Bird Set Free

Page 522

Just had a fantastic day out.

Finally, was getting bored of home.

Tried out things that I've never really dared to do.

And overcame certain fears that I've always had.

Felt like a bird set free.

I don't appreciate people who tries to bring me down for no reason.

And the nerve to tell me what to do?!

I don't get it haha.

The freaking irony.

Leave me alone.

I'll love what I want.

And nothing can get in the way.

Don't pretend to know shit when you don't.

I'll just leave it at that.

Love, Eran.

Get out while you still can.

Current Song Mood: Sia - Bird Set Free

Clipped wings, I was a broken thing
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not sing
You would wind me down
I struggled on the ground
So lost, the line had been crossed
Had a voice, had a voice but I could not talk
You held me down
I struggle to fly now

But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
No I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free

Now I fly, hit the high notes
I have a voice, have a voice, hear me roar tonight
You held me down
But I fought back loud

But there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, we cannot deny
Eats us alive, oh it eats us alive
Yes, there's a scream inside that we all try to hide
We hold on so tight, but I don't wanna die, no
I don't wanna die, I don't wanna die

And I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I shout it out like a bird set free
No I don't care if I sing off key
I find myself in my melodies
I sing for love, I sing for me
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free
I'll shout it out like a bird set free

A Moment Like This

Page 521

Just got back home.

In time to relax, and de-stress.

Caught the Series Finale of American Idol.

Man, what a journey it has been.

I haven't been catching up with the series.

But the Top 2 were really super good.

I was impressed.

So many familiar faces turned up for the Finale.

My favourites,

Katharine Mcphee, Pia Toscano.. Shit even William Hung was there HAHAHA.

Wow.

Felt so nostalgic seeing them all perform.

Took me back to my childhood days..

Watching these singers perform.

I grew up with this show.

I'm glad almost everyone could make it, even the 3 original judges.

After all, a moment like this doesn't come very often.

I hope new talent shows can happen, and I hope Singapore starts focusing on the performing arts more.

Because I know for sure, there's lots of hidden talents here.

Thank you, American Idol.

It's been a great journey.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Kelly Clarkson - A Moment Like This

What if I told you
It was all meant to be
Would you believe me,
Would you agree
It's almost that feelin'
That we've met before
So tell me that you don't think I'm crazy
When I tell you love has come here and now...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Everything changes
But beauty remains
Something so tender
I can't explain
Well I maybe dreamin'
But 'till I awake
Can we make this dream last forever
And I'll cherish all the love we share

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Could this be the greatest love of all
I wanna know that you will catch me when I fall
So let me tell you this...
Some people wait a lifetime

For a moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this
Some people search forever,
For that one special kiss
Oh, I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this

Oh, like this oh, I can't believe it's happening to me.

Some people wait a lifetime,
For a moment like this.

Oh, like this.

Secret Love Song

Page 520

What a day its been.

And such a coincidence too.

Didnt think I'd see you again.

It's been.. years.

We're both different people now.

Matured. 

Appreciative.

It was.. actually the first time we talked.

Guess it triggered something in me.

Maybe this our secret love song.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Little Mix Ft Jason Derulo - Secret Love Song

When you hold me in the street
And you kiss me on the dance floor
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

We keep behind closed doors
Every time I see you, I die a little more
Stolen moments that we steal as the curtain falls
It'll never be enough
It's obvious you're meant for me
Every piece of you, it just fits perfectly
Every second, every thought, I'm in so deep
But I'll never show it on my face

But we know this, we got a love that is homeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

[Jason Derulo:]
When you're with him, do you call his name
Like you do when you're with me? Does it feel the same?
Would you leave if I was ready to settle down?
Or would you play it safe and stay?

