Fake Love

Page 651

It's getting dangerous.

What a close call.

Yet I'm still paranoid about it.

It aint right.

Yet I still went for it.

It feels like I've fallen back to square one.

That familiar feeling.

The breach of trust.

The reek of dominance.

All this... fake love.

Straight up to my face.

I'm tired.

When can I feel the real one again?

Slowly losing patience.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Drake - Fake Love (TG Cover)

Yeah, yeah

I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face
I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face

Somethin' ain't right when we talkin'
Somethin' ain't right when we talkin'
Look like you hidin' your problems
Really you never was all in
No you can't son me, you won't never get to run me
Just when shit look out of reach, I reach back like one, three
Like one, three, yeah

That's when they smile in my face
Whole time they wanna take my place
Whole time they wanna take my place
Whole time they wanna take my place
Yeah, I know they wanna take my place
I can tell that love is fake
I don't trust a word you say
How you wanna click up after your mistakes?
Look you in the face and it's just not the same

I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face
I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face

Yeah, straight up to my face, tryna play it safe
Vibe switch like night and day, I can see it like right away
I came up, you changed up, I caught that whole play
Since then, things never been the same

That's when they smile in my face
Whole time they wanna take my place
Whole time they wanna take my place
Whole time they wanna take my place
Yeah, I know they wanna take my place
I can tell that love is fake
(I can tell that love is fake)
I don't trust a word you say
(I don't trust a word you say)
How you wanna click up after your mistakes?
(How you wanna click up after your mistakes?)
Look you in the face and it's just not the same

I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face
I've been down so long it look like up to me
They look up to me
I got fake people showin' fake love to me
Straight up to my face, straight up to my face

Skrrt (skrrt, skrrt)

WTF Love Is

Page 650

WTF.

He got up.

Staring at disbelief at what I just said.

'I'm so sorry you went through that..'

'Wow.. thats fucked up.'

'You really deserve better.'

I was in disbelief too.

What a coincidence.

Really, today's encounter was meant to be.

We gossiped.

About the monster that ruined my life.

About all the stuff I've went through.

About all the updates he had.

Honestly, I don't give a f*ck.

But since he had all the juice anyway, why not?

After all this time, you're still the same.

Same worthless pathetic human being you have always been.

I'm so relieved I got out of that shit.

WTF do you think love is?

A game?

You're disgusting.

And I bet Karma's already hit you and made your life this miserable.

You deserve it.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - WTF Love Is

I got fire eyes, glitter in my tear lines
And I'm coming down, ready for some new sounds
And I'm holding up all that I can think of
But, where are you?
Where are you?

Oh, lonely babe, stranded on the dance floor
Look for me, I know that I'm a handful
But you get me, know what you signed up for
Live up to the best and the worst of your dreams

All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?
All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?

I can feel the lights tingling from the sunrise
And I see the signs clinging to our last nights
Thinking you and I, we are all the same kind
So where are you
Where are you?

Oh, lonely babe, stranded on the dance floor
Look for me, I know that I'm a handful
But you get me, know what you signed up for
Live up to the best and the worst of your dreams

All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?
All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?

With a hand like this I'm folding
All you need, yeah, I'll be holding
(What the fuck do you think love is?)
With a hand like this I'm folding
All you need, yeah, I'll be holding
(What the fuck do you think love is?)

Where are you? 
Lonely babe
(Can't focus)
Look for me
(I lost you)
You get me
(What you wanted)
Live up to the best
Live up to the best and the worst of your dreams

All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?
All the cards with all the love cliches
I wouldn't have it any other way
Shake your head, you don't believe this
Then what the fuck do you think love is?

Cling my hand like this and fold it
All you need, yeah, I'll be holding
(What the fuck do you think love is?)
Cling my hand like this and fold it
All you need, yeah, I'll be holding
(What the fuck do you think love is?)

Ah, fuck!
Ugh, I need another

Keep It Simple

Page 649

Backstabbers and two-faced fiends.

Tired of meeting them in my life.

A never-ending drama.

Some people just can't count their blessings can they?

Grow up la.

Stop being selfish pricks.

So disappointing.

Don't think I can even face ya.

Let me keep it simple.

And avoid contact for the time being.

