lUcOzAdE

Page 834

Damn.

What a night.

The only thing that can get me high, is music.

Everyone be sippin' stuff. But nahhh.

I'd rather sip some lUcOzAdE.

It's not that I can't loosen up.

It's just that, this place isn't my cup of tea.

Plus it brings back some pretty strong memories...

I'll just take it slow and take my time to experience it all.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: ZAYN - lUcOzAdE

I'm sipping pink
Lucozade
We're blazing on that new found haze
I'm seeing in the blacks and grays
I'm hoping that the basket sways

Left to right, sit and talk shit all night
Does that make it right for smoke
Maybe, or am I just seeing shit?
Seeing the pain inside in this house of fear

You don't even wanna know about the things I hear
Quick fix, headlights shine bright, you're the fuckin' deer
I'm just wishing it's ambition that got you
Your position
You'll be fishing for far too long
You're the bad guy in this movie
And I ain't wrong, I don't breathe the pollution
And the only solution is making shit confusing
And it ain't about who's winning or losing

It's bout the path that you're choosing
Time heals pain and promotes self-soothing
When the scars are gone you can't see bruising
Wanted three things: watches, chains and gold rings
I'm getting caught up in the feelings that they bring
A lack of sanity, losing touch with reality
Smoking too much, it's starting to fog up my clarity
Traveling in the day but you're still looking far to me

Bulls eye you the dot to me
Emotions splattered, same pattern
Can't even begin to spot 'em
I'm sad about shit that never happened
No lies in my eyes, nothing but truth will leave my mouth
I'm tryna fucking scream but the words won't come out
I'm, tryna fuckin' scream but the words won't come out

She's older, I told her
We ain't meant to be
It takes two not three, but I'm here any way
I hope he's leaving soon
Sudden not to see the elephant in this room
Disguised as your perfume
But the smell of it consumes, it takes all my mind
You can search the world but you will never find
I see everything you've done to me
Be there, you run to me
I don't need to pace, I don't need the stamina
If this shit was it, girl, I probably woulda ran from ya
Kept runnin'
Outwit, cause you cunnin'
That outfit cause you stunnin'
Begging cause I'm losing mage
Got me feeling some type of way I can't explain
The fuck is going on?
I think I got it wrong
When I told you I was over you, or were you under me?

Doves In The Wind

Page 833

Pretty busy day.

Gah, some people are just so blessed with good looks.

And they have that aura that.. sticks out.

I guess it automatically makes them confident and sexy.

Like Doves in the wind.

So elegant.

So graceful.

Unlike them.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Doves In The Wind

[SZA:]
Real niggas do not deserve pussy
Meaning it's more, you see right through walls
Ain't talkin' about pussy
Meaning you deserve the whole box of chocolates
Come at me
Forrest Gump had a lot goin' for him
Never without pussy
Y'know, Jenny almost gave it all up for him
Never even pushed for the pussy
Where's Forrest now when you need him?
Talk to me, talk to me
Hey, ayy, hey
Attention, all you niggas
All you bitches

Sit back and relax your mind, just ride, just ride
Sit back and relax, you'll find just why, just why
Sit back, relax, just ease your mind, just ride
You are now watching MADtv

[Kendrick Lamar:]
Niggas'll lose they mind for it
Wine for it, dine for it-pussy
Spend time for it, see no colored line for it-pussy
Double back handicap and go blind for it-pussy
Pussy got endless prisoners
Pussy always revengin' her
Pussy is calculating
And good pussy is rather dangerous
Pussy can be so facetious, the heavyweight champ
Pussy is so undefeated, let's amen to that
I mean, the pump fakes on the Facebooks
And the screw face when the bae look
Won't get you no pussy
I mean, the fake chains and the gold names
For insecure, gon' reassure you not to get pussy
You overcompensate too much for the pussy
You like to throw all kinda shade for the pussy
See, that's what pussy niggas do
I know the ways of a pussy, I see pussy lookin' at you
How many niggas get mistaken for clitoris in a day?
How many sentiments you make before runnin' pussy away?
How many times she gotta tell you that dick is disposable?
But if she fuck a young nigga like me, it's over for you
Solána, middle fingers up, speak your truth

