will definitely come back!

Music update: Y'all need to check out this amazing upcoming youtube artist called Adriana and her friend lubxtpf. Amazing high quality Rnb Music and videos! They inspire me!!

Well that's all for now.

Love, Eran.

Looks like you backed out the last minute. You know what this means? It means you're not fighting for me. You had a chance and you blew it.

Current Song Mood: Nicki Minaj - Pills N Potions (Adriana Cover)

Current Song Mood #2: Nicki Minaj - Pills N Potions

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

I'm angry but I still love you

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

Can't stand it, but I still love you

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

Hey yo they could never make me hate you

Even though what you was doing wasn't tasteful

Even though you out here looking so ungrateful

I'm a keep it moving, be classy and graceful

I told 'em it's no friends in the game

You ain't learned that yet

All the bridges you came over, don't burn that yet

Niggas want respect, but niggas ain't earned that yet

Self-righteous, and entitled

But they swearing on the Bible that they love you

When really they aint no different from all your rivals

But I still don't wish death on them, I just reflect on them

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

I'm angry but I still love you

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

Can't stand it, but I still love you

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still luv

Yo, people will love you and support you when it's beneficial

I'm a forgive, I won't forget, but I'm a dead the issue

Soon as you out the nigga's lives is when they start to miss you

They see you doing good now it's kinda hard to diss you

Niggas be sick when they remember all the bad they wished you

Niggas be mad when they can't come and live lavish with you

But I sped off in a Benzy, I see the envy when I'm causing a frenzy

So I pop pills for them, cop cribs in the Hills on 'em

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

I'm angry but I still love you

Pills and potions

We're overdosing

Can't stand it, but I still love you

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I get high off your memory

I get high off your memory

I get high off your memory

In due time, we'll be fine

In due time...

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still lo-o-ove, I still love

I still love, I still love

I still love, I still love

Just A Dream

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So today, JoJo had an impromptu question & answer session on Twitter, and out of about 4-5 questions she managed to answer one of mine! :') I was over the moon I swear HAHA. Suddenly my Monday Blues all disappeared x) This is like her 3rd-4th reply to me I guess? She replied me in 2011 & 2012 before. Anyways, that question just randomly came to me because she has never really talked about how the label treated her during those years in limbo.. So I'm glad that she finally talks about addressing it. I've been following her story for many years.. and I'm glad she is no longer in that kind of situation. I cannot wait to hear more from her. She was the reason why I got interested in becoming a recording artist in the first place… Nobody knows how much I look up to her. <3

2014 is her year. She will thrive.

Love, Eran.

A boy can dream…

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Just A Dream

I paint my nails black, cuz it fits my mood

I'm tired of lookin' around for something to prove

You don't know how it feels inside my skin

But neither do I, because I numb the feeling

Take it away, all of my pain

I gotta bottle I got to finish

Take it away, take it from me

Cuz if you don't, I might drown in it

And I keep tellin' ma, tellin' ma, tellin' myself

That my bad luck's gonna go away

And I keep tryin' and tryin' and try, try to win

But I'm losing every day

I wanna get up and fight, but I don't have the time

I'm too busy feelin' sorry for me

When it looks like the clouds are gone

I wake up, it was just a dream, it was just a dream

It was just a dream, it was all a dream

I walk around, cold to the warmth of life

I see ya tryin' to talk, but I'm deaf to lies

Right, I believe in promises of tomorrow

If I don't make it there, know that I'm that sorry, though

Take it away, take it from me

Cuz I really wanna believe

After the rain, someone'll say

There's really more for me

I keep tellin' ma, tellin' ma, tellin' myself

That my bad luck's gonna go away

And I keep tryin' and tryin' and try, try to win

But I'm losing every day

I wanna get up and fight, but I don't have the time

I'm too busy feelin' sorry for me

When it looks like the clouds are gone

I wake up, it was just a...

See, I've been through Hell and I am still yet to come back

There is no conductor to get this on track

I have dreams of freedom from the circumstance I'm in

If it's in His plans for me, then I will win

I'll just dream til' then

I keep tellin' ma, tellin' ma, tellin' myself

That my bad luck's gonna go away

And I keep tryin' and tryin' and try, try to win

But I'm losing every day

I wanna get up and fight, but I don't have the time

I'm too busy feelin' sorry for me

When it looks like the clouds are gone

I wake up, it was just a dream, it was just a dream

It was just a dream, it was all a dream

It was just a dream

Break Free

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Its been a week back in school. My school block has been quite quiet cause the Year 1s and 2s are out for attachment. School has been.. Ugh. So exhausting. Lessons are dry as usual and I seem to only care about outings and meet ups.