Girl you know this, we got a love that is hopeless

Why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

And nobody knows I'm in love with someone's baby
I don't wanna hide us away
Tell the world about the love we're making
I'm living for that day
Someday
Why can't I hold you in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that we could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours, I'm yours

Oh, why can't you hold me in the street?
Why can't I kiss you on the dance floor?
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't it be like that? 'Cause I'm yours
Why can't I say that I'm in love?
I wanna shout it from the rooftops
I wish that it could be like that
Why can't we be like that? 'Cause I'm yours

Why can't we be like that?
Wish we could be like that

Rock Bottom

Page 519

UMMMMM WHAAAAAAAAT.

So in case you guys don't know what's up,

I just caught the Season 6 Finale of The Walking Dead.

And I was literally left shaking. And in an emotional MESS.

It was so intense, but HEY. Surprise, surprise, a lame cliffhanger that we have to wait for the next 6 months. Damn it.

But it was so good THO. I MEAN, NEGAN. Such a terrifying guy!!

My gosh.

Enough adrenaline for today.

Speaking of which, I was almost late for work hahaha.

All I remember was swiping away my alarm when I was half-awake lmao.

But I miraculously got there in time, Thank God.

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There are some people in life that will just, try to put you down.

And I've felt so pissed and angry today because of that.

Because of certain things said to me.

The neverending insults.

Because of certain knowledge, that I'm supposed to have just because I was a nurse.

I haven't touched my skills in about a year.

Do you really expect me to remember everything?

Being the patient person that I am, I guess I handled today extraordinarily well.

I don't know how much longer I can take though.

I won't take anymore bullshit.

You can't push me around with your fatass ego.

I'm not the same as I was a year ago.

All I can say is, I'm not afraid to hit rock bottom.

Not anymore.

The only way is up.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Marco Mengoni - Rock Bottom

I want to bury my head in the sand I want the seas to wash me away I wish someone was holding my hand But I'm too scared to ask you to stay I'm on my knees I'm calling my own name I'm on my knees I think this is it I'm on my knees I feel that the world can end I wish us a new beginning Because I hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now Don't you give in Yeah, I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now You're finally here Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up (But now I'm standing) But now I'm standing staring at the sun (Can you come and pick me up?) You pick me up in your loving arms (I thought I'd never wake up) I thought that I would never let go (It's been a nightmare!) The nightmare and I had become one (I'm all alone, again) I'm on my knees I'm calling my own name I'm on my knees I think this is it I'm on my knees I feel that the world could end I wish us a new beginning Because I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more no don't give up no Don't you give in Yeah, I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now You're finally here Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up

Be Alright

Page 518

Been feeling a little off lately.

A little too emotional maybe.

I've been staring into blank spaces lately.

Feeling... empty.

But I'm positive.

Everything's gonna be alright.

I believe it will.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Be Alright

Midnight shadows
When finding love is a battle
But daylight is so close
So don't you worry 'bout a thing

We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright

Baby don't you know
All them tears gon' come and go
Baby you just gotta make up your mind
That every little thing is gonna be alright
Baby don't you know
All them tears gon' come and go
Baby you just gotta make up your mind
We decide it

We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright

In slow motion
Can't seem to get where we're going
But the hard times are golden
Cause they all lead to better days

We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright

Baby don't you know
All them tears gon' come and go
Baby you just gotta make up your mind
That every little thing is gonna be alright
Baby don't you know
All them tears gon' come and go
Baby you just gotta make up your mind
We decide it

We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright (ooh baby!)
We're gonna be alright
We're gonna be alright, yeah

Golden

Page 517

He was right.

But I couldnt tell him.

I knew it.

I felt it.

It was a close call tonight.

It was scary.

Funny how things turned out in the end.

God has such a way to plan everything out.

To connect the dots.

The choices we make.

Changes the paths that we take.

Like golden sands of time.

I felt Him tonight.

And I felt empowered that I did the right thing and walked away.

Thank you.

For watching over me.

Though I'm not worthy of your love.

Thank you.

Love, Eran.

Everything's like a jigsaw piece.

