Lights Up

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To be young and free.

And feel comfortable in your skin.

That is the way to live.

I guess that's what Harry felt when he made this song.

And decided to put it out today.. a pretty significant day.

I admire that.

We all have our own personal journeys.

No one can write your story, but you.

Stories that take a lot of courage to share to the world.

I hope one day, I can be just as open about myself too.

But for now, just step into the light.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Harry Styles - Light Up

What do you mean?
I'm sorry by the way
I'm never coming back down
Can't you see
I could but wouldn't stay?
I wouldn't put it like that

What do you mean?
I'm sorry by the way
I'm never coming around
It'd be so sweet if
Things just stayed the same
La-da-da-da-da

All the lights couldn't put out the dark
Running through my heart
Lights up and they know who you are
Know who you are
Do you know who you are?

(Shine)
Step into the light (Shine)
So bright sometimes (Shine)
I'm not ever going back

(Shine)
Step into the light (Shine)
So bright sometimes (Shine)
I'm not ever going back

(Shine)
Step into the light (Shine)
So bright sometimes (Shine)
I'm not ever

What do you mean?
I'm sorry by the way
I'm never going back now
It'd be so sweet if
Things just stayed the same
La-da-da-da-da

La-da-da-da-da
La-da-da-da-da
La-da-da-da-da
La-da-da-da-da

All the lights couldn't put out the dark
Running through my heart
Lights up and they know who you are
Know who you are
Do you know who you are?

Joanna

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Ya'll know how much I love JoJo!!!

And she recently dropped some new shit.

HELL YEA JOANNA!!!

I remembered looking up to her when I was a kid.

I was 12 at that time, and Too Little Too Late was taking over all the charts.

I was like... 'Wah this girl sounds damn good.'

And she can hit all these high notes and sing differently than all these other artists.

I've literally grown up with her over the years.

Never stopped supporting her, especially when she was stuck in limbo. #FreeJoJo

It was because I knew of the talent she had, and was soooo frustrated when she couldnt release new music.

Leaks after leaks came out. 

At least 100 songs???  And she had to scrap so many albums too. It was MAD.

During O Levels, this particular one called 'Limbo' leaked.

And I could never find a song that could match that level of... i don't even know how to describe it.

It's just amazing. 

And her music really got me through a lot today.

Heck, it inspired me to sing and write my own music.

She is literally the reason why I want to pursue music.

I remember her being in the studio and tweeting after about how therapeutic it was.

I wanted that so badly, and now... I finally get to pursue that too. :)

Thank you for inspiring me, Jo.

I admire her strength and resilience, and how humble she is.

It's been a long time coming, and I can't wait to see what's in store.

Her lead single 'Sabotage' Ft CHIKA will be available on 25th October. 

That's 2 weeks!!!!

LETS DO THIS!!!

#NEWERA #TEAMJOJO

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Joanna

We go back a long time
I've been writing with you since day one
Oh I remember when we were just kids
You were singing, winning, young and innocent
But they say, "Do you really sound the same?
"Do you still have the same range
That you did when you were 14, girl?"
I don't really know

You should date somebody famous
That would probably put you on the A-list
That would probably get you on them playlists
Stop you being so damn underrated
What is going on, Joanna?
What is going on, Joanna?

You peaked
Sorry to kick deep, but
Heard your story before it's not unique
You sounded resentful, take a seat
It must be something that you did
Did you go and have somebody's kid?
You shouldn't even go that high
Why can't you just play your part?
Speaking of which, where did your acting career go?

You were supposed to be somebody
You were supposed to make more money
Make us proud
Nobody likes you in Massachusetts
You should just hurry and drop your new shit
Hurry and drop your new shit

Everything Matters (When It Comes To You)

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I stared out of the glass window...

Daydreaming, as I watched people pass by.

These people who were heading to work.

On a Friday.

And here we were, at Mac, having a breakfast date.

Discussing about our Melbourne trip.

(PS. Im never out this early LOL)

This was nice..

A nice change.

Sometimes we work so hard, we forget how to take it easy when we're not.

It was.. a perfect day.

The whole day.. spent with my partner.

Everything matters when it comes to you.

:) 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: San Holo - Everything Matters (When It Comes To You)

Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you

Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you
Everything matters, when it comes to you

Everything mat-
Everything
Everything
Everything
Everything

Everything matters, when it comes to you
When it comes to you
When it comes to you
When it comes to you
When it comes to you
Oh

Sad Forever // Nobody's Keeping Score

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'I'm so proud of my adik Syah today.'

