Stay

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Happy Valentines Day, love.

So many things to be thankful for today.

Woke up with great news.

That my song 'No Good' finally got on a playlist.

New Music Friday????

WHAAAT. That's amazing. 

I never thought it would happen.

It's really helped expose my music to others so far.

Significant amount of people are giving it a listen.

I'm just thankful that I even have the chance to put out my own music.

And I'm thankful for you too.

Always.

Being in your arms again after a few days, which felt like forever.

I am always myself when I'm with you.

You bring out the best in me.

Talked a bit of our future plans.

And about moving in together someday.

Woah, feels surreal.

But I am excited to make this happen.

We will work on it, together. 

I am here.. to stay.

:)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: OTR, WYNNE - Stay

[VERSE 1:]
I wonder how you feel tonight
Waiting on the line for so long
The things we said are circling now
So stop the car and cut the lights
No escaping from the road behind
The path ahead goes
Left or right

[Chorus:]
Stay
Tell me all the words I cannot speak
Tell me how to make you see
Tell me how I even begin
Stay
Tell me how to say what’s unsaid
When silence trips us instead
One word could start us again
Just one word could start us again

[VERSE 2:]
So if there’s nothing left to fight
We stand alone no place to hide out
Maybe just a memory now
Cos we crossed a line when it felt right
Promises of endless nights
But you could never stay for long
[Chorus:]
Stay
Tell me all the words I cannot speak
Tell me how to make you see
Tell me how I even begin
Stay
Tell me how to say what’s unsaid
When silence trips us instead
One word could start us again
Just one word could start us again

Better Times

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:DDDDDDD

Fuck I'm so tired.

Sooo tired of this shitttt.

But what can we do right?

Just suck it up and woOoOork.

Through the fatigue and never-ending rush, there were some pretty light moments as well.

Laughs and jokes made by my patients made my day.

I guess you just need to find the good in the bad.

This is just a pinch of what other frontliners are going through.

Hopefully it'll be a better day tomorrow.

And hopefully... this goes away soon.

I'm not sure how long I can take.

We're already halfway through the week. 

But it feels like forever.

Here's to.. better times.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lincoln Lim - Better Times

I keep my eyes wide open hope that I could find all of the time that I lost in love
I walk through cities knowing only how to get from a bottle of wine to a broken heart
And all the songs all the songs say
Love don't give a damn love is blind
I don't care I don't care
All I know is I will be just fine
Cause I will always be
In your memory for you to find
But if you come around
I wont be there but I hope you're fine

To the better times

You know you're still around me in the coffee cup stains on my couch and our old guitar
And I can't help feeling that it don't sound the same anymore but it's over now
Cause all the songs all the songs said
Love don't give a damn love is blind
They don't care they don't care
But I know that I will be just fine
Cause I will always be
In your memory for you to find
But if you come around
I wont be there but I hope you're fine

To the better times

To the broken beds
And the birthday cakes
To the dirty plates
In the bathroom sink
To the dinner dates
From the microwave
To the times I hoped
Would never change
To the sleeping late
And the aching heads
To the little talks
About wedding dates
To the promises
That I never said
Oh you know I wouldn't change a thing
Cause I will always be
In your memory for you to find
But if you come around
I wont be there but I hope you're fine

To the better times

Twenty Something

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Man.. things were so much less complicated last year.

Now it's all... virus here and there.

Daily workflow changes. Making things so confusing.

And ugly human behaviour all around.

F*ck this.

It really brings out the worst in people.

I am not a frontline nurse. 

But I am still in the risk, with the amount of people I come into contact with.

I am also surrounded by people twice my age.

Being the only one who's twenty something, our frequencies hit off less frequently.

I am really just counting down my remaining days here.

Can't be bothered man.

Doing my first OT tomorrow.

Well this will be a good gauge of how well I can take long shift works.

Wish me luck..

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Nightly - Twenty Something

Talk you down
Wasted on the couch
Say what you're feeling now
Don't hold back
Spell it out
Spare me your dirty mouth
Whatever is keeping you here now
Don't let it fade

Caught in a web of your memories
Like the way we would talk, we were 17
But I'm losing the feeling that's keeping me
Here now, here now

So don't freak out, we're only twenty something
All I know is that with you there's something
So different, and I will never slow down
And I will never slow down
Lay right here and we can waste away
Taste the corners of your pretty face
All I know is that with you there's something
And I will never slow down

What's there to cry about
Such a shame to see a face like yours
Fallin' to pieces on the bathroom floor
We can stay up all night
Till you're sure
Oh it's alright

And if you decided
That you don't wanna stay
I won't try and stop you
From moving to LA
But know that I still hate it
Every time you say
"Will you forget about me?"

So don't freak out, we're only twenty something
All I know is that with you there's something
So different, and I will never slow down
And I will never slow down
Lay right here and we can waste away
Taste the corners of your pretty face
All I know is that with you there's something
And I will never slow down

Don't freak out
Don't stop now babe
We're only twenty something
We're only twenty something
Don't freak out
Don't stop now babe
We're only twenty something
We're only twenty something
Don't freak out
Don't stop now babe
We're only twenty something
We're only twenty something
Don't freak out
Don't stop now babe
We're only twenty something
We're only twenty something

Remember Me

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Finally hit 25.

Mid-20s crisis indeed.

Hahaha.