Monday was full of lessons & so exhausting. Miss K was leaving and passed her role to a new lecturer who was really, really, really boring. ._. I sweaaar.

Had my hurrrr cut on Tuesday. I had how my hair is extremely curly now ugh. It wasn't like this before. Short + curly is bad combination. Whatevs.

Wednesday; found out something shocking. Like omg. Anyways, Had a little photoshoot sesh with Lily & Tomei. Lily said I was looking cool on that day and insisted on taking my OOTD HAHA! So cute la she.

Staircase pose. *winkwink* HAHA.

My awkward pose.

My even more awkward pose.

Excuse my trying-to-act-sexy-by-airing-my-armpits pose but Tomei's photobomb was hilarious LOL.

Got my ass back in the gym on Thursday. I was alone and felt extremely awkward & lonely around those dudes ._. But well I did my own thing. There was this guy that asked me for support while bench pressing and I kinda panicked (okay I freaked out) cause he looked like he couldn't make it LOL. He thanked me afterwards when he bumped into me in the toilet.

It kinda went like this:

Him: Hey thanks for helping me earlier!

Me: No problem!

Him: Year 1?

Me: Haha.. Year 3. You?

Him: *shocked look* Really?! 

Me: Haha yeah! You?

Him: Year 4 *smirks*

Me: Oo haha.

Him: First time gymming?

Me: Uh kinda.. You can tell huh? *paiseh*

Him: Its okay! Continue going to the gym and you will get bigger :)

Me: Thanks! I will :)

So nice haha. Met up with N after gym sesh at SP and we both looked damn shagged. Haha! We were supposed to play pool but it was fully booked so we ended up lepaking & just chatting/gossiping LOL. Nice short meet-up. SP is pretty coolz. 

Friday passed by so slowly okay. Had NSL lessons, NS5, FYP Meetings, & more NSL. Was so damn tired at the end of the day.

Oh oh and we had to babysit Ida's car while she went for her class for a while HAHA. Had to lookout for the summon aunties cause they kept looking at us when we parked -.- SO ANNOYING.

Music Update: - SIA HAS STREAMED HER ALBUM EARLY AND OMG I was so excited okay ._. Turned out there were a lot of 'fillers' in the album but I feel like the rest of the songs were amazing.

Standout tracks: Chandelier, Eye Of The Needle, Free The Animal, Elastic Heart, Fire Meet Gasoline

- Ariana Grande just released her second single 'Break Free' Ft Zedd and I've been playing it non-stop since its release! So addictive! Summer jam indeed. And her album 'My Everything' drops on August 25!! Great, exam week. ._. Oh wells. The title track is so relatable to me… The snippet is on youtube if you want to hear :)

- The Veronicas have announced that they're album was coming soon and that their first single will feature an orchestra. Yes, violins and epic shit. IT SOUNDS AMAZING ALREADY.

Woots! Cant wait!!

Well that's it for the week. Sigh. When can I break free?

Love, Eran.

I can totally relate to the lyrics.. Especially the first verse. Maybe I should have taken the chance…

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Break Free

[Verse 1]

If you want it, take it

I should have said it before

Tried to hide it, fake it

I can’t pretend anymore

[Pre-Chorus]

I only want to die alive

Never by the hands of a broken heart

I don’t wanna hear you lie tonight

Now that I’ve become who I really am

[Chorus x2]

This is the part when I say I don’t want it

I’m stronger than I’ve been before

This is the part when I break free

Cause I can’t resist it no more

[Verse 2]

You were better, deeper

I was under a spell

Like a deadly fear I am, babe

On the highway to hell

[Pre-Chorus] + [Chorus x2]

[Bridge]

(Our love baby, oooh)

The thought on your body

I came alive

It was lethal

It was fatal

In my dreams it felt so right

But I woke up and pretend

Oh baby

[Chorus x2]

Breakaway

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Things are calmer now. Guess its cause all the devils are tied up LOL. Mum's getting better from her fever & is in talking terms with Dad again, & I just completed the first day of fasting. Alhamdulillah. School's starting tomorrow and I can't wait to get it over with. I'm just not ready for school. Don't know what's up with me but I haven't really done much the past 2 weeks. Well I'm still gonna miss my holidays.

I miss you. You haven't contacted me for almost 3 days. You tweet about missing someone. Is it me? Or have you already found someone else? I don't know. I don't want to know. You don't seem to bother anymore. You won't even tell me your problems. I'm tired. I'm just really tired. I'm almost immune to the pain now. I'm used to it. 