'Yes! Really Syah, I really appreciate all your help today.'

Things I rarely hear at my workplace.

And all I did was help out with what I could.

Even if it meant delaying my break.

Because... its just the right thing to do.

To help others.

It's World Mental Health Day.

A nod to those that are going through their everyday struggles.

I feel you.

It is not easy.

But hang in there.

Your mind is a powerful tool.

You won't be sad forever.

Surround yourself with love, and give love to others.

Even if you don't get it back.

It's okay if you mess up.

Nobody's keeping score.

Be kind to others.

You never know what they're going through.

And most importantly,

Be kind to yourself.

You deserve it.

And everything more.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood #1: Lauv - Sad Forever

Daydream
Life feels like a daydream
And I just wish that I could wake up
I just wish that I could wake up
My mind, whispers in the nightime
Voices always keeping me up
Telling me that I should give up

'Cause lately
I've been in the backseat to my own life
Trying to take control, but I don't know how, to

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know what words to say and
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I'm coming through to the other side
I'll make it through to tomorrow
'Cause that's all I can do today
Do today

'Cause lately
I've been in the backseat to my own life
Trying to take control, but I don't know how, to

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know what words to say and
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

Mmm, sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna be sad no more
I don't wanna wake up and wonder
What the hell am I doing this for?
I don't wanna be medicated
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

I don't wanna be sad forever
I don't wanna go one more day
I just wanna wake up and realize
Everything's gonna be okay
I don't know what words to say and
I don't wanna go through that war
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad
I don't wanna be sad anymore

Current Song Mood #2: CYN - Nobody's Keeping Score

Nobody's perfect
I've heard it said a million times
Wish I could keep it in my mind
The times when I'm hurting
The times when I mess up
To be more forgiven like I tried
I cut myself some slacks some times

I've got voices running through my mind
I heard it say and regret is just a waste of time
You know this
Don't give off the best of your emotions
It takes some strength
To really be great and

Nobody, nobody's keeping score
Nobody, nobody's keeping score
You mess up
You live and then you learn
And don't forget
Nobody's keeping score

The heat of the moment
Brings out the worst and the best guy
Makes me feel better 'bout last night
The times when I'm angry
The times that I ask why
'Cause no memories into my life
All I can really do is try

I've got voices running through my mind
I heard it say and revenge is just a waste of time
You know this
Don't give off the best of what's not worth it
It takes some strength
To really be great and

Nobody, nobody's keeping score
Nobody, nobody's keeping score
You mess up
You live and then you learn
And don't forget
Nobody's keeping score

Nobody, nobody's keeping score
Nobody, nobody's keeping score
You mess up
You live and then you learn
And don't forget
Nobody's keeping score

Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody

I've got voices running through my mind
I heard it say and revenge is just a waste of time
You know this
Don't give off the best of what's not worth it
It takes some strength
To really be great and

Nobody, nobody's keeping score
Nobody, nobody's keeping score
You mess up
You live and then you learn
And don't forget
Nobody's keeping score

9th Of October

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9th of October..

Came to realise how much time has passed. 

It was all so different last year.

I am glad, that I am in a much better place right now.

Lots of anxiety, and deep breaths today.

At least I've gotten through my last presentation this semester.

It's like a big weight lifted off my shoulders.

NO. MORE.

Lol.

Now to just focus on 2 more assignments, and I am done.

I can do this. 

Almost..

Hang in there.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - 9th Of October

We never had coffee table books or dinner parties
We always had hazy nights and sex, cliché's in Paris
Don't disturb on the top floor
Getting high by the window
In bed with your eyes locked into mine
How perfect was it?

9th of October, I always remember
No bad things had happened then
Honestly, you never thought you'd fall for me
But somehow you got pulled in
Livin' so fast, makin' memories last
'Til our hearts couldn't hold no more
Hear you explodin' while I am implodin'
Now, how did we let this go?

We never had, ah
We never wanted, ah
We never had, ah
We never wanted
A normal kind of love

We never had time for useless fights
'Bout dirty laundry
We always had tender, long goodbyes
Packed bags in a hurry
Our last kiss at the bus stop
Had I known, would've jumped off
And now from the pieces of my heart, I'm so sorry

9th of October, I always remember
No bad things had happened then
Honestly, you never thought you'd fall for me
But somehow you got pulled in
Livin' so fast, makin' memories last
'Til our hearts couldn't hold no more
Hear you explodin' while I am implodin'
Now, how did we let this go?

