Everyone shut up, I'm obsessed with this cute series. :(
I...
I feel so represented.
Charlie Spring is me.
And everything I dreamt of growing up.
He's shy. Innocent. Apologetic. Cuddly. And so, so loving. He must be protected at all costs.
This series made me smile & squeal every episode. There were so many moments that made me feel warm and fuzzy inside. Like falling in love for the first time.
A love so pure & uplifting.
No sex, drugs or swearing. Things that have been polluting us too much.
It was such a breath of fresh air.
A queer love finally being put in a positive light.
There is hope after all.
I wish this show was out when I was younger & figuring things out.
My younger self would've really appreciated it.
I appreciated them showing Nick coming to terms with his sexuality.
Also of Tao putting his friends first, and overreacting over every small thing that threatened their friendship.
Things like this are so relatable as a coming of age teen. Even as a young adult today, I still relate.
We're halfway through Ramadan, and honestly it's been going really great.
The fasting has actually helped me feel great mentally and physically.
I'm currently obsessed with Lizzy McAlpine. Accidentally found out about her through her Jacob Collier collab last year.
I watched her Five Seconds Flat film the other day with my partner, and fell in love immediately.
There's something so special about her music & what she's doing.
It's so personal. Nostalgic. Youthful. The storytelling is amazing. Dare I compare it to Folklore.
It's something so inspiring to me, and something I want to achieve one day.
An autobiographical piece of work.
Something that's who.. you are.
One day I'll put all my ghosts on display...
In the meantime, I'll just keep working on me.
:)
Love, Eran
Current Song Mood: Lizzy McAlpine - All My Ghosts
You got a Slurpee for free I caught you lookin' at me in the 7-Eleven Under fluorescent lights
We walked in comfy silence Footsteps down familiar sidewalk Knowing that we were here in our dreams last night
All my ghosts are with me I know you feel them too Ridin' shotgun next to your free Slurpee They know all of my habits, but they don't know about you I hope that's true Mmm Mmm, hmm
We made sangria and failed I spilled mac and cheese on my pants And thought about kissing you underneath kitchen lights
Oh, all my ghosts are with me I know you feel them too Oh, did you stand there while we were takin' shots of Brandy? They know all of my habits, but they don't know about you I hope that's true
I can see it now The wedding of the year I can see it now He stands up there and wipes his tears I can see it now And all my ghosts disappear I can see it crystal clear
You got a Slurpee for free I caught you lookin' at me in the 7-Eleven Under fluorescent lights
And all my ghosts were with me I know you felt them too Watchin' as I started to get dizzy 'Cause I hate all of my habits But I happen to love you I hope that's true
I had a weird dream today. Almost like an out-of-body experience.
I was in a body of an old man.
Walking through a backstage of a theatre. I went through the curtain and there was some sort of play/musical going on.
The crowd had a special vibe. I seemed to have enjoyed it.
I was about to leave and someone called out for me.
A mother and her small 5-year old daughter. She was the sweetest. Smiling gently.
‘We’re glad to have you here’
I sat down with them.
The daughter, with a short buzz cut came to me. She was such an angel. Smiling just as sweet.
She whispered:
'Death leaves space for your loved ones'
I felt a wave of sadness and a big lump in my throat, and sobbed uncontrollably.
The mother said something else.
''You are bitten by mold
And by mold you are reformed''
I'm not sure, I cant exactly picture the exact words. But it was along those lines.
Not that it makes any sense anyways.
At this point I woke up, Still sobbing.
Panting.
It was insane. I had never experienced this before.
It almost felt like a personal message for me.
