Don't Talk About It

Page 647

Just got back from my short getaway.

Pretty fulfilling trip indeed.

Shopped a lot. Ate good food. Chilled. Relaxed.

Just, nothing to worry about.

That's the life man.

Everything I could ask for.

Of course, a lot had to happen.

Whatever happens there stays there.

Don't talk about it.

Yeah..

:)

Love, Eran.

Loving the highs.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Don't Talk About It

Golden tables, broken mirrors, naked girls around
Young and scared of love affairs so keep your conscience down
The world is beautiful, believe it with another line
Keep it up, if you're lucky enough
You know you're winnin' at life

Piles of paper gonna make 'em roll around in it
Watch it dripping from her lips
And wash your sins with it
Know it's hazy, but amazing
Yeah, you like that shit
Keep it up, if you're lucky enough
You know you're winnin' at life

Safe with me
Move so free
Silently

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Pretty faces, put in place
To match the scenery
Take our pics is like a fix for your anxiety
The world is beautiful, so why don't you feel anything?
Keep it up, when you gettin' that rush
You know you cash your way out

Safe with me
Move so free
Silently

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

(Pushing, pulling)
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
(Pushing, pulling)
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
We can take perfect pictures
(Pushing, pulling)
We can take perfect pictures all night
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
We can take perfect pictures
(Pushing, pulling)
We can take perfect pictures all night
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
You better keep a straight face 'fore the camera flashes
But your fucked

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Two Weeks

Page 646 

Two weeks.

Finally, a break.

Gonna take some time off from work.

Get myself into my safe zone.

 And just focus on myself.

Focus on my well-being.

No drama.

Nobody to care about.

Just me.

I need this.

I deserve this.

And I'm gonna make the best use out of it.

Tomorrow I'll be sailing off.

Away from here.

Just to have a peace of mind.

And for you?

I wish you the best in whatever you're doing right now.

I won't be looking you up anymore.

Love, Eran.

Higher than a motherf*cker.

I'm still dreaming of you as my lover...

Current Song Mood: FKA Twigs - Two Weeks

(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)

I know it hurts
You know
I'd quench that thirst
(I can treat you better than her)
You say you're lonely
I say you think about it
'Cause you're the only
One who resonates that chase
Mouth open like (high)

Higher than a motherfucker dreaming of you as my lover
(Open your heart)
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

I know it hurts
You know
I'd put you first
(I can fuck you better than her)
You say you want me
I say you'll live without it
Unless you're the only
One who instigates
Got your mouth, open your heart

Higher than a motherfucker dreaming of you as my lover
(Open your heart)
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

Feel your body closing, I can rip it open
Suck me up I'm healing, for the shit you're dealing
Smoke on the skin to get those pretty eyes rolling
My thighs are apart for when you're ready to breathe in
Suck me up I'm healing, for the shit you're dealing
Hi, motherfucker got your mouth open you know you're mine

I'd put you first
Just close your eyes and dream about it
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
I'll quench your thirst
Just chase the high and stop your doubting
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(High, high, high, high)
Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

Safe Inside

Page 645

I closed my eyes.

Tried to take a nap but I couldnt.

As I played this song, that struck a chord in my heart.

The words, the melody, everything sinked in.

Oh god.

I just wanna curl into a ball and sink in somewhere.

I can't help but feel so down today.

When was the last time I felt this way.

Maybe I really am losing it.

We met for the first time and I couldnt help but feel butterflies.

I was.. so shy.

I kept looking away the whole time.

Even when you came by.

We made eye contact at one point.

You were staring intensely.

What was that look?

Was that a frown?

Or something that said 'don't acknowledge me.'

I don't.. know...

I panicked and looked away.

Why was I so flustered?

Maybe I missed the signs.

Maybe, when you were heading towards me when I came, you wanted me to say something.

Maybe you thought that I wasnt what you expected when we texted.

Maybe we're too different.

Maybe.. I didn't stand a chance in the first place.

