Gimme

Page 1209

A BREAK AT LAST.

Been working my ass off the past half year.

Literally flee'd from work early today.

It gets on my nerve whenever people throw their problems at me.

I'm not interested lol.

I just want to go by my day peacefully, and get some rest at the end of the day.

Not getting targeted for stupid things.

I guess it's never good staying put in a company for too long.

I'm just starting anyway.

In need for a change of environment.

Gimme till the end of the year.

Then I'll start planning.

In the meantime, lets RAYA.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Gimme 

Woah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah
Gimme, yeah-eah-eah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah
Woah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah
Gimme, yeah-eah-eah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah

At the rock bottom baby crawl, crawl
I let you lick it from the ground, ground
'Cause I've been drippin' for your love, love (Woah, woah)
You can call me that bitch (Woah, woah, oh, oh)
It's all signed
All I can think about is you're mine
You and me in my bed at midnight (Woah, woah)
And you can call me that bitch (Woah, woah, oh, oh)

We can be over, over
And you can write if you know her, know her
Or we can ride and be over
Get it, say it, I'm your type
I know you been all this time
So get it right
To get around me

Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it

Pick up the phone, come on, let's talk all about
That thing you do, the way you move hell on my mouth
Let's get away, just me and you sometime (Woah, woah, woah, woah)
You can call me that bitch (Woah, woah, woah, woah)
Oh, you're mine to take
I wanna hear the sounds that you'll make
Drivin' me crazy with the way you whine (Woah, woah, woah, woah)
And you can call me that bitch

We can be over, over
And you can write if you know her, know her
Or we can ride and be over
Get it, say it, I'm your type
I know you been all this time
So get it right
To get around me

Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it

Got my attention on the prize
Was always something that I want though
And I can see it in your eyes, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme, gimme though
Yeah, yeah, gimme, gimme it

Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it (Give me it, give me it)
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it (Give me it, give me it)
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it (Give me it, give me it)
Gimme, gimme, what I want, what I deserve
Gimme, gimme it

Woah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah
Gimme, yeah-eah-eah, gimme, yeah-eah-eah

With My Whole Heart

Page 1208

It's so perfect.

Just us.

With the therapy light on.

In bed.

And beautiful music playing.

Is it unhealthy?

To be this lazy?

Who knows hahaha.

But we both prefer this.

Than being out there in the world.

Just us.

In this safe haven.

Where all we have, is each other.

Because what we have, is sacred.

:)

I love you.

With my whole heart.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sufjan Stevens - With My Whole Heart

[Verse 1]
I will love you
I will love you with my whole heart
I will love you with my whole heart
I will love you, baby
I will love you with my whole heart
I will love you with my whole heart

[Verse 2]
Say you love me, baby
(Say you love me, baby)
Say you love me with your whole heart
(Say you love me with your whole heart)
Say you love me with your whole heart
Say you love me, baby
(Say you love me, baby)
Say you love me with your whole heart
(Say you love me with your whole heart)
Say you love me with your whole heart

[Chorus]
And you're all I want
(I fell in love, I fell in love the moment that I met you)
And you're all I need
(I give my life, I give my love, promise I will protect you)
And you're all I've got
(I will not rest until I know the best is always with you)
And I still believe
(I confess the world's a mess but I will always love you)

[Verse 3]
I will save you
(I will save you)
I will save you from your sorrow
(I will save you from your sorrow)
I will save you from your sorrow
I will love you, baby
(I will love you, baby)
Even if there's no tomorrow
(Even if there's no tomorrow)
Even if there's no tomorrow

[Chorus]
And you're all I want
(I fell in love, I fell in love the moment that I met you)
And you're all I need
(I give my life, I give my love, promise I will protect you)
And you're all I've got
(I will not rest until I know the best is always with you)
And I still believe
(And I confess that I'm a mess but I will always love you)

[Bridge]
Say you love me, baby
Say you love me true
Say you love me, baby
I go crazy, I love you
Say you love me, baby
(Say you love me, baby)
Say you love me true
(Say you love me true)
Say you love me, baby
I go crazy, I love you
(I go crazy, I love you)

[Outro]
And you're all I want
(And you're all I need)
And you're all I need
And I still believe
I go crazy for you
And you're all I want
And you're all I need
I go crazy for you
And I still believe

Nightmare

Page 1207

Hello June.

Damn.

It feels like half a year has passed in a blink of an eye.

Plus It's been a hell of a week.

A nightmare actually.

Well, all I need to do is to push through.

Just a little while longer.

A few more days and I'll finally be able to rest proper.

With my upcoming leaves and end of my school semester.