One I'll hold dearly.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Lizzy McAlpine - Weird
I've been having strange dreams Seeing ghosts and breaking things Room's on fire as I sit and watch it melt around me I've been hosting screenings Of slightly altered movie scenes Seems familiar 'til I realize that they look just like me
Where am I? I can't find the door How long have you been here for? Where the houses all can talk And I don't mind the creaky floors
And now we're in a basement I feel wasted and I'm sure That you'll kiss me anyway That'll be just the thing to wake me
Maybe I'm weird or maybe I'm off the wall But maybe it's weirder not to have dreamed at all
I can walk through walls now Quietly I roam the halls Suddenly I'm ten feet tall and I can touch the ceiling I think I scared you off now I'm regretting getting close hoping It was just a ghost that sorta looked just like you
Where am I? I can't find the door How long have I been here for? Where the houses all can talk And I don't mind the creaky floors
And now I'm in a maze Down in this basement and I'm sure That you'll miss me anyway That'll be just the thing to wake me
Maybe I'm weird or maybe I'm off the wall But maybe it's weirder not to have dreamed at all Maybe I'm weird or maybe I'm off the wall But maybe it's weirder not to have dreamed at all
I'm quite convinced that I won't be staying here long.
The grass isn't greener on the other side after all.
It's just not the same. Not healthy for my mental health.
The next half of the year is going to be interesting.
We'll see where this goes.
I'm just.. gonna listen to my heart.
Meanwhile, I'm just thankful for my partner for keeping me sane.
Happy April & Ramadan everyone. :)
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Forester, Madeline - Heart
[Verse 1] Easy California feeling, we've been on the run Still light, summer night, staying up to see the rising sun In fleeting moments, I fall for the Serotonin in my mind Got me hypnotized
[Chorus] Tell me all of your secrets, promise that I can keep 'em I wanna know your demons and open up your heart Buried in your sweet silence, we can be undecided Here in a world that's timeless, we'll open up our hearts Open up our hearts Tell me all of your secrets, promise that I can keep 'em I wanna know your demons and opеn up your heart Buried in your sweet silencе, we can be undecided Here in a world that's timeless, we'll open up our hearts Open up our hearts
[Verse 2] Easy California feeling, we've been dreaming alone West coast, skinny dipping, living while we're tripping on the road In fleeting moments, I fall for the Serotonin in my mind Got me hypnotized
[Chorus] Tell me all of your secrets, promise that I can keep 'em I wanna know your demons and open up your heart Buried in your sweet silence, we can be undecided Here in a world that's timeless, we'll open up our hearts Open up our hearts
[Instrumental Break]
[Chorus] Tell me all of your secrets, promise that I can keep 'em I wanna know your demons and open up your heart Buried in your sweet silence, we can be undecided Here in a world that's timeless, we'll open up our hearts Open up our hearts
It started with my Brother and Dad, followed by my Mum.
The next day it was me.
And the day after, my second brother.
So the whole family was down.
Coughing and sneezing like mad. I was dyinggg.
I isolated myself in the balcony, on the couch. Which actually gave me back and neck pain.
Not very convenient xD.
First day was a breeze. My first symptom was revealing sore throat. It got worse throughout the day.
Did ART at work. - Positive.
Went to the clinic - Confirmed.
My manager was right, 2nd day was the shittiest.
I had chills and fever the whole night.
The lethargy came after - I couldn't get up and about until 3 days later.
It was that bad.
The coughing started. Tbh it hasn't resolved completely until now. My lungs feel quite weak these days.
And then before I knew it, a whole week had flew by just like that, and I was back to work.
Ah well.
I bam bam'ed through it all.
And came out the other side.
Now I'm back on my feet.
I guess that's something eh.
The worst is over.
Really thankful for the people that sent food and drinks over - it really boosted my family.
The 'break' was nice. But the fresh air after quarantine was even better hahah.
Asi es Ła vida, si.
Such is life.
I love this message a lot.
