Golden

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Alhamdulillah.

Work's getting easier as days are passing by.

Felt some certain kind of joy today, surrounded by newfound friends. :)

I dont regret making this choice.

It's good to keep my mind off things and keep myself occupied

It's a golden opportunity to me.

Love, Eran.

I will love you till the end of time.

Current Song Mood: Travie McCoy Ft Sia - Golden

[Sia (Travie McCoy):]
You got that look in your eyes, eyes
I can tell you had bad dreams last night
Let me me take you in my arms; you can cry, cry
Let me love you 'til you feel alright
Cause I am yours; you are mine, you are mine, mine (yeah)
Not going anywhere, I am standing by your side (uh-uh)
I will love you 'til the end of time, time
I will love you 'til the day we die (let's go!)

[Sia:]
Don't fear, baby (uh-uh, uh-uh), cause you and me are golden
When you can't breathe (uh-uh, uh-uh), it's you that I'll be holdin' (yeah)
Yes, I'm all in, through thick and thin (yeah)
This is good loving (uh-huh, uh-huh); you and me are golden

[Travie McCoy:]
I gotta give it to her, she got a mean goldeneye game
Honestly it’s not a lot of O's to fit the rhyme scheme
But fuck it, for the sake of being overly cheesy
I think it's cute we both like our eggs over easy
And lately I've been losing at love
But when you lookin' in the Lower East Side
You're bound to find nothing but bad luck
Days can drift by, but I don't give a damn if you with me
Even if the earth exploded, I probably wouldn't notice
Never has another narrowed down the field to nada
Spend our days shopping at Target, cause she’s not concerned with Prada
We make hand-me-downs look designer
Golden's in the eye of the beholder
Love ya, girl

[Sia (Travie McCoy):]
Don't fear, baby (don't fear, baby), cause you and me are golden (you and me are golden)
When you can't breathe (let me feel you breathe), it's you that I'll be holding (yeah)
Yes, I'm all in (I'm all in), through thick and thin
This is good loving (this is good loving), you and me are golden
(Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah) You and me are golden
(Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah) You and me are golden
(Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah) You and me are golden
(Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah) You and me are golden

[Travie McCoy:]
And honestly she ain't even gotta say much
I'll wait a whole day for that Midas touch
Minus the fact she's the finest eyelids could open to
My highness, I'd travel the world and back in hopes to glow with you
She’s the Patti Mayonnaise to my Doug Funnie
Every kiss is 24 carats, no Bugs Bunny
I used to live wild (wild); she made me slow it down (down)
Who knows? Maybe one day, we'll have a golden child
Haha, and that’s word to Eddie Murphy
I wouldn't trade places if you threatened to hurt me
Two peas in a pod that could never be open
I’m cool all by myself, but together we golden, yeah

[Sia (Travie McCoy):]
You got that look in your eyes, eyes
I can tell you had bad dreams last night
Let me me take you in my arms; you can cry, cry
Let me love you 'til you feel alright (yeah)
Cause I am yours; you are mine, you are mine, mine (uh-huh)
Not going anywhere, I am standing by your side (never)
I will love you 'til the end of time, time (yeah)
I will love you 'til the day we die (come on!)

[Sia (Travie McCoy):]
Don't fear, baby (yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah), cause you and me are golden
When you can't breathe, it's you that I'll be holding
Yes, I'm all in, through thick and thin (uh-huh)
This is good loving (whoo!), you and me are golden

[Sia (Travie McCoy):]
We are golden, I ain't going anywhere
(Yeah)

First Heartbreak

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I wish you'd be more careful with the things you say or joke about.

Cause you never how it can affect me.

You know how fragile I am.

Of course it can be taken lightly, but I somehow know, it's true.

Its never easy. It gives me so much to worry about.

There's so much trapped in my head that I need to let out.

Tried my best not to let any tears fall because I was fasting.

I guess it means I really love you.

No matter what others say.

I really, really do.

<3

This song represents everything I'm afraid of.

Love, Eran.