I am just feeling thankful, grateful for everything.

For having people who love me. For who I am.

For having a roof over my head.

And for being in a stable career.

I just put out an EP too.

https://open.spotify.com/album/1YFdNfu6A3IBKES6nrp2hW?si=botFx0khRD-mfekmSZ1s4Q

It's been such a.. dream.

A long time coming.

I hope you enjoy these songs, from the bottom of my heart.

When I die one day, at least these songs will stay behind.

For you to remember me.

.

.

.

And lastly, thank you for spending the day with me.

Pampering and showering me love.

You're the best partner I've ever had.

You know who you are.

:)

My sayang.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: UMI - Remember Me

Wrote you a letter
Now that I'm here without you
Hope that you're better
Hope that you found someone new

'Cause I'm getting older
Know that I've changed
And I can't go back now
Nothing's the same
But I won't forget how
You called my name
When I was afraid
And now I'm afraid

Will you remember me
Will you remember the way that I was
Will you remember me
Will you remember the way that you felt when you're next to me

Will you remember
Do you remember me
Do you remember
Will you remember

Last summer
We made plans like we would always be
We said by now that we'd have everything and more
I never thought that we'd be dreaming on our own

'Cause I'm getting older
Know that I've changed
And I can't go back now
Nothing's the same
But I won't forget how
You called my name
When I was afraid
And now I'm afraid

Will you remember me
Will you remember the way that I was
Will you remember me
Will you remember the way that you felt when you're next to me

Will you remember
Do you remember me
Do you remember
Will you remember me

Will you remember
Do you remember me
Will you remember
Do you remember me (mmm)

I think that was it

Honest

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It's been quite an emotionally and physically draining week.

But I'm glad.. we made it.

We made through it.

If anything, it made me appreciate everything even more.

Us.

Everything we have.

I realised how.. my life would be so empty without you.

Thank you for sticking by my side.

And fighting for me.

I will always fight for you, too.

You are everything to me.

And I really mean it.

Like a close friend of my said once;

There is really no such thing as a perfect relationship.

It's how you tolerate each other, love them for who they are and work with each other to overcome problems.

It's a reciprocal commitment.

The most important thing is to have; an open communication.

Acknowledging and fixing mistakes.

Learning from it.

And being.. honest.

Something that I am working on.

I wish to be a better person, a better partner.

For you.

:)

For now, I'm just glad to be in your arms again.

And be the affectionate lazy cats that we are.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: San Holo Ft Broods - Honest

How can I try to keep it hidden
When I'm feeling like you're reading my mind?
High and I don't know what I'm thinking
But I'm talking to you like I can't lie

'Cause I don't know you
You don't know me
But I wanna go anywhere you're gonna be, oh
I just want us to be honest
Even if nothing comes from it, no
Come with me
Something so true in the ways that we speak, oh
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I love how I hear it in your silence
There's no need for you to say it out loud
Closer now, nothing in between us
Let's keep everything between us, no doubt

And I am never this person
Never this certain
But you got me willing to try
Willing to try
I wanna try

'Cause I don't know you
You don't know me
But I wanna go anywhere you're gonna be, oh
I just want us to be honest
Even if nothing comes from it, no
Come with me
Something so true in the ways that we speak, oh
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

I just want us to be honest
I just want us to be honest

Hounds

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A nice quiet day spent with my loved one.

And I can't ask for anything more.

A safe place to hide from the hounds.

And into my lover's arms.

Watching movies and having meals together.

I already feel like we're a married couple.

:)

I hope your feelings about me won't change.

I hope it stays like this.

Forever.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: RY X - Hounds

When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound
When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound

I lay my body down
To listen to the sound
I let my heart pick up
To feed it to the hounds

When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound
When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound

I lay my body down
To listen to the sound
I let my heart pick up
To feed it to the hounds

When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound
When it all comes down
When it all falls down
Hound

I lay my body down
To listen to the sound
I let my heart pick up
To feed it to the hounds

Leave It Alone

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Made the big move today.

A decision that I know I had to make.

I know it feels like I've let down some people.

Because they don't want me to leave.

But I have to do this for myself.

This place is.. holding me back.

I just wished people would respect my decision.

Instead of trying to make me feel guilty for leaving.

This is my choice.

So just leave it alone.

And let me live my life.

The countdown begins.

2 months till I leave.

Also, 10 more days till my songs drop.

And my graduation as well.

And my 25th birthday.

:)

Hahaha. Yikes.

It's going to be an exciting month.

x

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Hayley Williams - Leave It Alone

Don't nobody tell me
That God don't have a sense of humor
'Cause now that I want to live
Well, everybody around me is dyin'
Now that I finally wanna live
The ones I love are dyin'

Becoming friends with a noose that I made
And I keep trying to untie it
Make it into something useful
Or maybe hang it through a window pane
Turn it into a fire escape

It tastes so bitter
On my tongue
The truth's a killer
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone

You don't remember
My name somedays or
That we're related
It triggers my worry
Who else am I gonna lose before
I am ready
And who's gonna lose me

It tastes so bitter
On my tongue
The truth's a killer
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it a-

If you know love
You best prepare to grieve
Let it enter your open heart and
Then prepare to let it bleed

It tastes so bitter
The truth's a killer
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it alone

But I can't leave it alone
But I can't leave it a-
But I can't leave it a-