Rock Bottom

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UMMMMM WHAAAAAAAAT.

So in case you guys don't know what's up,

I just caught the Season 6 Finale of The Walking Dead.

And I was literally left shaking. And in an emotional MESS.

It was so intense, but HEY. Surprise, surprise, a lame cliffhanger that we have to wait for the next 6 months. Damn it.

But it was so good THO. I MEAN, NEGAN. Such a terrifying guy!!

My gosh.

Enough adrenaline for today.

Speaking of which, I was almost late for work hahaha.

All I remember was swiping away my alarm when I was half-awake lmao.

But I miraculously got there in time, Thank God.

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There are some people in life that will just, try to put you down.

And I've felt so pissed and angry today because of that.

Because of certain things said to me.

The neverending insults.

Because of certain knowledge, that I'm supposed to have just because I was a nurse.

I haven't touched my skills in about a year.

Do you really expect me to remember everything?

Being the patient person that I am, I guess I handled today extraordinarily well.

I don't know how much longer I can take though.

I won't take anymore bullshit.

You can't push me around with your fatass ego.

I'm not the same as I was a year ago.

All I can say is, I'm not afraid to hit rock bottom.

Not anymore.

The only way is up.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Marco Mengoni - Rock Bottom

I want to bury my head in the sand I want the seas to wash me away I wish someone was holding my hand But I'm too scared to ask you to stay I'm on my knees I'm calling my own name I'm on my knees I think this is it I'm on my knees I feel that the world can end I wish us a new beginning Because I hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now Don't you give in Yeah, I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now You're finally here Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up (But now I'm standing) But now I'm standing staring at the sun (Can you come and pick me up?) You pick me up in your loving arms (I thought I'd never wake up) I thought that I would never let go (It's been a nightmare!) The nightmare and I had become one (I'm all alone, again) I'm on my knees I'm calling my own name I'm on my knees I think this is it I'm on my knees I feel that the world could end I wish us a new beginning Because I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more no don't give up no Don't you give in Yeah, I can hear a voice so small But big enough to hear There's more don't give up now You're finally here Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up Rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'll hit rock bottom I'm not afraid to hit Rock bottom The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up The only way is up

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Sometimes when you feel like you've hit rock bottom, you can only depend on yourself to get up.

I've been used many times in my life.

Falling for that shit over and over again.

You just gotta take a while to think it.

And ask yourself.

Should I?

Does it feel right?

If it doesn't feel right, don't be afraid to say NO.

Because I've hesitated so many times.

Being dumb and vain.

I can't do that no more.

Ultimately, it's your decision.

Listen to your heart.

It's the best way.

Love, Eran.

We keep on coming back for more.

Current Song Mood: Hailee Steinfeld Ft DNCE - Rock Bottom

What are we fighting for?
Seems like we do it just for fun
In this, this stupid war
We play hard with our plastic guns

Breathe deep, bottle it up
So deep until it's all we got
Don't speak, just use your touch
Don't speak before we say too much

You hate me now and I feel the same way
You love me now and I feel the same way
We scream and we shout
And make up the same day, same day

Oh, we're on the right side of rock bottom
And I hope that we keep falling
We're on the good side of bad karma
Cause we keep on coming back for more
We're on the right side of rock bottom
And to you I just keep crawling
You're the best kind of bad something
Cause we keep on coming back for more

You get under my skin
More than anyone's ever been
But when we lay in bed
You hold me harder till I forget that

You hate me now and I feel the same way
You love me now and I feel the same way
We scream and we shout
And make up the same day, same day

Oh, we're on the right side of rock bottom
And I hope that we keep falling
We're on the good side of bad karma
Cause we keep on coming back for more
We're on the right side of rock bottom
And to you I just keep crawling
You're the best kind of bad something
Cause we keep on coming back for more
Keep on coming back for more
Cause we keep on coming back for more

What are we fighting for?
Seems like we do it just for fun
In this, this stupid war
We play hard with our plastic guns

Oh, we're on the right side of rock bottom
And I hope that we keep falling
We're on the good side of bad karma
Cause we keep on coming back for more
We're on the right side of rock bottom
And to you I just keep crawling
You're the best kind of bad something
Cause we keep on coming back for more
Keep on coming back for more
Cause we keep on coming back for more
Keep on coming back for more
Cause we keep on coming back for more

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There is a certain comfort in sadness and loneliness.

Just a thought. Maybe I'm meant to be alone. All by myself. That's where I find the most comfort. Just being on my own..

:)

Love, Eran

Maybe I've hit rock bottom.

Current Song Mood: Adriana - Rock Bottom

There I go again

(Go Go)

Missin, (oh.)

Reality is not my friend

I'm wishing

I would of had a little more time

away from time

I wish I had a little more time 

To run and hide

Swim through the deepest waters of your ocean

Drown in the mix of dark and clear liquor

that you're pouring for me

Remember all the vibrations of the music in the background?

Before the dark pain that you felt from hitting rock bottom

There I go again x4

See, feelings aren't for me

They drown me in my sleep

Cause the only real love that I have is in my dreams

They're all make believe

I would of had a little more time

away from time

I wish I had a little more time 

To run and hide

Swim through the deepest waters of your ocean

Drown in the mix of dark and clear liquor

that you're pouring for me

Remember all the vibrations of the music in the background?

Before the dark pain that you felt from hitting rock bottom