I don't need anyone.

You only need yourself to survive.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Keep It Simple

I've been deep down in the dirt for some time
Not a clear song from my heart on my mind
Cause these are words that are clinging on for dear life
But I'm breathing, I'm breathing, I'm breathing

You got body and my knees they go weak
Lie awake and read your sex, I can't sleep
I wish I wanted what you want, not free yet
But I'm breathing, I'm breathing, I'm breathing

Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you
Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you

I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready
I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready
I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready

I go to bed with you and dream about him
You think I want to, no I hate that he wins
Just to forget how fucking broken I am
But I'm healing, I'm healing, I'm healing

Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you
Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you

I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready
I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready
I ain't ready, I ain't ready, I ain't ready

Physical to trick your heart
You are moving on
Physical to feel okay
That's what people say
Physical I better try
So this ain't goodbye
Physical to trick your heart
You are moving on (I ain't ready)
Physical to feel okay
That's what people say (I ain't ready)
Physical I better try
So this ain't goodbye (let me keep it simple)
Physical to trick your heart
You are moving on (let it be just my call)
Physical to feel okay
That's what people say
Physical I better try
So this ain't goodbye (I ain't ready for ya)

Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you
Let me keep it simple, so I don't have to face ya
Let it be just my call, cause I ain't ready for you

Vibes

Page 648

What is it that I feel inside?

Rejection is a norm.

Even when you think you don't deserve it.

I wanna be more than I am.

Like I wanna do something greater.

But there's something that's holding me back.

And I can't seem to shake it off.

I feel the vibes all around.

There's no escape from it.

Do you feel it too?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Vibes

[Tove Lo:]
Skin to skin
Seepin' in
Flickering, our eyes go wide
You giving me studded sight
Painting stars
In our hearts
Yeah, you know I'm down for you
I want you to lick my wounds

What's you line though?
That I'm fine, oh
Heard that before
But somehow it means more

Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
These vibes, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes, ooh
Whisper pretty little things
Heart sings, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, tripping on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes

Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you
Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you

[Joe Janiak & Tove Lo:]
Break away
All the things stopping me from letting go
Temperature is taking hold
Heart beating faster and faster
I'll be your (you'll be my) brand new disaster
But I don't know
Seems like what you're looking for

[Joe Janiak:]
What's you type, though?
Am I right? No
Heard that before
Still you want it more

[Tove Lo:]
Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
These vibes, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes, ooh
Whisper pretty little things
Heart sings, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, tripping on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes

Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you
Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you

[Joe Janiak:]
What's you type, though?
Am I right? No
Heard that before
But still you want it more

[Tove Lo & Joe Janiak:]
Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
These vibes, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, trippin' on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes, ooh
Whisper pretty little things
Heart sings, I feel 'em, ooh
Dreamer, tripping on your highs
Feelin' all the vibes
Tell me

Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you
Do ya? Do ya? Do ya?
Do you feel 'em too?
I feel ya, feel ya, feel ya
Feeling so high falling into you

Don't Talk About It

Page 647

Just got back from my short getaway.

Pretty fulfilling trip indeed.

Shopped a lot. Ate good food. Chilled. Relaxed.

Just, nothing to worry about.

That's the life man.

Everything I could ask for.

Of course, a lot had to happen.

Whatever happens there stays there.

Don't talk about it.

Yeah..

:)

Love, Eran.

Loving the highs.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Don't Talk About It

Golden tables, broken mirrors, naked girls around
Young and scared of love affairs so keep your conscience down
The world is beautiful, believe it with another line
Keep it up, if you're lucky enough
You know you're winnin' at life

Piles of paper gonna make 'em roll around in it
Watch it dripping from her lips
And wash your sins with it
Know it's hazy, but amazing
Yeah, you like that shit
Keep it up, if you're lucky enough
You know you're winnin' at life

Safe with me
Move so free
Silently

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Pretty faces, put in place
To match the scenery
Take our pics is like a fix for your anxiety
The world is beautiful, so why don't you feel anything?
Keep it up, when you gettin' that rush
You know you cash your way out

Safe with me
Move so free
Silently

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

(Pushing, pulling)
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
(Pushing, pulling)
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
We can take perfect pictures
(Pushing, pulling)
We can take perfect pictures all night
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
We can take perfect pictures
(Pushing, pulling)
We can take perfect pictures all night
(Pushing, pulling 'til we die)
You better keep a straight face 'fore the camera flashes
But your fucked

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Don't talk about it
Sweep it under the rug like we do, do
Don't talk about it
If you're sitting with us, then you're in too
We don't talk about it
Your medallion's blindin' your mind too
Know you're loving the highs
You get in-between the lines of a life you don't need

Two Weeks

Page 646 

Two weeks.