We never had, ah
We never wanted, ah
We never had, ah
We never wanted
A normal kind of love

Waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
(We never wanted)
Waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
Still waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
We never wanted a normal kind of love

9th of October, I always remember
9th of October, I always remember
Those big words, I said them first
9th of October, I always remember
9th of October, can't think of it sober
'Cause all of it fuckin' hurts

Waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
(We never wanted)
Waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
Still waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
We never wanted a normal kind of love
Oh, waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
(We never wanted)
Waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
Still waitin' for my heart, waitin' for my heart
We never wanted a normal kind of love

Die Alone

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Everyone.. has their own struggles.

It really broke my heart to see you like that.

I wish I can help you, as much as I can.

To fight your battles with you.

You're not alone, okay?

I am always by your side.

You're the best thing that's ever happened to me this year.

Nobody understands me like you do.

I wasnt looking for you.

But you found me.

And I can't be more.. grateful for that.

I hope you feel better soon.

I am.. always here.

Right here.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: FINNEAS - Die Alone

I wasn't lookin' for you
But you found me, you found me
Just as the smoke filled the room
In the valley, you asked me,
"Do you wanna die alone
Or watch it all burn down together?"
I said I'd rather try to hold on to you forever

'Cause I-I-I-I-I know that I will love you
And I-I-I-I-I'm not letting go
If the sky darkens above you
I'll stay by your side in the afterglow

This was the place I grew up
Now it's ashes to ashes
Memories fillin' my cup
It comes in flashes
But when it passes and I see your eyes
I know there's nothin' I'll ever find better
I think I'd rather die alone, together

'Cause I-I-I-I-I know that I will love you
And I-I-I-I-I'm not letting go
If the sky darkens above you
I'll stay by your side in the afterglow

'Cause I-I-I-I-I know that I will love you
And I-I-I-I-I'm not letting go
If the sky darkens above you
I'll stay by your side in the afterglow

I wasn't lookin' for you
But you found me

Wake Up

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Today marks 9 months being together with you.

It feels right.

To wake up, and see you by my side.

I wish I can do that everyday.

I hope so, one day. 

I am grateful.

To have you.

It is fate.

And I believe that strongly.

We both do.

:) 

We are just.. living the best that we can right now.

Contented in our own little ways.

And nothing can replace it.

I want you by my side. 

Always.

Love you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: EDEN - Wake Up

'Cause we've been driving so long
I can't remember how we got here
Or how we survived so long
I'm tryna run from our pride
'Til you set fire to my atmosphere

And I remember how I spent the 23rd
Feeling six feet under
When I'm 30,000 feet in the air
Chasing that sundown
So far east I'm westbound
Feeling like the edge of this world is near

But you'll feel better when you wake up
Swear to God I'll make up
Everything and more when I get back someday
This is more than just a phase, love
Shooting stars all break up
And even though it seems like half the world away

Things will be better in America
Heard the streets are gold there
Maybe I could fly you out this place someday
Chasing dreams like I'm on Novocain
Screaming through your airways
Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

Stay, you're not gonna leave me
This place is right where you need to be
And why your words gotta mean so much to them
And they mean nothing to me

So stay, you're not what you're hearing
'Cause I've been watching you changing
And who said you're one in a million
Anyway?

'Cause you see only what you want to
Your tunnel vision haunts you
And you can't see what's wrong
When you keep sleeping through the PM
Eyes wide open when you're dreaming
You're sleepwalking,
Just keep talking

And maybe you can talk your way out of this deep end
No "B" plan in your system
Just tell me what you're thinking
I'm scared that you might fall

But you're not
But you're not

And you'll feel better when you wake up
Taking off your makeup
Sun always seems to wash our fears away
And it's always shining somewhere
I just gotta get there
And even though it seems like half the world away

Things are better in America
Heard the streets are gold there
Maybe I could fly you out this place someday
Chasing dreams like I'm on Novocain
Screaming through your airways
Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

"Stay, you're not gonna leave me
This place is right where you need to be
And why your words gotta mean so much to them
When they mean nothing to me?

So stay, you're not what you're hearing
'Cause I've been watching you changing
And who said you're one in a million?"

You're so much better than that
You're so much better than that
You're so much better than that

Stay, you're not what you're hearing
'Cause I've been watching you changing
And who said you're one in a million anyway?

And you'll feel better when you wake up
Swear to God I'll make up
Everything and more when I get back someday
Chasing dreams like I'm on Novocain
Screaming through your airways
Looking back I almost thought I heard you say

You're so much better than that