[SZA:]
You could never trivialize pussy
But a bum nigga like you would try it (pussy)
I know what you really 'bout
High key, your dick is weak, buddy
It's only replaced by a rubber substitute
We ain't feelin' you
Think I caught a vibe, kinda feel a nigga
You could touch the booty if you like, I ain't trippin' on ya
(Such a nice girl, SZA)
I'm really tryna crack off that headboard
And bust it wide open for the right one
Is you that for me?
'Cause if you that for me
Like doves in the wind, hey, hey
That pussy, like doves in the wind, hey, hey
Pussy like doves in the wind
I will make you beg for it
I wanna see you call out

Sit back and relax your mind, just ride
(Give you all of me and I won't stop, not a little bit)
Sit back and relax, you'll find just why
(Dangerous boy, I wanted to do it all)
Sit back, relax, just ease your mind, just ride
(Unfortunately you couldn't get your shit together)
You are now watching MADtv

[Woman:]
We take things, and my influence so far, and then it's out of my hands. And, y'know, while as I said it can be scary, it can also be a little bit comforting. Because I've learned that when I get to that point, and I can acknowledge, "Okay, Audrey, that's as much as you can do," I can actually let it...

Drew Barrymore

Page 832

What am I finding here?

As I wander in the streets.

Of the active night life.

The different kinds of people I've met.

And the different kinds of people I'm with.

What am I finding?

Myself?

I'm not too sure.

Maybe it's something everyone has felt before.

Maybe even entertainers like Drew Barrymore.

Everyone's human, afterall.

Look at Chester Bennington.

Today, I heard Chester's voice echo in a restaurant.

His presence was felt strongly.

Even after he's gone.

What am I finding? 

Maybe I'll find out.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Drew Barrymore

Why is it so hard to accept the party is over?
You came with your new friends
And her mom jeans and her new Vans
And she's perfect and I hate it, oh so glad you made it
I'm so glad you could come by
Somebody get the tacos, somebody spark the blunt
Let's start the Narcos off at episode one
Bring the gin, got the juice
Bring the sin, got that too
Whoa, just shut up, know you're my favorite
Am I...

Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Is it warm enough for ya inside me, me, me, me
Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Warm enough outside, inside me, me, me, me

I get so lonely, I forget what I'm worth
We get so lonely, we pretend that this works
I'm so ashamed of myself think I need therapy-y-y-y
I'm sorry I'm not more attractive
I'm sorry I'm not more ladylike
I'm sorry I don't shave my legs at night
I'm sorry I'm not your baby mama
I'm sorry you got karma comin' to you
Collect and soak in it right

Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Is it warm enough for ya inside me, me, me, me?
Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Warm enough outside, inside me, me, me, me

Sorry, I just need to see you
I'm sorry I'm so clingy I don't mean to be a lot
Do you really wanna love me down like you say you do?
Give it to me like you say you do?
Cause it's hard enough you got to treat me like this
Lonely enough to let you treat me like this
Do you really love me
Or just wanna love me down, down, down, down?

Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Is it warm enough for ya inside me, me, me, me?
Warm enough for ya outside baby, yeah
(Tell me that it's warm enough here for ya)
Warm enough outside, inside me, me, me, me

Warm enough outside, inside
Warm enough outside, inside me-me-me-me, me-me-me
Ohh-whoa, is it warm enough outside, inside?

Crowded Room

Page 831

2 years ago, on this day, I had the biggest breakdown of my life.

And now, I'm in a different place. :)

It's always good to reflect..

And it's been such a wild ride.

Maaaaan.

Had so much fun last night.

With my fellow Army mates.

So good to spend time away from the toxic of work.

And I never knew how much fun nerf fighting was LOL.

All those laughter and smiles in a crowded room..

Love you guys so much.

Wish we could spend more time like this.

Good luck in all your future endeavours.

:)

Last night I felt.. that there was more than what you texted me.

