Decorate

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I walked through the drizzling rain from the mosque.

I've been so disconnected.

The heavy feeling in my heart wasn't helping.

It was cold.

I had my green jacket on.

Great. At least that's a little something to comfort me.

Tried my best not to check my phone cause I knew it was pointless to worry.

Pointless.

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Its been such a horrible day.

With bad butterflies in my stomach.

The kind of feeling you get when you're about to do some thrilling activity.

The kind you get where you just want to crouch on the bed, lie under the covers and rot the day away.

You don't even seem to care?

You don't even ask what i'm doing anymore.

You don't even update me anything.

Something's up.

I don't get it.

I don't know why you're like this.

You're not yourself and I know it.

It's a lot of mental stress on me. I worry about you the whole day. I wonder if I crossed your mind at all.

We could've met today but you decided to push me away.

Now you're treating me like this.

You want to travel, and then you don't. And then you do. And then you don't.

For goodness sake.

Make up your mind.

It's so confusing and I don't even bother asking anymore cause I know everything's pretty much unplanned. I'd pretty much be talking to the wall.

You talk about priorities? I guess I'm never one.

Yes, I'm angry. Fuming mad actually. But can you blame me? What else can I do right? If I say anything it's gonna ruin your mood again like yesterday. You'll probably change topics again and I have to deal with that.

All my friends are pretty much nonexistent right now because they're all busy with their working lives. I pretty much only have myself right now. And you. 

So please. Don't put your anger on me for whatever reason you have. You're all that I have.

Love, Eran.

Please don't leave.

Current Song Mood: Yuna - Decorate

So you decided to see me out of the blue
Should I let you come over?
I think you're doing fine
That girl in your arms does she know where you come from?

Almost made me move out of town
You don't want me to be around
But I stayed anyway
Just in case

Finding reasons to hate you more than before
Like how you said you would call
But never at all
Got rid of your number that I know by heart

You left your things at my place
As if I have all the space
Cause you know I don't mind
Just come back when you think it's time

I'm all black and white inside
Monotonous from left to right
I decorate my house with things you love
Just in case you show up

So you decided to see me out of the blue
Should I let you come over?
You do this all the time
You come and you go like I'm nothing, you know?

Every time you come back to me
I'm prepared to watch you leave
You can't make your mind up about me

I imagine what it's like
What if you might leave everything and come home?
But I know that you won't
After what I've been through
I still worry about you

You're letting know all your friends
It's definitely the end
But you know I don't mind
Just come back when you think it's time

I'm all black and white inside
Monotonous from left to right
I decorate my house with things you love
Just in case you show up
Just in case you show up

I'm all black and white inside
Monotonous from left to right
I decorate my house with things you love
Just in case you show up
In case you show up
In case you show up