I snuggled against my jacket.

I just wanna feel safe inside.

I just wanna feel something.

Different.

Love, Eran.

I can't live... like this anymore.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Safe Inside

I remember when you were all mine
Watched you changing in front of my eyes
What can I say
Now that I'm not the fire in the cold
Now that I'm not the hand that you hold
As you're walking away

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't repeat my mistakes
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

Everyone has to find their own way
And I'm sure things will work out okay
I wish that was the truth
All we know is the sun will rise
Thank your lucky stars that you're alive
It's a beautiful life

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't repeat my mistakes
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

If you make the same mistakes
I will love you either way
All I know is that I can't live without you
There is nothing I can say
That will change you anyway
Darling, I could never live without you
I can't live, I can't live

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't make my mistakes
I won't sleep, I won't sleep
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you

Can I Be Him

Page 644

You know that butterflies you get in your tummy..

After speaking to someone that intrigues you.

That makes you feel a certain way.

Lately I've been craving for.. some affection.

I guess part of me misses that.

Been thinking about the past and all the good feelings I've felt.

It makes me want to snuggle up somewhere.

Just... blushing at the thought.

Can I be the one? 

The one you talk about in all your stories.

Can I be him?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Can I Be Him

You walked into the room
And now my heart has been stolen
You took me back in time to when I was unbroken
Now you're all I want
And I knew it from the very first moment
Cause a light came on when I heard that song
And I want you to sing it again

I swear that every word you sing
You wrote them for me
Like it was a private show
But I know you never saw me
When the lights come on and I'm on my own
Will you be there to sing it again
Could I be the one you talk about in all your stories
Can I be him

I heard there was somone but I know he don't deserve you
If you were mine I'd never let anyone hurt you
I wanna dry those tears, kiss those lips
It's all that I've been thinking about
Cause a light came on when I heard that song
And I want you to sing it again

I swear that every word you sing
You wrote them for me
Like it was a private show
But I know you never saw me
When the lights come on and I'm on my own
Will you be there to sing it again
Could I be the one you talk about in all your stories

Can I be the one
Can I be the one
Can I be the one
Oh, can I, can I be him

Won't you sing it again
Oh, when you sing it again
Can I be him
Won't you sing it again
Oh, when you sing it again
Can I be him

I swear that every word you sing
You wrote them for me
Like it was a private show
But I know you never saw me
When the lights come on and I'm on my own
Will you be there, will you be there
Can I be the one you talk about in all your stories
Can I be him
Can I be him
Can I be him
Can I be him

Influence

Page 643

How have I been living lately?

Damn.

Gotta get back on track.

The past week or so has been.. extremely 'occupied'.

Surrounded by too much negativity.

I don't need any more of it in my life.

I've been under the influence.

And I need to shake it off.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo Ft Wiz Khalifa - Influence 

[Tove Lo:]
First line, take mine; I'm fine as fuck
Love myself tonight and I think you can feel the same
Moonshine, good time; babe, you're in luck
'Cause I will do whatever comes to mind
You'll go insane

Things I say don't usually come easily
There's one thing I need you now to know 'bout me

You know I'm under the influence
So don't trust every word I say, I say
When I'm under the influence
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
You know I'm under the influence
So don't trust every word I say, I say
Sounds good without making sense
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
When I'm under the influence

Take off, liquor; I feel the beat
Hold onto the floor but I keep spinnin' round and round
Swing me, baby, back on my feet
Hiding in the crowd; we're making love without a sound

Things I say don't usually come easily
There's one thing I need you now to know 'bout me

You know I'm under the influence
So don't trust every word I say, I say
When I'm under the influence
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
You know I'm under the influence (oh, oh)
So don't trust every word I say, I say
Sounds good without making sense (sounds good without making sense)
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
When I'm under the influence

Boy meets, boy meets
Girl meets girl
This is the best place in the world, ooh
Boy meets, boy meets
Girl meets girl
This is the best place in the world, ooh
Boy meets, boy meets
Girl meets girl
This is the best place in the world

