Hear Me Now

Page 699

Disgusted.

Oh how I hated him.

Staring at me in that way.

I could read people.

I always could. And I knew I was always right.

It was all a facade.

Everything was fake.

All the actions lead to it.

And actions, speak louder than words.

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Been thinking about the past years.

Of how much I've grown.

As an individual.

I've made so many mistakes.

Met so many idiots.

Even haters.

That pull you down even when you're innocent.

Yeah, I don't even know why myself haha.

So many different types of people in this world.

Heh.

If only you get to hear me now.

If only you get to see me now.

Boy, you'd be surprised.

I'm starting to understand life better now.

It's meant to be this way.

 This never-ending depth of loneliness.

That's part of life.

It's part of mine now.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Alok - Hear Me Now

[Intro]

If get you to hear me now

[Verse 1: Zeeba]

I know you’ll get stronger

When you get older

Just don’t shrug your shoulders

When you get older

[Pre-Chorus: Zeeba]

Things aren’t easy

So just you believe me now

If you don’t keep it cool now

You’ll never make a sound

[Chorus: Zeeba]

All the lights will guide the way

If you get to hear me now

All the fears will fade away

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

[Verse 2: Zeeba]

Leave excuses aside

Speak out your mind

Don’t let in slide

You’re not always right

[Pre-Chorus: Zeeba]

Things aren’t easy

So just you believe me now

Don’t learn the hard way

Just let me show you how

[Chorus: Zeeba]

All the lights will guide the way

If you get to hear me now

All the fears will fade away

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

[Outro]

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

If you get to hear me now

Versace On The Floor

Page 698

I heard J's music blasting in the bunk.

The music taste was.. pure.

Uplifting.

Holy.

It made me felt good.

What an nice change. I wondered.

All the songs I've been listening to lately were just, dark and gloomy.

J's character caught my eye.

Someone that is so, joyful and easygoing all the time.

I strived to be that great in character.

Later that night, I purposely went nearby, as I packed my stores.

I played my uplifting songs.

The songs I knew J would like.

Secretly hoping, he'd like my taste in music.

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Man, what a day. 

I've never felt this connected to someone in a long time. 

It's been a while..

With Ed Sheeran's 'Shape Of You' in the background.

Laughing & embracing skin to skin.

I think that's a feeling that everyone appreciates.

I hope you it enjoyed it as much as I did.

:)

Take it off for me,

Versace On The Floor.

I feel strangely empowered tonight.

I guess from the people that I've met that made me feel good.

Thank you.

Love, Eran

Current Song Mood: Bruno Mars - Versace On The Floor

Let's take our time tonight, girl
Above us all the stars are watchin'
There's no place I'd rather be in this world
Your eyes are where I'm lost in
Underneath the chandelier
We're dancin' all alone
There's no reason to hide
What we're feelin' inside
Right now

So, baby, let's just turn down the lights and close the door
Ooh, I love that dress, but you won't need it anymore
No, you won't need it no more
Let's just kiss 'til we're naked, baby

Versace on the floor
Ooh, take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl
Versace on the floor
Ooh, take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl

I unzip the back to watch it fall
While I kiss your neck and shoulders
No, don't be afraid to show it all
I'll be right here ready to hold you
Girl, you know you're perfect from
Your head down to your heels
Don't be confused by my smile
'Cause I ain't ever been more for real, for real

So just turn down the lights
And close the door
Ooh, I love that dress, but you won't need it anymore
No, you won't need it no more
Let's just kiss 'til we're naked, baby

Versace on the floor
Ooh, take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl
Versace on the floor
Ooh, take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl
Dance

It's warmin' up
Can you feel it?
It's warmin' up
Can you feel it?
It's warmin' up
Can you feel it, baby?
It's warmin' up
Oh, seems like you're ready for more, more, more
Let's just kiss 'til we're naked

Versace on the floor
Hey, baby
Take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl
Versace on the floor
Ooh, take it off for me, for me, for me, for me now, girl

Versace on the floor
Floor
Floor

Just Luv Me

Page 697

I got my stuff downstairs.

All ready for my cover.

As I loaded up my stuff, my EC walked past me.

'Morning :)'

'M-m-morning!' I stuttered.

My heart raced.

Oh shit. 

That happened.

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Damn disappointed. 

I wish you'd turn out the way I thought you were.

Someone whom would just luv me.

But that's just wishful thinking.

I felt disrespected.

Just when I thought you were special..

 Have fun with him tonight.

Cause you probably missed your chance with me.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Britney Spears - Just Luv Me

Just luv me (just luv me)
Just luv me

I'm not gonna ask for a sip when I'm thirsty
And you don't have to hold my hand when I'm hurting
Won't make you sober me up when I'm turning
And you don't gotta say it, I know that I'm worthy

You could ask me for a sorry
Let it calm before the storm
Ask for pieces of my body
Until all of it is yours

But I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me
I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me, just luv me

If you think that I'm saying that because I'm high maintenance
Like I'm trying to mask every problem that I'm facing
Well you're wrong cause I don't need nobody when I'm breaking
All I need is your love and a little bit of patience

You could ask me for a sorry
Let it calm before the storm
Ask for pieces of my body
Until all of it is yours

But I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me
I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me, just luv me

I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me
I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me

Oh no, I won't, I promise, I promise
Oh no, I won't ask you for nothing
Oh no, I won't, I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise

But I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me
I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me, just luv me
I'ma keep it simple, real simple
Just luv me, just luv me, just luv me

Oh no, I won't, I promise, I promise
Oh no, I won't ask you for nothing
Oh no, I won't, I promise, I promise
I promise, I promise
I'm not gonna ask you for nothing
Just luv me (Just luv me)

Shooting Stars

Page 696

I walked across the long, flat, rocky terrain.