Finally, a break.

Gonna take some time off from work.

Get myself into my safe zone.

 And just focus on myself.

Focus on my well-being.

No drama.

Nobody to care about.

Just me.

I need this.

I deserve this.

And I'm gonna make the best use out of it.

Tomorrow I'll be sailing off.

Away from here.

Just to have a peace of mind.

And for you?

I wish you the best in whatever you're doing right now.

I won't be looking you up anymore.

Love, Eran.

Higher than a motherf*cker.

I'm still dreaming of you as my lover...

Current Song Mood: FKA Twigs - Two Weeks

(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)

I know it hurts
You know
I'd quench that thirst
(I can treat you better than her)
You say you're lonely
I say you think about it
'Cause you're the only
One who resonates that chase
Mouth open like (high)

Higher than a motherfucker dreaming of you as my lover
(Open your heart)
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

I know it hurts
You know
I'd put you first
(I can fuck you better than her)
You say you want me
I say you'll live without it
Unless you're the only
One who instigates
Got your mouth, open your heart

Higher than a motherfucker dreaming of you as my lover
(Open your heart)
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

Feel your body closing, I can rip it open
Suck me up I'm healing, for the shit you're dealing
Smoke on the skin to get those pretty eyes rolling
My thighs are apart for when you're ready to breathe in
Suck me up I'm healing, for the shit you're dealing
Hi, motherfucker got your mouth open you know you're mine

I'd put you first
Just close your eyes and dream about it
(Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover)
I'll quench your thirst
Just chase the high and stop your doubting
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(High, high, high, high)
Higher than a motherfucker, dreaming of you as my lover
Flying like a streamer, thinking of new ways to do each other
(Open your heart)
Pull out the incisor, give me two weeks you won't recognize her
Mouth open you're high

Safe Inside

Page 645

I closed my eyes.

Tried to take a nap but I couldnt.

As I played this song, that struck a chord in my heart.

The words, the melody, everything sinked in.

Oh god.

I just wanna curl into a ball and sink in somewhere.

I can't help but feel so down today.

When was the last time I felt this way.

Maybe I really am losing it.

We met for the first time and I couldnt help but feel butterflies.

I was.. so shy.

I kept looking away the whole time.

Even when you came by.

We made eye contact at one point.

You were staring intensely.

What was that look?

Was that a frown?

Or something that said 'don't acknowledge me.'

I don't.. know...

I panicked and looked away.

Why was I so flustered?

Maybe I missed the signs.

Maybe, when you were heading towards me when I came, you wanted me to say something.

Maybe you thought that I wasnt what you expected when we texted.

Maybe we're too different.

Maybe.. I didn't stand a chance in the first place.

I snuggled against my jacket.

I just wanna feel safe inside.

I just wanna feel something.

Different.

Love, Eran.

I can't live... like this anymore.

Current Song Mood: James Arthur - Safe Inside

I remember when you were all mine
Watched you changing in front of my eyes
What can I say
Now that I'm not the fire in the cold
Now that I'm not the hand that you hold
As you're walking away

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't repeat my mistakes
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

Everyone has to find their own way
And I'm sure things will work out okay
I wish that was the truth
All we know is the sun will rise
Thank your lucky stars that you're alive
It's a beautiful life

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't repeat my mistakes
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

If you make the same mistakes
I will love you either way
All I know is that I can't live without you
There is nothing I can say
That will change you anyway
Darling, I could never live without you
I can't live, I can't live

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you the whole night
Don't make my mistakes
I won't sleep, I won't sleep
If you're home I just hope that you're sober
Is it time to let go now you're older
Don't leave me this way
I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

Will you call me to tell me you're alright
Cause I worry about you