If you ever leave one day, it'd be my real, first heartbreak.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - First Heartbreak

You never hear me singin' love songs
wasn't big on poetry
never cried in the movies
didn't wanna feel so weak
I would never talk about it
never let it get too deep
but something in me's changin'
guess you did something to me

'Cause for the first time I get worried
when I'm lookin' in your eyes
that one day you might leave me
and it keeps me up at night
I guess that means I really love you
'cause I'm afraid to make mistakes
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak
oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh 
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak

Maybe I shouldn't be thinkin' so far ahead
better just enjoy this moment
and be happy for what I get
but you know it's not that easy
to get out of my head
so I guess that it's a good thing
when you want something so bad

'Cause for the first time I get worried
when I'm lookin' in your eyes
that one day you might leave me
and it keeps me up at night
I guess that means I really love you
'cause I'm afraid to make mistakes
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak
oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh 
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak

I wanna run I wanna stay
hold every piece so it won't break
wanna let go, wanna hold tight
afraid that I might suffocate, you with my love
how much is enough?
how much is too safe?

'Cause for the first time I get worried
when I'm lookin' in your eyes
that one day you might leave me
and it keeps me up at night
I guess that means I really love you
'cause I'm afraid to make mistakes
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak
oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh oooh ooh 
if you ever left me that would be my first heartbreak

Talk

Page 341

Just a little rant because of a person that I encountered at work today, who was all talk. Damn. I hated him from the minute he opened his mouth. I literally said to myself 'Shit, I can't work with this dude.' 

If you all know me well, I won't show my hate. Even if I hate you to the guts. I'll just keep smiling and look away as much as possible. But deep inside I'll be cursing you silently. This person was talking about this and that, gossiping about others, when the way he worked was ironically 'CMI' itself.  In malay we call it 'WORLD'. Where he talks as if he knows the world, when he doesn't know shit. I got so annoyed most of the time so I just kept quiet.

Lo and behold, I had to spend like 1 and a half hours with him cause we were stuck at some procedure together. Lets just say he kept saying things that made me look like some dumb shit? Like as if he's all greater than me??? Wtf brah. Wtf. What are you trying to prove. Who are you trying to impress? Yourself? Cause you seem to be. All ego and shit. I got so annoyed, that when he was talking on the way, I just kept walking & ignoring him. Lucky I was wearing a mask, or my scowling face would be more obvious.

Speaking of talk. Where the heck are all my friends. Like, we always talk about wanting to meet and stuff but honestly, there's no one planning anything and everyone's so busy with work. It's like after graduation, everyone just disappeared. Vanished. Gone.

And lastly You. I'm so tired. And I couldnt care less. Cause you don't either. Cause you obviously prioritise your friends more than me. Not the first time, nope. It's okay, I'm 'used to it'.

You keep saying things I've heard before.

All I hear is 'talk,'

Love, Eran.

Keep talkin'.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Talk

People talk, people talk
But they don't wanna say what they're really trying to say
Hopes and fears, smoke and mirrors
Save all the thinking, words by themselves they just fade

People run, people walk
But they don't ever see past the world that they're in
So if it's talk that you want from me then maybe you should let me in

Oh, you keep saying you won't let me go
Oh, you keep saying what I've heard before
Talk

Playing with empty hearts, leading words felt like they're just going no where now
So if it's talk that you want from me then maybe you should let me in

Oh, you keep saying you won't let me go
Oh, you keep saying what I've heard before
Oh, you keep saying you won't let me go

All I hear is talk

Keep talking to me babe. x2
I know all about you, know all about you
Keep talking to me babe. x2
Know all about you x2

You keep saying you won't let me go
Talk
Oh, you keep saying you won't let me go
Talk
Oh, you keep saying you won't let me go
Talk
You keep saying things I've heard before babe
Heard before babe
Talk

City Dove

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Seriously.. what kind of person do you think I am.

It was disheartening to hear that from you.

Of course I'd want to help you whenever I can. That's how much you mean to me.

Money can't buy love. 

I keep thinking about the future. About how much time I have left. About how much time we have left together. It's not much… Time's running out. I'm worried everyday. I want to spend every single moment with you. But I don't think you're keen on that, aren't you? Guess I'll scrap those plans.

I don't know what's next for me. What's next after i'm done serving the nation. When people keep asking, I just go blank. I haven't figured anything out.

The future.. it's so damn scary.

I wish I was as free as a city dove.

I don't know my fate.. I just know I'm on my way.

And I hope you'll be there to stay.

Love, Eran.