What a nice change.

Definitely easier than Brunei.

I could get used to this.

The Officer beside me chatted a bit.

Then we went silent.

I observed the surrounding.

The cool weather ahead.

A picturesque view of this beautiful land.

Wow. Breathtaking.

We walked past some villages.

And I noticed 3 kids sitting in the vegetation, peeking at us marching by.

I flashed a smile, and they grinned and giggled to themselves.

How cute.

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Been a while since I've been outfield.

Been covering people's asses all week due to unseen circumstances.

Feels like shit man, but I gotta do what I gotta do.

Even if no one gives credit.

I actually enjoy outfield.

Makes me feel.. important.

Especially when you know it'll be a peaceful one.

Aside from the mosquitos of course.

And the weird driver and officer.

(He was such an extrovert, and had a strange taste in music)

Nonetheless, nice people.

I sat in the darkness of the vehicle.

A sudden explosion sent shockwaves across the land.

A flare floated in the night sky.

Reminding me of shooting stars.

Damn.

What a sight.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Bag Raiders - Shooting Stars

It's late and I'm awake
Staring at the wall
Open up my window
Head floats out the door

No one else around
The shimmer takes my eye
I lift my head
Blinded by the sky

Feel my weight in front
Following the sound
Moves away so fast
Fall down to the ground

I know there's more to come
Jump back to my feet
Now I only see ahead of me
Chasing down the street

Gave my love to a shooting star
But she moves so fast
That I can't keep up
I'm chasing

I'm in love with a shooting star 
But she moves so fast 
When she falls then
I'll be waiting

No More Sad Songs

Page 695

I don't know why.

I was tossing and turning.

My heart was uneasy.

I'm all the way over here.

While you're all the way over there.

Are you thinking about me?

I miss you.

Even though we've met only once.

But what can I do about it?

I'm just gonna bury myself under the blanket.

And forget you ever existed.

Just like them.

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A day well spent.

I love my hobbies. 

I'm very passionate about them.

Even though I feel a little off.

After some news I've received.

Well, I guess life goes on.

I know where I stand. :)

Just gonna be my personal best.

No more sad songs for today.

Love, Eran.

I'm begging please.

Current Song Mood: Little Mix - No More Sad Songs

I keep trying, nothing's working
I still wanna know, if you're alone
I keep trying to put this behind me
I still wanna know who's taking you home

For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play no more sad songs

Dancing with danger, talking to strangers
Don't care where I go, just can't be alone
They'll never know me, like you used to know me, no

For tonight, I'm going to get my mind off it
Don't care that someone's got his hands all over my body
Stay out all night, go where the music is loud
So I don't have to think about it, I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
Oh

Going home, take the long way round
Lights pass, sit back with the windows down
Still got you on my mind
Starting to realize
No matter what I do
I will only hurt myself, tryna hurt you
And if I turn the music loud, just to drown you out
I'm beggin', please don't play

No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
No more! Sad songs
I'm beggin', please, don't play

No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
No more sad songs
No, no more sad songs
No more sad songs
Oh
No more sad songs

Fade Into You

Page 694

The stars were so beautiful.

So clear.

So bright.

I've never seen anything like this.

As we trekked into the darkness.

In the middle of nowhere.

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I'll admit it.

I was shaking inside.

When I heard the news.

Who wouldn't?

No matter how much I despised.

It'd be such a tragedy.

But I'm glad it wasnt him.

I closed my mind and envisioned.

The darkness.

The cold water.

The struggle.

My mind wandered.

As I faded into you.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ben Harper - Fade Into You

[Verse 1]
I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life, you go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there
[Chorus]
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

[Verse 2]
A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then its smiles cover your heart

[Chorus]
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew
I think it's strange you never knew

Shape Of You

Page 693

Kittens!

Two of them.

They got inside the bunk.

Some ran from them.

Most gathered to play with them.

One of them climbed onto my bed.

It moved towards me.

Meowing.

Purring.

Attacking my face with kisses.

I felt so happy.

So loved.

Just this little animal was enough to make my heart full.

And just like that, my worries disappeared.

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I should stop.

But.

Cant seem to stop myself.

It's been consecutive. 

A relapse?

I suppose.

But I keep justifying it.

And I would.

I'm just in love with the idea.

The feeling.

The body.

The shape of you.

Love, Eran.

And it's so addicting.

Current Song Mood: Ed Sheeran - Shape Of You

The club isn't the best place to find a lover
So the bar is where I go
Me and my friends at the table doing shots
Drinking fast and then we talk slow
You come over and start up a conversation with just me
And trust me I'll give it a chance now
Take my hand, stop
Put Van The Man on the jukebox
And then we start to dance
And now I'm singing like

Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you

One week in we let the story begin
We're going out on our first date
You and me are thrifty
So go all you can eat
Fill up your bag and I fill up a plate
We talk for hours and hours about the sweet and the sour
And how your family is doing okay
Leave and get in a taxi, then kiss in the backseat
Tell the driver make the radio play
And I'm singing like

Girl, you know I want your love
Your love was handmade for somebody like me
Come on now, follow my lead
I may be crazy, don't mind me
Say, boy, let's not talk too much
Grab on my waist and put that body on me
Come on now, follow my lead
Come, come on now, follow my lead

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
And last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Oh I oh I oh I oh I
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you

Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on

I'm in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I'm in love with your body
Last night you were in my room
And now my bedsheets smell like you
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Come on, be my baby, come on
Come on, be my baby, come on
I'm in love with your body
Every day discovering something brand new
I'm in love with the shape of you