[Wiz Khalifa:]
So, intoxicated and faded, I'm in the club, barely made it
I see the look on your face and it says that you want it later
But you ain't too into waitin', I fly you to different places
Took all your crew and amazing cause they ain't doing the same shit
Barely knew what your name is, don't care who you just came with
Make a move and get famous, get your mission completed
Use the other politic or entertainment
I just got a couple things I wanna know cause everything is moving slow
I usually wouldn't ask this though

[Tove Lo & Wiz Khalifa:]
You know I'm under the influence
So don't trust every word I say, I say (Wiz Khalifa man)
When I'm under the influence
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
You know I'm under the influence (boy meets, boy meets, girl meets, girl)
So don't trust every word I say, I say
Sounds good without making sense (boy meets, boy meets, girl meets, girl)
It's a blur, but I want my way, my way
When I'm under the influence

True Disaster

Page 642

I left with mixed feelings.

Gave zero f*cks about it.

I knew I was gonna get hurt.

I knew my heart strings were gonna get played.

Yet I still went for it.

Why?

I can never explain.

It's.. it's an addiction.

When can it stop?

I'm a true disaster.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - True Disaster

Pretty boys, they didn't teach me things I didn't know
They don't have the thing that I need, but they don't know they don't
You got that old thing about ya, and I can't hide my feels
Pretty girls, they always die out, need another sex appeal

I said come on, zero fucks about it
Come on, I know I'm gonna get hurt
Come on, zero fucks about it
Come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Pretty girls, they like it fancy but you don't keep it clean
We get dirty and we go hard, some things we don't mean
Tell me "No one's gonna get ya", I'm just straight up mad
A fool in love rolled up beside me and you're just as bad

I said come on, zero fucks about it
Come on, I know I'm gonna get hurt
Come on, zero fucks about it
Come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
You keep playing it like (keep playing it like)
Keep playing it like
You keep playing it like
I'm gonna get hurt
I'm gonna get hurt
Ah, come on

Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster
You can be just what I want, my true disaster
Keep playing my heartstrings faster and faster (true disaster)
You can be just what I want, my true disaster

Keep playing it like
Keep playing it like (you keep, you keep, you keep playing it like)
You keep playing it like
Keep playing it like
You keep playing it like

DNA

Page 641

Another month.

So drained from my cover last night.

Woah.

Surviving on 1-2 hrs of sleep is no joke.

Ah well, now I've got the rest of the week to rest up.

Cant help but to overthink stuff in the midst of my fatigue.

Things that I really want to say, but I can't.

Things that I've felt that I wish I hadn't.

Being ashamed of parts of me.

The worst part?

It's in my DNA.

And I can't blame anyone on that.

Love, Eran.

 I won't be like you.

Current Song Mood: Lia Marie Johnson - DNA

Dark as midnight
Six pack Coors Light
You don't look the same

Past my bedtime
Blue and red lights
Come take you away

Hate to see you like a monster
So I run and hide
Hate to ask but what's it like to leave me behind

I won't be, no I won't be like you
Fighting back, I'm fighting back the truth
Eyes like yours can't look away
But you can't stop DNA
No, you can't stop DNA

Twice a year, you come in crashing 
Nice to see you too
Johnny Cash and backseat laughing
Always ends too soon

Hate to say hello 'cause I know that it means goodbye
Hate to ask but what's it like to leave me behind

I won't be, no I won't be like you 
Fighting back, I'm fighting back the truth
Eyes like yours can't look away
But you can't stop DNA
No, you can't stop DNA

All the pieces of you
And the pieces of me 
I'm just so scared 
You're who I'll be when I erupt
Just like you do, they look at me
Like I look at you 

I won't be, no I won't be like you
Fighting back, I'm fighting back the truth
Eyes like yours can't look away
But you can't stop DNA
No, you can't stop DNA