I'm holdin' on.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - City Dove

Don't know what it's all about
But every time I look around
All I see is how we're holdin' on
Don't ask me what's wrong or right
I don't even know the time
All I know is I'm holdin' on

I haven't figured anything out
I haven't figured anything anything anything out

City dove, fly between the buildings and fences
Soft inside but rough on the edges
Waiting here for something to come just holdin' on
Oooh,
City dove, fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on

I don't really know my fate
I just know I'm on my way
There will be mistakes movin' on
Try to get to the heart of it
Fly low but lookin' for Heaven
I know, I know I'm holding on

Won't figure everything out
Never figure everything everything everything out

City dove, fly between the buildings and fences
Soft inside but rough on the edges
Waiting here for something to come just holdin' on
Oooh,
City dove, fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on
Ooohh, ooooh yeah, oooh, knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on ooon...
Fly between the stars and the headlights
Passin' by the clouds and the street signs
Knowing that there's something to come, just holdin' on, ooonnnn...

Iron Heart

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If you're trying to irritate me, its working well.

If you ever do THAT I won't forgive you.

Not like I've haven't been hurting enough.

I'm tired of being the weak one.

So do what ever the hell you want.

And no, I don't cry anymore.

I'm saving my tears this time.

Love, Eran.

All I have right now is my iron heart.

Current Song Mood: Marina Kaye - Iron Heart

I'm counting down the days
I can do what I want
I'm like a lion, starving
Ready to hunt
See I've been holding back
I got so much to say
And the best part is
If I'm gonna do it my way

I've been saving parts of my heart
You can't break me, unbreakable
I've been keeping you on my thoughts
Right now I'm not available
I've been saving parts of my heart
You can't break me, unbreakable
I've been keeping you on my thoughts

Don't go screamin fire
If nothing is burning
This time I'm the fighter
Instead of the hurting
I'll keep up this part of me to remind you
You can touch my iron heart if you try to
My, my iron heart

Try to control my love, my pain and my fears
So I got tough no luck, I'm saving my tears
There's an ocean between us
And you can swim
See there's the place that aint safe
If I let you in

I've been saving parts of my heart
You can't break me, unbreakable
I've been keeping you on my thoughts
Right now I'm not available
I've been saving parts of my heart
You can't break me, unbreakable
I've been keeping you on my thoughts

Don't go scream in fire
If nothing is burning
This time I'm the fighter
Instead of the hurting
I'll keep up this part of me to remind you
You can touch my iron heart if you try to
My, my iron heart

I've been saving parts of my heart
You can't break me, unbreakable
I've been keeping you on my thoughts

[x2]
Don't go screamin fire
If nothing is burning
This time I'm the fighter
Instead of the hurting
I'll keep up this part of me to remind you
You can touch my iron heart if you try to
My, my iron heart

I'm So Sick

Page 338

Shaking my head cause you seem just fine.

Yeah, just fine.

I'm used to it.

You seem occupied so I'll just leave it at that.

I've been feeling shitty lately. Temperature's burning up and there's nothing I can do but like down in sorrow.

I'm too sick to feel anything.

Too sick.

Love, Eran.

Sick of everything.

Current Song Mood: Flyleaf - I'm So Sick

I will break into your thoughts
With what's written on my heart
I will break, break

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

If you want more of this
We can push out, sell out, die out
So you'll shut up
And stay sleeping
With my screaming in your itching ears

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

Hear it, I'm screaming it
You're heeding to it now

Hear it! I'm screaming it!
You tremble at this sound

You sink into my clothes
And this invasion
Makes me feel
Worthless, hopeless, sick

I'm so sick,
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss,
Selfishness
I'm so sick
I'm so sick

I'm so sick
Infected with where I live
Let me live without this
Empty bliss, selfishness
I'm so
I'm so sick
I'm so
I'm so sick

Should've Been Us

Page 337

It's been a challenging week. No, not just the fasting but overall. Worrying what your significant other has been up to is sooo fun >_>. Also been sick a lot. Fasting while you're sick is such a big bummer. Not to mention if you have places to go to and things to collect and you have to be outside for a long while. Plus the ever so HOT weather. Oh well, just endure. Thankful that I've been able to go for all the terawih prayers so far. Alhamdulillah. 

Took a listen to Tori Kelly's newest album today :)

'Unbreakable Smile'

I've been anticipating it for soooo long. And it's definitely up to my expectations. So much brilliant songs on it!!

I'm always inspired by her creativity, lyrics & vocals. She slays. That is all.

Have a listen if you know what's good for you ;)

Love, Eran.