And live by it.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Camila Cabello Ft Ed Sheeran - Bam Bam
You said you hated the ocean, but you're surfin' now I said I'd love you for life, but I just sold our house We were kids at the start, I guess we're grown-ups now (Mmm) Couldn't ever imagine even havin' doubts But not everything works out, no
Now I'm out dancin' with strangers You could be casually datin' Damn, it's all changin' so fast
Así es la vida, sí Yeah, that's just life, baby Yeah, love came around And it knocked me down But I'm back on my feet Así es la vida, sí Yeah, that's just life, baby I was barely standin' But now I'm dancin' He's all over me
It's been a hell of a year, thank God we made it out Yeah we were riding a wave, and trying not to drown And on the surface I held it together But underneath, I sorta came unwound Where would I be? You're all that I need My world, baby, you hold me down You always hold me down, now
I've been the breaker and broken Every mistake turned to moments Wouldn't take anything back
Así es la vida, sí (Así es) Yeah, that's just life, baby Yeah, love came around And it knocked me down But I'm back on my feet Así es la vida, sí Yeah, that's just life, baby I was barely standin' But now I'm dancin' She's all over me (He's all over me)
Sigue bailando, hey Sigue bailando (Keep dancing, yeah) Sigue bailando (Keep dancing, yeah) Sigue bailando
(Hay amor en todos lados) Sigue bailando (Sigue, sigue, sigue bailando) Sigue bailando (Hay amor en todos lados) Sigue bailando, woh (Sigue, sigue, sigue bailando)
Así es la vida, sí Yeah, that's just life, baby Yeah, love came around And it knocked me down But I'm back on my feet Así es la vida, sí Yeah, that's just life, baby I was barely standin' But now I'm dancin' She's all over me (He's all over me) (Hey! Hey!)
Now I'm, Now I'm dancin' (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam, bam-bam) Keep dancing, yeah Now I'm, Now I'm dancin' (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam, bam-bam) Keep dancing, yeah Now I'm, Now I'm dancin' (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam, bam-bam) Keep dancing, yeah (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam) (Hey! Hey!) (Bidi, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam, bam) And now I'm dancin' (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam, bam-bam) Keep dancing, yeah Now I'm dancin' (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam, bam-bam) Keep dancing, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Bidi, bam-bam-bam-bam) Eh!
How do people celebrate their birthdays on 29 Feb? Haha.
February was like a breeze.
Though I've had my fair share of break downs with work and my personal life.
That's okay. Relapses are still progress. Right? Yea well.
Been adjusting to the new work schedule. Also, our workloads have been increasing exponentially. Hospital's are overflowing with COVID cases so our centre has to take some of our own in.
Well. I trust my immune system can handle it. OCD mode, on.
I'm still enjoying the peace of not having social media.
Well, most of it. I'm back on Twitter. For the cat vids of course. Hahah.
Shall try not to hold myself back too much.
It almost feels like I'm punishing myself.
I went to my childhood friend's wedding the other day and it felt so surreal.
Always does. But I'm so happy to see her contented. It's been a long journey for her.
We're all growing up so fast..
I'm also trying not to get all the peer pressure get to me.
One day at a time.
And aim for my own freedom and peace to come.
:)
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: BANKS - Holding Back
Oh, love, love is holding back I know I've done you wrong Did I say too much? Drowned my sorrows, called you up When the truth is tough Honesty may not be enough
'Cause love is holding back I know I've done you wrong Leave me, I'm alright I'll see you in the morning And lovin' is holding back And I have been in mourning
Never told you that I seen the light You know I push it 'cause I go too far Something 'bout what you said in the morning Never gave me a warning, ah And while you walking free I stay in the middle unaccompanied Missin' you a little, won't you come and see? I wrote you a melody, can't you see that? It's you I'm lovin', babe I know you won't admit it, but we're something, babe All I wanna do is get you loved and laid I wrote you a melody, can't you see that?
Love is holding back I know I've done you wrong Did I say too much? Leave me, I'm alright I'll see you in the morning And lovin' is holding back And I have been in mourning
I remember when you locked us out We had to climb in through the window, how Lifted me up, was on the second floor and I always loved that story And while you talk to me You don't think I listen, but I do, you see Words are never bitter 'cause your voice so sweet Your voice is like a melody, can't you see that? Baby, don't be afraid Not every conversation is a new grenade All I wanna do is get you loved and laid I wrote you a melody, can't you see that?
