Old Ways

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Finally back home.

I don't know why, but I felt so tensed today.

Maybe because I know of what's to come.

My feelings are always right.

Keeping frustrations to myself wasn't helpful at all.

But this activity called 'Combat Training' totally helped me out.

Punching the air, covered in sweat, and venting every bit of emotion out of my small body..

It was very therapeutic for me. All those hidden anger from the last 3 months..

It's no wonder some of my commanders were surprised that I was so into it.

'Woah you can join the instructors in front man.'

'Eh you so fierce sia. You got fighting experience before issit? Good job.'

I looked at myself in the mirror after.

And then I realised the change in me.

I'm not the person I used to be.

I'm not in the same place that I was before.

I'm not going back to my old ways.

Love, Eran.

I'm not afraid to fall.

I'm not afraid anymore.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Old Ways

It was fun playin' with knives
Until a blade
Stuck in the left side of my chest
Surprise
And I'm down again, I turn the page
The story's mine
No more watchin' the world from my doorstep
Passin' me by

And I just keep changin'
These colors, colors, colors, colors
I'm not in the same place
That I was, I was, I was, I was

But if somebody tells me
I'll go back to my old ways
I'm gonna say no way
I'm out of the doorway
I'm hearin' them all say
I'll go back to my old ways
Not goin' back to my old ways

Not goin' back to my old ways
(Not goin' back to my old ways)

Now I know what's good for me
All that I need
And I can't wait to sink my teeth in
And take another bite
And the best part about it
Is I'm the only who can do somethin' about it
I fill the well with some water, it's overflowin'
Black into gold
Who knew it'd be so bright without the blindfolds

And I just keep changin'
These colors, colors, colors, colors
I'm not in the same place
That I was, I was, I was, I was

But if somebody tells me
I'll go back to my old ways
I'm gonna say no way
I'm out of the doorway
I'm hearin' them all say
I'll go back to my old ways
Not goin' back to my old ways

Not goin' back to my old ways
(Not goin' back to my old ways)

Every scar
The flames burn the mark
I'm not afraid to fall
I'm spiraling
I'm spiraling
I pass the stars
I'm not burning out
I'm not afraid to fall
I'm not afraid anymore

And I just keep changin' my colors
These colors, colors, colors, colors
I'm not in the same place that I was, I was

And the best part about it
Is I'm the only who can do somethin' about it
I fill the well with some water, it's overflowin'
Black into gold
Who knew it'd be so bright without the blindfolds

And I just keep changin'
These colors, colors, colors, colors
I'm not in the same place
That I was, I was, I was, I was

But if somebody tells me
I'll go back to my old ways
I'm gonna say no way
I'm out of the doorway
I'm hearin' them all say
I'll go back to my old ways
Not goin' back to my old ways