Cant wait to see what the next half has in store. :)

It's gonna be.. exciting.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Nightmare

Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
If I shall die before I wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I've tasted blood and it is sweet
I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet
I've trusted lies and trusted men
Broke down and put myself back together again

Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters
Collected the pieces and picked out a dagger
I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers
And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors

Come on little lady, give us a smile
No, I ain't got nothing to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for
A moment to say "I don't owe you a Goddamn thing"

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

No sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night

No, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth
And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe
I've been polite, but won't be caught dead
Letting a man tell me what I should do in my bed
Keep my exes in check in my basement
'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent
I could play nice, or I could be a bully
I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be

Come on little lady, give us a smile
No, I ain't got nothing to smile about
I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for
A moment to say "I don't owe you a Goddamn thing"

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware, yes
Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware
But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind
They talk shit, but I love it every time
And I realize

I'm no sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night
That I'm no sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night

You Got To Go

Page 1206

To be in your arms.

And letting all my emotions out.

Is the only thing I needed today.

Thank you for making time for me.

And listening to my sorrows.

I needed this.. therapy.

Its been an overwhelming week.

But it's going to be over soon.

I can do hard things.

I can.

I've got to.

So thank you.

For sticking by me. :)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Above & Beyond Ft Zoe Johnston - You Got To Go

Dream on, little dreamer! This is how it all begins
Move your feet ~ feel how sweet it is
Dream on, little dreamer! Follow all of your signs
You got to gather up what you need
You got to choose a direction
And when the moment is right for you

You got to go

You got to keep your ideals high
You got to know that the sky belongs to no one
You know you got to go!
Keep on, little dreamer ~ keep hold of all that you are

I Found

Page 1205

You asked me if I still feel anything about my ex?

Well some songs or flashbacks do trigger certain feelings.

But it doesn't matter anymore because this year..

I found something new.

I found something better.

I found.. you.

And I could never have expected things to fall into place this way.

But it did :)

And for that, I'm forever grateful.

And I'll cherish every moment we have.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Amber Run - I Found

And I'll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind
And I'll use you as a focal point
So I don't lose sight of what I want
And I've moved further than I thought I could
But I missed you more than I thought I would
And I'll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind

And I found love where it wasn't supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
[2x]

And I'll use you as a makeshift gauge
Of how much to give and how much to take
Oh I'll use you as a warning sign
That if you talk enough sense then you'll lose your mind

Oh and I found love where it wasn't supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me

And I found love where it wasn't supposed to be
Right in front of me
Talk some sense to me
[3x]

Strangers

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A happy family.

That's all the anyone wants.

I've never.. felt that.

Mine always felt like a rocky boat.

Compared to when I'm hanging out with my best friend's family.

Or even anyone else's.

So so different.

I guess I'm not the only one.

And I guess that why i'd rather spend my time outside.

If you're close with your family, your siblings, or even your pets. Consider yourself lucky.

Not everyone has that.

Sometimes.. its like you're living with strangers.

Think I'll be lonely for a while.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Charles Fauna - Strangers

I saw a person's last moments today

I watched him part the crown with his eyes closed

The sirens came and descended on him

I never witnessed the moment so up close

I felt the helplessness drifting down me

I looked for blood and I didnt see a drop

All that I saw was the people watching

Thinking of who they love most

Think I'll be lonely for a while x4

Hey younger woman that napped beside him

I saw her cradle his hands and kneeled in close

She whispered into his ears and smiled, yeah

Picked up her feet and walked into the cold

I have been wondering every day now

If they were strangers or if she knew him well

What does it take to connect with someone

Guess only time can tell

Think I'll be lonely for a while x4

Think I'll be lonely for a while x4

Free Spirit

Page 1203

'It's like the whole gang's back again.'

So nostalgic.

Seeing all of us together again tonight.

It feels like yesterday.

That we were in our CCA clubroom

Fooling around, making fun of each other.

Making memories.

Memories that makes us even closer 8 years later. 

I miss that.

The innocent times.

When everything was free and easy.

Like a free spirit.

Sometimes we're so busy adulting, we forget how far we've come.

Thank you guys.

For making me feel like a child again.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Khalid - Free Spirit

We were runnin' onto something
And we didn't say forever but it's all we wanted
You were so in love with simple things
And now we're searching for the fire, dripping kerosene
I've been lovin' more, livin' less
Off of highs and lows, so obsessed

Couldn't get nothin'
But we're never runnin' out, we'll be

Free spirits, free spirits
Can you hear me calling?
Oh, it's all or nothing
When you're free spirits, free spirits
Can you hear it calling?
'Cause I don't wanna live no normal life, let go

Is this Heaven or Armageddon?
Are we gettin' high, we could've watched the ending
We were trodding down our memories
A cemetery full of bottles that are incomplete
When you're loving more, caring less
It's the highs and lows with no clears
And we wanted it all then
But we'll never runnin' out, we'll be

Free spirits, free spirits
Can you hear me calling?
Oh, it's all or nothing
When you're free spirits, free spirits
Can you hear it calling?
'Cause I don't wanna live no normal life, let go

So tell me when you're falling
Though I could never doubt our love
Can you hear me calling?
Is it everything you're dreaming of?
Leave it all on the line
As long as you're not leaving me, well I am yours
Yours

Free spirits
Free spirit
Free spirit
Free spirit