Love is holding back I know I've done you wrong Did I say too much? Leave me, I'm alright I'll see you in the morning And lovin' is holding back And I have been in mourning
Anything I want you more than all time I want you more than moonlight I want you more than sunshine I want you more than water I want you more than high tides So don't you say that our time is up Our time ain't up, oh-ooh-ooh-ooh 'Cause I want you, I want you, I want you I want you, I want you (I want you) Give me love, give me love, give me love Give me love, give me love, yeah I want you, I want you, I want you I want you, I want you (Want you, want you, want you, want you, want you) Give me love, give me love, give me love Give me love, give me love, yeah (Give me love, yeah)
Love is holding back, yeah I know I've done you wrong Over and over Leave me, I'm alright I'll see you in the morning And lovin' is holding back And I have been in mourning Love is holding back, yeah I know I've done you wrong (Oh, na na na na na na) Leave me, I'm alright (Oh, na na na na na na) I'll see you in the morning (Oh, na na na na na na) (Baby, I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you, I want you) And lovin' is holding back And I have been in mourning
Views from Remede Spa, and its facilities (Jacuzzi, sauna, steam room, out door jacuzzi). I was the only soul around so I had the facilities all to myself. ;)
Massage was good, albeit overpriced than usual, but service was great. They even went out of their way and gave me a small birthday present!
What's a rainy day without hot chocolate? :)
Absolutely loved that I could see the big sky from the couch. Wish I spent more time on it.
Did some music stuff for fun. Heh.
A perfect gift from my partner. I didn't expect that. Thank you so much. :')
The assorted cheese & crackers was definitely.. an interesting experience. Rich people food. xD
Had the best dinner @ Harry's. The outdoor dining was perfect & romantic. And the food quality for its discounted price??? What are the odds.
Breakfast the next morning was perfectly splendid! Though some dishes were kinda bland, and the waitress forgot some of our orders. It was still a nice & cozy experience. And I was reallyyy full.
Finally got our sausages lmao.
The ambience was really pretty.
Banana fritters on the house from the chef. AKA atas goreng pisang. xD
More stills from the rooms by le partner. :)
Bubble baths are LIFE. I spent everyday soaking and splashing around hahah.
Everyday's your birthday, right?
Yes.
Last breakfast before check-out. :(
And of course, a little shoot before we leave.
Hehe.
Overall, that was the best birthday celebration I've ever had. Truly. And a perfect staycation.
A quiet, peaceful get-away from work & family. The Weather had been so perfect throughout too.
It was like all the stars were aligned.
I couldn't ask for anything more.
Thank you to my wonderful partner. And the kind people at St Regis for this experience.
I definitely recommend this hotel for anyone who wants to experience luxury haha.
And I would definitelyyy come back again.
Forever grateful. 🤍
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood#1: The Weeknd - DAWN FM
Current Song Mood #2 - Joel Corry, RAYE, David Guetta - Bed
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours, yours
9:05 in the evening I'm all up in my feelings I'm calling your phone 'cause I can't get enough And I got work in the morning Early, early in the morning But who needs sleep when we're loving it up
Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way? My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby Something I'll regret in the morning But I just can't resist when you're calling
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours) That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours
You know I sleep on the left side If you sleep on the left side I'll move to the right, yeah, I'd do it for you, oh oh And I got work in the morning Early, early in the morning But who needs sleep when I'm rockin' with you
Oh oh why'd I gotta do this the hard way? My body wants to be in your arms, bae, baby Something I'll regret in the morning But I just can't resist when you're calling
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours) That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours) That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours
Ooh ooh Know I need your love Know I need your love Yeah Ooh ooh Know I need your love Know I need your love
Been way too long on the phone right now What you saying, wanna roll right now If you don't wanna be on your own right now Ring my phone 'cause
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight But I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours) Oh whoa
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours) That's what I said when I called you on the phone tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours
Been way too long on the phone right now What you saying, wanna roll right now If you don't wanna be on your own right now Ring my phone 'cause
I got a bed, but I'd rather be in yours tonight I got a bed, but I'd rather be in (Yours, yours, yours)