Should've been me with you tonight.

:/

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Should've Been Us

Walking round with my head down
But I can't hide with these high heels on
Downtown in a thick crowd
But it's just you that my mind is on
Dressed up, got my heart messed up
You got yours and I got mine
It's unfair that I still care
And I wonder where you are tonight

Thinking it could be different
But maybe we missed it yea
Thinking it could be different
It could, it could

It should've been us
Shoulda been a fire, shoulda been the perfect storm
It should've been us
Coulda been the real thing, now we'll never know for sure, ooh
We were crazy, but amazing, baby we both know
It should've been us, us
It, it, it should've been us

Back and forth like a tug of war
What's it all for, do I want it back
I still got a little flame for ya
Even though you drove me mad
Now and then, I pretend
That it's you when I close my eyes
You got yours, I got mine
But I wonder where you are tonight

It should've been us
Shoulda been a fire, shoulda been the perfect storm
It should've been us
Coulda been the real thing, now we'll never know for sure, ooh
We were crazy, but amazing, baby we both know
It should've been us, us
It, it, it should've been us

Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us, yeah
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us
It, it, it should've been us

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh

Thinking it could be different
But maybe we missed it
Thinking it could be different
It could, it could

It should've been us
Shoulda been a fire, shoulda been the perfect storm
It should've been us
Coulda been the real thing, now we'll never know for sure, ooh
We were crazy, but amazing, baby we both know
It should've been us, us
It, it, it should've been us

Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us, yeah
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us
It, it, it should've been us

Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us
Oh oh, oh oh
You know it should've been us
Oh oh, oh oh
It should've been us
It, it, it should've been us

The Bravest One

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I guess our reunion played out differently in my head.

As much as it kills me, Gotta respect your decision. :)

It's so brave of you.

I wish I was just as strong.

I've been completely disconnected lately.

But I wanna restore that faith again this month.

Being able to see you again was a blessing to me.

One last embrace before we both get busy this month.

I appreciated the moment.

Managed to complete my terawih prayers fully tonight, Alhamdulillah.

Here's to a blessed Ramadhan, and may we go through the challenges together. :)

Love, Eran.

You're the bravest one that I see.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - The Bravest One

Build you up and tear you down
leave you lying on the ground
It's all you've ever known your whole life
The monster that they say you are
is a reflection of their hearts
Words are like a blade of a knife

When you are alone, wishing you could
rub it off, rub it off
But you don't even know underneath you are 
pure gold

'Cause to me you're the bravest one
that I see
Beautiful and fearless underneath
The fire in your eyes makes me wanna be
It makes me wanna be better, better, better

(Ooh ooh, ooh ooh)

Every hurtful word they say
Every arrow of hate
You turned it into love and I know,
I know, I know, I know
Even though its hard, you stand up tall,
holding your head up through it all
Show them that they are the ones who are small

When you are alone, wishing you could
rub it off, rub it off
But you don't even know underneath you are
pure gold

'Cause to me you're the bravest one
that I see
Beautiful and fearless
underneath
The fire in your eyes makes me wanna be
It makes me wanna be better, better, better
Better, better, better

You're a fighter, you're a warrior
Never a victim, never afraid
Watching you keeps me inspired
every minute of everyday
You're a fighter, you're a warrior
Never a victim, never afraid
Watching you keeps me inspired

'Cause to me, you're the bravest one
that I've seen
Beautiful and fearless
underneath
The fire in your eyes makes me wanna be
Makes me wanna be better, better, better
Better, better
You make me wanna be better, better, better, better

Crown // Epilogue

Page 335

Yesterday still feels like a dream.

SIGH.

Can't get over it.

*-*

Back to reality. Got some more exciting stuff to look forward to this month. 

:)

So thankful for everything that's happened.

And I'm so thankful that you're back here, safe & sound.

Alhamdulillah.

<3

Love, Eran.

See you soon, love.

https://soundcloud.com/thesamwillows/crown?in=thesamwillows/sets/the-sam-willows-ep

https://soundcloud.com/thesamwillows/epilogue?in=thesamwillows/sets/the-sam-willows-ep

Current Song Mood: The Sam Willows - Crown/Epilogue

Cut my castles of fire

Cut my castles of fire

In this place now I lie

Cut my castles of fire

May we dance through the fire

May we dance through the fire

Its for you that I die

May we dance through the fire

Fire…

Fire…

Fire…

Take Heart

Page 334

Okay omg keeping this secret was sooo hard hahaha.