I just want to breakaway.

Love, Eran.

Gonna go lay my body down.. 

Current Song Mood: Celine Dion - Breakaway

From the fire in your words

To the dagger in your eye

I just have to lay my body down

Go and lay my body down

I pretend to be asleep

But I know you hear me cry

I just have to lay my body down

Go and lay my body down

But if I

Really want a change

Then I must admit

That I'm the one to blame

If I could break away

Cut the cord

For worse or better

If I could turn the page

At last and say

Goodbye forever

But on the other side

Of yesterday

Beyond the heartache

What if all I am

Without the pain

Is empty hearted

I could break away

Is it true what people say

That it's darkest before dawn?

I just have to lay my body down

Go and lay my body down

Any hope we might have saved

Is too weak to let live on

I just have to lay my body down

Go and lay my body down

And if I

Really want a change

Then tonight I'm gonna need

All of my strength

If I could break away

Cut the cord

For worse or better

If I could turn the page

At last and say

Goodbye forever

But on the other side

Of yesterday

Beyond the heartache

What if all I am

Without the pain

Is empty hearted

I could break away

Oh, anything is better than this

I know

Anything is better

If I could break away

Cut the cord

For worse or better

If I could turn the page

At last and say

Goodbye forever

But on the other side

Of yesterday

Beyond the heartache

What if all I am

Without the pain

Is empty hearted

If I could break away

If I could turn the page

But on the other side

Of yesterday

Beyond the heartache

What if all I am

Without the pain

Is empty hearted

I could break away

Expertease

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Wanted to blog yesterday buuut, I was too tired & slept early ._.

A certain friend needed cheering up, so I went to hang out with him! Went to his house to play Dota2 *-* Hahaha I suck at it but we won the game so that made up for it! After the game, I passed him a gift that he'd always wanted, A Toothless plushie! Should've recorded the look on his face cause he was so happy haha! Damn cute. Like a small boy x)

We then met up with his friend, E, at Compass Point and had pizza for dinner. Had lots of talks & laughs. Oh & I found out that our birthdays were 1 day apart!! SO COOL. I ate 4 slices and I felt like exploding. ._. Lol… we walked around the mall for a while then parted ways with E. He then treated me to a choco milk tea drink :3 We sat under his block and chatted till like 10+. Tiring but I must say my 'last' day of holiday was well spent! With great company. :)

This morning was just… emotionally draining for me. Family issues. But oh wells, I'm sure it will work out.. It always does…

Ramadhan is here already, fasting starts tomorrow! Will be going to the mosque for terawih later at night.. Sighpie ;-; My laziness is kicking in lol. Lets hope I can remain holy throughout this whole month LOL.

Happy fasting my Muslim friends~ :)

Love, Eran.

Thank you for cheering me up.

Current Song Mood: Jennifer Lopez - Expertease

Boy you give me hungry eyes
You and I are doing it tonight
But I don’t wanna make you aware to give it
Boy you know you make me hot
My sweet spot is hitting the jackpot
You know that our bodies are made for sinning
And you know that you’re on fire, you’re on fire
And I’m on fire, I’m on fire
And we’re lit up, we’re lit up
Let’s rise
Yeah you know that you’re on fire, you’re on fire
And I’m on fire, I’m on fire
And we’re lit up, we’re lit up
Let’s rise

So come on baby ready set go
I wanna throw boy against the curb
Come on baby ready set go
Let my body be your world
Come on baby ready set go
Let me your expert
Come on baby ready set go
Ready set go
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease
And you know it
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease
An expert-tease

I’mma turn your body on
Cause a marathon begins with passion
And I don’t wanna wait another minute
We can do it standing up
Gonna feel my love one thing unites
You know that our bodies are made for sinning
And you know that you’re on fire, you’re on fire
And I’m on fire, I’m on fire
And we’re lit up, we’re lit up
Let’s rise
Yeah you know that you’re on fire, you’re on fire
And I’m on fire, I’m on fire
And we’re lit up, we’re lit up
Let’s rise
So come on baby ready set go
I wanna throw boy against the curb
Come on baby ready set go
Let my body be your world
Come on baby ready set go
Let me your expert
Come on baby ready set go
Ready set go
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease
And you know it
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease
An expert-tease

Tease you, make you burn for me
Love in the third degree
I’ll tease you, make you burn for me
Love in the third degree

So come on baby ready set go
I wanna throw boy against the curb
Come on baby ready set go
Let my body be your world
Come on baby ready set go
Let me your expert
Come on baby ready set go
Ready set go
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease
And you know it
Let me show my expertease
I’m an expertease