Is there?

I don't know...

Call me crazy.

But my feelings are always right.

I'll be away for a few days.

To the Land Of Smiles again.

And hoping I'd find myself once more.

Take care everyone. :)

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Christina Grimmie - Crowded Room

Yeah-eah-yeah
Oh
Hey

How many times?
How many nights?
Wasted on trying to fit in
A different dress
Same old regrets
Vanity's wearing me thin
And this exposure
Over and over
Who is that girl in my skin?
In my skin

Here in this crowded room
Under the pale white moon
Blinded and lost in the lights
Looking for somewhere to hide
Surrounded by faces
Laughter and voices
Alone here with everyone else
Here in this crowded room
I found everyone but myself
Ooh yea-yeah

I dance in the dark
Hiding my cards
Don't want you to know who I am
Acting like I don't care
Pretend I'm not scared
Buried my head in the sand
The hand of a stranger
Makes me feel a lot safer
Lonely but not on my own
On my own, yeah

Here in this crowded room
Under the pale white moon
Blinded and lost in the lights
Looking for somewhere to hide
Yea-eah
Surrounded by faces
Laughter and voices
Alone here with everyone else
Here in this crowded room
I found everyone but myself

Carry on
Move along
Holding on
To anyone
Get through the night
Just get through the night
Walk away
Never fade
Never break
Stay away
Get through the night
By the end of the night
Still here by myself

In this crowded room
Under the pale white moon
Blinded and lost in the lights
Looking for somewhere to hide

Oh here in this crowded room
Under the pale white moon
Blinded and lost in the lights
Looking for somewhere to hide
Surrounded by faces
Laughter and voices
Alone here with everyone else
Here in this crowded room
I found everyone but myself
But myself

Angel On Fire

Page 830

Ah...

Such a nostalgic week.

The past 2 days were pretty great. 

:)

Spent the last moments in camp..

With the batch I started off with.

And those that came as additions.

I've seen you guys grow so much.

We've all come so far.

And I'm sorry about all the shit you guys will have to deal with.

But oh well. 

Life goes on.

There'll be a big presence missed, definitely.

I wish I was more prepared for today.

I used to be an angel on fire.

But I guess.. it's slowly burning out.

I know.. I can do better.

Maybe next time.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Angel On Fire

I woke up to another mess in the living room
Broken bottles all around my feet
They came again in the night under crescent moon
Didn't wake me in my sleep

'Cause they talk and drink and laugh 'bout things
And fall in love in my backyard
I hide and cower in the corner
Conversation's getting hard
'Cause nobody seems to ask about me anymore
And nobody seems to care 'bout anything I think
And nobody seems to recognize me in the crowd
In the background screamin', "everybody, look at me"

And I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
And I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
I'm standin' in the ashes of who I used to be
And I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire, fire

I used to be a darling starlet like a centerpiece
Had the whole world wrapped around my ring
I flew too closely to the sun that's setting in the East
And now I'm melting from my wings

'Cause I'd laugh and drink and talk 'bout things
And fall in love in my backyard
Now it's my own anxiety that makes the conversation hard
'Cause nobody seems to ask about me anymore
And nobody ever cares 'bout anything I think
And nobody seems to recognize me in the crowd
In the background screamin', "everybody, look at me"

And I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
And I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
I'm standin' in the ashes of who I used to be
But I'm faded away, you know, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire
Well, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire

You know, I used to be on fire
You know, I used to be on fire, fire

Real Feels

Page 829

I laughed it off.

Well.

Maybe...

Maybe I wished it was true.

Haha.

I don't know...

Don't know what to expect of this.

All I know is... what I'm feeling... are real feels.

And maybe I feel like falling.

For you.

Well I won't complicate things.

It won't end well..

I know it.

I'll keep it as it is.

As long as I can.

Love, Eran.

Ps. Heard this song when I was with you.

Now it just reminds me of you.