So I won the chance to meet The Sam Willows last week, and I got to meet them for dinner today :)

By right there was another winner before me, who couldnt make it, so I was chosen instead. How lucky. I tried inviting some close friends to go with me but sadly, everyone was working. So I went on my own instead.

When I reached the Cafe, I went upstairs and settled down with another winner and her friend. Soon after, Ben and Narelle came. I was so starstruck hahaha, they were exactly how they are in pictures. Or else more. Definition of BAES. We introduced each other and had small talks. 

Narelle sat opposite me and asked me to introduce myself. ( I was wicked nervous, she was pretty intimidating hahaha!) And Ben was seating at the end looking perfect af. My gosh. Man crushhhhhh. 

Narelle: 'Okay take this as a speed dating thing, I give you 30 seconds, Go!' 

Me: AKSDAHSDHAJSDAJSGDVJASHDVAJHSV HAHAHAHA I literally talked so fast.

Jon then came, and we greeted him. He was sick (looked half-dead too haha) but I really appreciated him taking his time to come :) We had more chats and then Sandra (who was like… half an hour late) came marching up the stairs with her big camping bag. Hahaha. 

'You're early!' I said hahaha. And we all greeted her. She was the most chattiest among the group! Hahaha, and funny too.

Le mushroom soup. So gooood.

Panbiff. Omg. Damn nice. I was so full from this.

I could barely finish dessert. But it looked so appetising!!! Hahaha but the taste was ok-ok.

Narelle: *pushes hers away.* Ew. Not nice.

Sandra: She has her way with desserts. She only eats what she expects it to taste like, if not she wont.

Me: *halfway finished*

Narelle: You really eating dessert man?

Me: Yeah… ._.

*keeps eating*

Narelle: You can have mine!!!

Soon everyone starts offering theirs hahaha.

Some memorable convos we've had:

D (other winner): Wait you're in NTU? How come I never see you!

Ben: That's because she doesn't go to school

Narelle: Hey!! The school's big okay!

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Narelle: Sometimes Ben's singlets somehow gets into my room. Because Mum think's its mine.

Us: Lmaooo.

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Ben looked at me and asked; 'Are you mixed?' 

Me: Yeah :)

Him: What mix?

Me: Malay, Indian.

Him: Cool you do look mixed. Half?

Me: Nope, 1/4.

Him: Cool. :)

Me: That's why I have these long lashes *blinksblinks*
Ben: Tori is really good live. Her pitch is on point.
Me: Totally agree.

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Ben: So you like RnB? Like The Weeknd?

Me: Yeah!

Him: Any others?

Me: I'm listening to Tori Kelly, she's amazing.

Jon: Hey, I have a friend who plays for Tori!

*shows us his instagram*

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Ben: So what shows do you guys watch?

Me: Orange Is The New Black!!

Their manager: Omg yes!

Me: :O YAAAAAAAS.

HAHAHAHA.

Ben: The one about convicts right?

Me: Yeah. It makes me so depressed.

Their manager: Yes I agree.

HAHA.

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Sandra: So would you lose your sense of taste or touch?

Me: Taste. Everyone wants to be touched hahahaha.

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D(other winner): How come you didnt bring any friends?

Me: They're all busy working.

Narelle: I'll be his friend!

Ben: Yea brah, I'll be your friend!

Me: *diesdiesdies*

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Sandra: You sing? SING for us!!!! *excited*

Me: NOOOOO.

I was really shy cause ya know, I'm sittin' with one of the hottest bands in Singapore. OmgOmgggg.

Hahahaha. Everyone was like waiting, and looking at me, so I finally gave in.

Hahaha. I had no idea what to sing?? I decided to go with my Tori Kelly's 'Elegant' cover since it was the easiest I could remember.

So I sang, and everyone just stared intently at me, with Narelle attempting to snap chat but failed hahaha. (I was freaking nervoussssssszzzxc) And then Ben made the whole thing better by beatboxing at the end. It was perfect. I died of joy.

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In conclusion; 

Narelle; was so damn cute hahaha. Sometimes she'll complain of this and that and I can see why she's such a gegerl to Ben. And the most precious one. Also learnt she and Ben were from Sports School and were really great in swimming!! And that she just recent directed GentleBone's newest music video!!!

