Hey, You Got Drugs?

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I walked behind a lady after gym.

She was smoking a stick.

The smoke went straight to my face.

I held my breathe.

It was almost an instant reflex.

I've never liked it.

Reminded me of something I did.

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The lights twinkled around me.

Everyone walked pass.

But I was lonely.

So, so lonely.

It's been 2 years.

2 years since I've felt this low.

What has changed?...

I scrolled through my feed.

And saw you posted the same exact story.

I winced.

Thinking... I wish I could be with you right now.

You lied.

You told me you weren't free on our last meet-up.

When in actual fact, you were.

'Anyone up to watch the Pokemon movie?

'Anyone free for dinner?'

You posted on your insta story.

My heart broke.

It was almost like a mock towards me.

That... I was nothing.

That I... wasnt worth your time anymore.

What was I then...

I sat alone, waiting for my best friend to show up.

She did, an hour later. 

I was numb, jaded by then.

I didnt feel anything.

After dinner and ranting everything out (shedontknowbutsheknows post) , I realised, how f*cked up our lives were.

We walked around in town after.

She had just bought a pack of ciggs for herself.

'I want a puff.'

'Huh??? YOU? Are you serious?'

My best friend knew it was ridiculous. I've never smoked before.

'Yeah. I need it. Just a puff.'

'Um. Ok then.'

We walked quietly to the smoking corner.

She started her cigg.

And later passed it to me.

I held it.

'Just inhale and hold it in.'

I did that.

At first I couldnt do it properly.

But the second try.

I felt it.

I felt it fill my lungs.

The icy cold of despair.

And I watched as the smoke slipped out of my mouth.

Into the cool night air.

'Feel it?'

'Yeah.'

We sat down. She advised me. Stuff I already knew. But I guess I just needed to hear it from her

You won't even save the night for me.

When I've given you so much love.

You f*ckin' made it your deal when you asked me out the first time.

It messed me up pretty bad.

I guess I've fallen out of my feelings.

This song... it's the most personal one I've heard and shared this year.

This song is everything to me.

You'll always be special to me.

 I wish you knew that.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - Hey, You Got Drugs?

Two years of change
Now they say never change, never did
Keep loving me for a night
Think you're free? I don't quit
Come on my sweet escape for a while just to try it on
I'm dancin' away
While it's all fun and games 'til its not

We don't wanna go home
(Better dance for us)
You're fucked but, oh, you're so fun
(How you holding on?)
I don't know tomorrow
(If it comes or not)
But I promise for life you can brag 'bout tonight
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
And I ain't never gonna go home

Ten years of highs just for fun
Not a height 'til I'm caught
Pain from the past like a small piece of glass in my heart
This should be the time of my life
You fucking made it your deal, your deal
And I keep dancin' away
'Cause it's all fun and games 'til its real

We don't wanna go home
(Better dance for us)
You're fucked but, oh, you're so fun
(How you holding on?)
I don't know tomorrow
(If it comes or not)
But I promise for life you can brag 'bout tonight
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
And I ain't never gonna go home

Hey, you got drugs?
Just need a pick-me-up only for tonight
Don't tell anyone I was with ya
Yeah, it's good stuff, but I'm resistin' now
Take it if you want
Think I've fallen out of my feelings

We don't wanna go home
(Better dance for us)
You're fucked but, oh, you're so fun
(How you holding on?)
I don't know tomorrow
(If it comes or not)
But I promise for life you can brag 'bout tonight
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
You won't save the night for me
And I ain't never gonna go home
Go home

Hey, you got drugs?
Just need a pick-me-up only for tonight
Don't tell anyone I was with ya
Yeah it's good stuff but I'm resisting now
Take it if you want
Think I've fallen out of my feelings
Hey, you got drugs?
Just need a pick-me-up only for tonight
Don't tell anyone I was with ya
Yeah it's good stuff but I'm resisting now
Take it if you want
Think I've fallen out of my feelings
Hey, you got drugs?
Just need a pick-me-up only for tonight
Don't tell anyone I was with ya
Yeah it's good stuff but I'm resisting now
Take it if you want
Think I've fallen out of my feelings
Hey, you got drugs?
Just need a pick-me-up only for tonight
Don't tell anyone I was with ya
Yeah it's good stuff but I'm resisting now
Take it if you want
Think I've fallen out of my feelings