Current Song Mood: ZAYN - Golden

It goes and it's golden like sands of time
I hope and I hope you'll still be fine
I know that it's bright, look through the light and see, it's meant to be
I know that it's bright, look through the light and see, it's meant to be

Every single jigsaw piece
Seems to be you complete

The choices we make change the path that we take
But I know
That somewhere out there there's a path that we chose
There's a life that we share, there's a love and it grows

It goes and it's golden like sands of time
I hope and I hope you'll still be fine
I know that it's bright
Look through the light and see, it's meant to be

Every single jigsaw piece

The choices we make change the path that we take
But I know
That somewhere out there there's a path that we chose
There's a life that we share, there's a love and it grows

Cause it grows and it grows
And I hope that you know
Cause it grows and it grows
I know that it's bright, look through the light and see

The choices we make change the path that we take
But I know
That somewhere out there there's a path that we chose
There's a life that we share, there's a love and it grows

Recognize

Page 516

April.

It's been quite a week. 

Still getting used to all this freedom.

Stayed in for a night and I really enjoyed it.

Haha, starting to get crazy & comfortable with everyone.

Hopefully I'll start picking things up/learning the ropes fast.

Just wanna address something.

I'm so glad I didnt get in.

I don't know whats up with this place and the people full of ego and pride.

The way they overdo things. Like fuck, chill dudes.

I mean, that's the only thing that gets on my nerve.

We're all human beings.

Tone down a little.

Treat one another with respect.

I don't club, drink or smoke.

I don't need to change to 'fit in'. 

I'm perfectly comfortable with who I am.

Just being honest.

I hope you realize your true friends.

I hope you recognize a real one when you see one.

That's all.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Skizzy Mars Ft JoJo - Recognize 

[Chorus: Jojo]
Baby, if i tell you what I want, don't call me crazy
If I tell you I'm in love, know I ain't playing
And if you give me your heart, no, I won't break it
Baby, I, I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
A real one when you see one, yeah

[Verse 1: Skizzy Mars]
Yeah, tonight I wanna switch it up
They said I need help, I didn't get enough
White whine, swishers, blunts
And your hating girlfriend, chilling in the cut
They told me you the realest so I had to check
And I don't lift weights but I had to flex
Then we had sex
And we stayed up for three straight nights
Talking 'bout shit that's abstract

[Pre-Chorus 1: Skizzy Mars]
I love it when you tell me stories
I love it when you kiss my head
I love it when we in the club
I love it more when we're in my bed
I coulda wrote a love letter
But I wrote you a song instead
And I think our timing is fine
I'm reminded girl, you're the realest
So we got it so timeless

[Chorus: Jojo + Skizzy Mars]
Baby, if i tell you what I want, don't call me crazy
I won't, I won't
If I tell you I'm in love, know I ain't playing
I know, I know
And if you give me your heart, no, I won't break it
Baby, I...
Baby, I, I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
I know you recognize a real one when you see one
You better recognize a real one when you see one, yeah
A real one when you see one, yeah

[Verse 2: Skizzy Mars]
Oh, tonight I wanna do it big
Natural shit, all real, we ain't forcing it
And if we ain't winning then we forfeiting
Cause we don't take L's, we don't take L's
Money on the dresser, condoms in the second drawer
Back in high school I had game but I never scored
Real with your words so I trust you
After the show, girl, I really wanna fuck you

[Pre-Chorus 2: Skizzy Mars]
I love it when you tell me stories
I love it when you kiss my head
I love it when we in the club
I love it more when we're in my bed
I coulda wrote a love letter
But I wrote you a song instead
PJ's, Atlantis, Saint Barts to Bahamas
And I think our time is now girl, I promise

[Chorus: Jojo + Skizzy Mars]
Baby, if i tell you what I want, don't call me crazy
I won't, I won't
If I tell you I'm in love, know I ain't playing
I know, I know
And if you give me your heart, no, I won't break it
Baby, I...
Baby, I, I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
I hope you recognize a real one when you see one
I know you recognize a real one when you see one
You better recognize a real one when you see one, yeah
A real one when you see one, yeah