Ben; Legit coolest dude I've every met. & so down to earth. I learnt that he likes to put salt on his food. And tends to put too much ahaha like how he did just now. And that he was like any other SG guy, having to serve his reservist soon haha.

He is such a BAEEEEEEE. I won't forget what he told me before I left.

'Hey send me some of your songs sometime.

Me: really?

Him: Yeah man, I'll take a listen. :)

Me: *DIES*

ASDABSDKJABSDIVWFQVFIFQFIASBISAIDASI
OMG

Jon; The chillest dude eveeeeeer. Hahaha. He may have interacted less but he really is such a cool guy. See my videos as he casually sharpens his utensils & gives that #2Cool4Uolzz look hahaha.

Sandra; I haven't really been following her but her personality was just overflowing! I enjoyed listening to her talk. :) From her funny experiences in Yoga Co. to the electric chair she faced in KL lmao. I've grown to really like her!

Narelle: Hey hold Mr Moose's hands!! We're now his friends.

Me: HAHAHA alrighttt.

*grabs legs instead*

Me: 'Eh I'm spreading his legs.'

Sandra: EH!!!!

Eran x The Sam Willows

We took group photos and said our goodbyes. :)

Sandra: Here this is for you *gives me a random red lamp*

Me: Uhmmm OKAY. Where did you get that!! 

*moments later*

Sandra: Thank you for coming! Congratulations. *shakes my hand & passes me a potted plant*

Me: *takes it* Thank you, I'm so honoured.

Narelle: Here for you, *passes me a chair*

*starts passing me everything in sight* 

(The standing fan, even the dining table) 

HAHAHA these girls!

Narelle asked for my insta so that she could tag me. Got a follow from Ben too. Life = made.

Yaaaaassss.

The fact that they took time to do this despite their busy schedules, wow.

I feel so honoured.

My night has never felt more special

Thank you The Sam Willows!

<3

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It takes a lot for that to come out of you, that I know of very well. I woke up today feeling uneasy. I have been the past few days. But to know that you were having the same feeling at the same time, really just melts my heart. I can't wait for you to come back. I miss you so much. :')

<3

Love, Eran.

Take my heart. <3

Current Song Mood: The Sam Willows - Take Heart

Verse 1

Take heart, this world is ours

Run high and fast now they’re coming for us

Take heart, we’ll fight the hours

Fall back in light running through the forest

Pre-Chorus

Oh you’re everything to me

Loved you ever since the day we parted

Oh you’re all that I can see

Don’t you ever leave me broken-hearted

Oh

Chorus

But she didn’t know, she wasn’t told

This life is just too old

People walking come and go

They don’t know you they’re so cold

Why, why, bring me down

Owe nothing to your frown

Just a kid this ain’t your town

Take that walk and turn around

Underground

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Found some inner peace today.

While I was out, jogging.

The weather was beautiful. Gloomy skies. Cold wind. It was perfect.

It's been lonely I must say. But I guess I've managed to convince myself that I was good enough on my own. Let's see how well that goes.

It's the only way to keep myself sane.

In other words so excited for TOMORROWWWWWWWZXC.

Love, Eran.

I want you. I need you.

Current Song Mood: Adam Lambert - Underground

When you're gone
When you're gone, it's like I'm in one second in time
I'm frozen
When you're gone
When you're gone, it's like I lost one half of my mind
Stolen

Cause nobody feels you like I do
Nobody kills me like you do
Nothing I take can ever cut through
I'm in trouble
I look at myself and I don't know
How I'm stuck to you like velcro
Can't rip you off and go solo
I'm in trouble

[Chorus x2:]
I'm hooked on how you made
Me hooked, I'm gonna say it straight
I want you, I need you
I want you to take me underground
I'm hooked; I can't cut you off
In my blood; I'm gonna say it now
I want you, I need you
I want you to take me underground

When you go
When you go, it's like I put my life on the line
It's
When you go
When you go, I'm tripping but I'm pretending I'm fine
So dumb

Cause nobody feels you like I do
Nobody kills me like you do
Nothing I take can ever cut through
I'm in trouble
I look at myself and I don't know
How I'm stuck to you like velcro
Can't rip you off and go solo
I'm in trouble

[Chorus x2]

You got me hooked on you
Now I'm in trouble
Trouble, trouble, yeah

[Chorus x2]