Current Song Mood: R I T U A L Ft Denzel Curry - Real Feels

[Verse 1: R I T U A L]
I tried to keep these feelings in control
I’ve tried to find a reason not to show you
But every time I do, I give my all
Just can’t let it go

[Pre Chorus: R I T U A L]
Even if you say, even if you say no
I’m gonna fight babe
Cause what I need has taken hold
And even if you play, even if you play dumb
Its not gonna change me, (Its not gonna change me)

[Chorus: R I T U A L]
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i want it
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i’m on it
If this is how real feels
Well it feels like falling
Yeah I feel like falling
For you, (you)

[Verse 2: R I T U A L]
I’m getting bored of artificial love
That one night feeling is never quite enough
There’s evidence in each time that we touch
That i’m not giving up

[Pre Chorus: R I T U A L]
Even if you say, even if you say no
I’m gonna fight babe
Cause what I need has taken hold
And even if you play, even if you play dumb
Its not gonna change me, (Its not gonna change me)

[Chorus: R I T U A L]
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i want it
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i’m on it
If this is how real feels
Well it feels like falling
Yeah I feel like falling
For you, (you)

[Bridge: R I T U A L
Yeah I feel like fallin'
For you, (you)
Yeah I feel like fallin'
For you, (you)

[Verse 3: Denzel Curry]
I won't forget about the falls and slips
The flaws are seeping through your flawless lips

If I'm the sun, then you are my eclipse

It will never be there forever so to get a glimpsz
I feel though you
I, can't even deny
Girl you blew my mind
Can't forget you, if I tried
In a moment, at my lowest you get me back on my feet
My heart, is cold and yet it been stolen
She won't give it back to me
I, fell hard
I don't want to fall anymore
Fell hard, she don't want it all anymore
Rewind this, like we been here before
Love, lost There's not a we anymore

[Chorus: R I T U A L]
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i want it
If this is how real feels
Then I guess i’m on it
If this is how real feels
Well it feels like falling
Yeah I feel like falling
For you, (you)

[Bridge: R I T U A L]
Yeah I feel like fallin'
For you, (you)
Yeah I feel like fallin'
For you, (you)
Yeah I feel like fallin'
For you, (you)
Yeah I feel like fallin'

Garden (Say It Like That)

Page 828

I passed by the garden.

This familiar place..

Brought back so much memories.

But it doesn't affect me now.

Not anymore.

----------------------------------------------------------------

:)

I had a good day.

With good company.

Reconnecting after so long.

Holding conversations and laughter.

Your funny accents.

I love it when you say it like that.

Been a while since I've been this occupied.

But it's good.

It's always good...

To keep your mind off things.

This week is gonna be slightly hard to go through.

But I know I can pull through.

Today I went home feeling a little empty.

A little teary maybe.

A little jealous/hurt maybe.

But I know it's for the best.

It's better this way.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: SZA - Garden (Say It Like That)

Need you for the old me
Need you for my sanity
Need you to remind me where I come from
Can you remind me of my gravity?
Ground me when I'm tumblin', spiralin', plummetin' down to Earth
You keep me down to Earth
Call me on my bullshit
Lie to me and say my booty gettin' bigger even if it ain't
Love me even if it rain
Love me even if it pain you
I know I be difficult
You know I be difficult
You know it get difficult to

Open your heart up
Hoping they'll never find out that you're anyone else
'Cause I love you just how you are
Hope you never find out who I really am
'Cause you'll never love me, you'll never love me, you'll never love me
But I believe you when you say it like dat
Only you need me when you say it like dat
Oh I believe you when you say it like dat
You must really love me

For real, I'm not playing no games
Pulling back and forth
I need your support now (now, now, now, now, now)
In case you call my phone I don't care
Got no panties on
I need your support now (now, now, now, now, now)
I know you'd rather be layin' up with a big booty
Body hella positive 'cause she got a big booty (wow)
I know I'd rather be paid up
You know I'm sensitive about havin' no booty, havin' no body, only you buddy
Can you hold me when nobody's around us

Open your heart up
Hoping they'll never find out that you're anyone else
'Cause I love you just how you are
Hope you never find out who I really am
'Cause you'll never love me, you'll never love me, you'll never love me
But I believe you when you say it like dat
Only you need me when you say it like dat
Oh I believe you when you say it like dat
You must really love me

You don't got shit to say to me
I ain't got shit to say to you
[Laughs] Granny, and that's the truth
And step on
Also you black heffa, you stand your ground
'Cause I feel the same way
If you don't like me, you don't have to fool with me
You don't have to talk about me or treat me mean
I don't have to treat you mean
I just stay out of your way
That's the way you work that one

Beautiful People Beautiful Problems

Page 827

Wonderful day out with my boys.

