Jealous

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I laid in the bunk, staring blankly at the spaces above me. It was lights out. My earphones were on, and music therapy was ongoing, like it has been everyday. Music has been keeping me going. Keeping me strong, warm & loved. The double-decked bed started rocking a little as my Buddy climbed down. 

'Do you mind?' 

'Nope.' :)

And he laid by my side.

We talked. About the past. About our exes. We were different, but we had similar situations. We understood each other.

'If only you knew the truth.' I thought to myself.

Today I scrolled through an app.

And your face popped up.

'Looking for dates.'

I paused. It seemed like a very long pause. A tinge of jealousy. I envisioned somebody else... Someone new that took my place. And then I reminded myself that I shouldn't be caring anymore.

Back then, the thought of seeing you with another guy would kill me.

But now.. I guess I've accepted it.

I guess it'll have to happen.

We'll both move on eventually.

And deep down inside.

I'll die.. slowly.

Love, Eran.

This song says it all...

Current Song Mood: Labrinth - Jealous

I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind, cause

[Chorus:]
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love, cause

[Chorus]

As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day
Cause all I do is cry behind this smile

[Chorus]

It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me