Good ol' times.

I think we all needed this.

And I'm so glad we did.

We're all beautiful people with beautiful problems.

Life is beautiful. 

We just have to see it from a different view.

We all have our challenges.

It's okay to be upset.

It's okay to be depressed.

It's okay to cry.

Cause deep down inside, we're all hurting in some ways.

I just hope you know.

That there are people who are willing to lend a hand or a shoulder to cry.

I know I am.

I'm right here.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lana Del Rey - Beautiful People Beautiful Problems

Blue is the color of the planet from the view above
Long live our reign, long live our love
Green is the planet from the eyes of a turtle dove
'Til it runs red, runs red with blood

We get so tired and we complain
'Bout how it's hard to live
It's more than just a video game

But we're just beautiful people
With beautiful problems, yeah
Beautiful problems, God knows we've got them
But we gotta try (la la la)
Every day and night (la la la)

Blue is the color on the shirt of the man I love
He's hard at work, hard to the touch
But warm is the body of the girl from the land he loves
My heart is soft, my past is rough

But when I love him get a feeling
Something close to like a sugar rush
It runs through me
But is it wasted love?
(It's not wasted love)

But we're just beautiful people
With beautiful problems, yeah
Beautiful problems, God knows we've got them
But we gotta try (la la la)
Every day and night (la la la)

Oh, oh
Hmm, hmm
Oh, oh
Hmm, hmm
Yeah, we've gotta try (la la la)
We gotta walk through fire (la la la)
Because we're just

Beautiful people with beautiful problems, yeah
(We're just)
Beautiful problems, God knows we've got them
(Beautiful people)
Beautiful people with beautiful problems, yeah (we need to)
Beautiful problems, God knows we got them

So beautiful
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah

Halfway Right

Page 826

As the days go by, my roles and responsibilities become more clearer.

I know what I have to do..

I don't really have a choice now.

But I know... 

Deep down, I'm meant for something more.

I don't want to go down the typical route.

I wanna be more than this.

I wanna know I'm right.

But maybe... I'm just halfway right.

A boy can dream.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Linkin Park - Halfway Right

I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right

Used to get high with the dead end kids
Abandoned houses where the shadows live
I never been higher than I was that night
I woke up driving my car
I couldn't see then what I see right now
The road dissolving like an empty vow
Couldn't remember where I'd been that night
I knew I took it too far

All you said to do was slow down
I remember, now I remember
All you said to do was slow down
But I was already gone

I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right
I know what I want, but it feels like I'm paralyzed
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right (halfway right)

Told me "Kid, you're going way to fast
You burn too bright, you know you'll never last"
It was bullshit then, I guess it makes sense now
I woke up driving my car
Said I'd lose you if I lost control
I just laughed because what do they know?
Here I am, standing all alone
Because I took it too far

All you said to do was slow down
I remember, now I remember
All you said to do was slow down
But I was already gone

I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right
I know what I want, but it feels like I'm paralyzed
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right, halfway right

But I was already gone
I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right

But I was already gone
I scream at myself when there's nobody else to fight
I don't lose, I don't win, if I'm wrong, then I'm halfway right

One More Light

Page 825

Chester Bennington.

RIP.

A hero.

A Legend.

You left us with songs that touched millions of souls.

Thank you for being a part of my childhood.

Linkin Park was the first band I've ever listened to.

The news broke as I was scrolling through my Twitter feed this morning.

I don't know why, but I was so gutted. My heart broke. The pain was real.

Especially the fact that he took his own life. Unexpectedly.

I'm sure everyone felt that way too.

Songs from the past came back.

Everything hurts because it all makes sense now.

And the last performance he did.. it was so genuine and heartfelt.

I'm speechless.

It feels surreal.

Suicide is never an option.

The world just got a little darker.

Sometimes all we need.. is one more light.

You were that light.

Rest in peace.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Linkin Park - One More Light

Should've stayed, were there signs, I ignored?
Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore?
We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep
There are things that we can have, but can't keep

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do

The reminders, pull the floor from your feet
In the kitchen, one more chair than you need, oh
And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair
Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there

If they say
Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do

Who cares if one more light goes out
In the sky of a million stars
It flickers, flickers
Who cares when someone's time runs out
If a moment is all we are
Or quicker, quicker
Who cares if one more light goes out
Well I do
Well I do

Present Situation

Page 824

I guess I get infatuated too easily.

Haha.

Damnit Syah.

Don't know why I expect so much.

Don't know what to say right now.

Don't know how to handle this present situation.

Sigh.

All I can remember is the feeling I felt last night.

And it's so strong.

That feeling of being wanted.

I guess it's nothing but an illusion huh.

Yeah.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sevyn Streeter Ft The-Dream - Present Situation

With every breath in my lungs, I'm gone
Scream out my mind 'cause I miss you so
But eventually, I get over you
Hit up the mall and drop a couple bands off
Spending money is my antidote, yeah
Don't that sound like somebody you know? Yeah
She hurt you, you hurt me
But without her, we wouldn't be
So I don't know what to say right now
And I don't know where to be right now

How do I address the present situation?
The present situation
The present situation
I don't know how to address the present situation
The present situation

So when you started out tricking on me
You was trying to get over her
And when you started to lay me down
You was still getting over her
I wonder if you love me now
Or if you ever loved me at all
A baseless love and still we fall
And I'mma tell myself that every nigga seem irrelevant
(Just sex me right)
I'mma keep on showing it so much that I start to forget
(I love the light)
And I gotta acquire your taste
Swallowing straight with no chase
(This ain't right)
Then I start to come around
That's the Sevyn they heard about
But then you have to hold me down

I got a present situation
Oh, present situation
We gotta address the present situation
I don't know how to address the present situation
The present situation

And I can't lie, I love it
I can't lie, I love it
It ain't right, I love it
I wouldn't have chose this life, but I love it

The present situation
The present situation
The present situation
I don't know how to address the present situation
The present situation

Bated Breath

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Resistance was futile.

I gave in tonight.

I had a good feeling about it.

I guess.

And true enough, it was.

Awkward at first.

But it ended up fast, passionate & definitely worth it.

Those longing eyes. The body twitching. The irresistable bites. My whispers. The lip bites.

I enjoyed every minute of it.

I could tell at the end of it, a little shyness of what just happened.

I smiled.

As I was about to leave, a door slammed.

I froze.

A bated breath.

I suddenly felt quick lips pressing against mine.

I was caught off guard.

'Bye.'

And I left quickly, blushing.

Before anyone in the house woke up.

I don't know what to feel. But I guess it felt good.

I guess I don't need to cling on to people who don't deserve me.

Cause today was just overwhelming.

I hope to see you again..

Maybe.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tinashe - Bated Breath

What if I told you that it was all in vain?
Would it still hurt you?
Would you still feel the same?
Said it's impossible-possible
So impossible

[Chorus:]
But you're still waiting on the moment breath is bated
I wish I could hold you, I can't take it
Tell you all my secrets
I'm too faded
Praying that tomorrow I'll be braver
Maybe I can tell you, maybe we can do this
Kisses on my forehead we can fall into it
Love you like the rain, that falls much faster
Living in a piece of ever after
Forever after
Living in the piece of ever after
Ever after, ever after

If you will have me
I'll make you happy
Need someone to whom I can belong
Here's my confession
Saving it special
Hoped it would be you all along
All along
All along
All along

[Chorus]