Volcanic Love

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Had so much fun today!

I felt like a lil kid again.

Finally got to experience the Carnival.

I've always wanted to...

With a certain somebody.

But it never worked out.

:)

So I guess.

I'm thankful for today.

For all the faces I saw.

The feelings I felt.

The time spent.

Emotions erupting.

Like volcanic love.

Love, Eran.

I'm on fire, baby.

Current Song Mood: The Aces - Volcanic Love

Out of the darkness
I sparked a match that set the fire
Hear the wind talking
It's stirring up my bad desires
My love is leaving
Before the lightning hits the ground
While I'm looking forward
My mind is moving backwards now

Lo-ove, my love, volcanic lo-o-ove
Lo-ove, my love, volcanic lo-o-ove

You're burning me up
Tell me you feel it now
You're burning me up
I know you need it now
Lo-o-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove
Lo-o-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove

I get the feeling
You worry 'bout me way too much
Caught in the moment
We love what can't be good for us
And I've been sinking
Into my sheets alone at night
Under the ashes
The heat you left just won't subside

You're burning me up
Tell me you feel it now
You're burning me up
I know you need it now
Lo-o-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove
Lo-o-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove

Under the ashes, under the ashes, under the ashes
I'm on fire, baby
Under the ashes, under the ashes, under the ashes
I'm on fire, baby
I'm on fire

You're burning me up
Tell me you feel it now
You're burning me up
I know you need it now
Lo-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove
Lo-o-ove, volcanic lo-o-ove

Lo-ove
(I know you need it)
Lo-ove
(I know you need it)
Lo-ove
(You're burning me up)
Lo-ove
(You're burning me up)
Lo-ove
(You're burning me up)
Lo-ove
(You're burning me up)
Lo-ove
Under the ashes, under the ashes, under the ashes
I'm on fire, baby

In My Blood

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This song.. couldnt have come at a better time.

Help me.

Cause I keep losing myself. 

Over and over again.

It reached its peak today.

As she pressurised me.

And all the bad thoughts started creeping in.

There were so many things I could do.

So many things I wanted to.

To run away.

To fight.

To... hurt.

I felt the toxicity rising.

Someone help me.

And it reached its peak.

As I broke down.

The tears,

The sobs.

And she stopped.

She came closer. 

She comforted me.

And in that moment, I felt like her little boy again.

Just.. a little boy.

Lost.

Keep telling me it gets better. 

Does it ever?

I need... somebody now.

I couldnt do it.

I couldnt.

It's not..

It's not.. me.

It's not.. in my blood.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - In My Blood

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

Looking through my phone again feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could...

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood

Stranger

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Relapse.

I'm not one to make good decisions.

But today was.. different.

I knew I was making a fatal one.

Yet I embraced it.

The familiar aura.

The dark corners of the rooms.

The flashing lights.

The naked bodies walking by.

Looking.

Seeking.

Finding.

You're my stranger in the dark.

Thanks for accompanying my lonely heart.

Leave it wide open.

And take the edge off it.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Tove Lo - stranger

Fading out, that's my way of life
Losing high when the beat goes down
Take me now, take me to a place we're alone, we're alone
Fading in, take off all my clothes
Into you, my frustration grows
Take me now, want you to bring me home

You're my stranger in the dark
I am lonely, lonely heart
Waiting for someone to take me home
You're my stranger in the dark
I am lonely, vagabond
Hold me down, want you to bring me home

Let's begin, love making you beg for the win
I'm the prize you get if you do everything I say
Get you high, I get you high
I wanna be what you want me to be
I'd go anywhere, no rules, I don't care
Whoa, just take me home

Oh, my stranger in the dark
I am lonely, lonely heart
Waiting for someone to take me home
You're my stranger in the dark
I am lonely, lonely heart
Waiting for someone to take me home
(Someone to take me home)
You're my stranger in the dark
I am lonely, vagabond
Hold me down, want you to bring me home

So you're my last hope and, and I don't care what you do
Leave my heart open, I'm gonna leave it for you
You can walk on it, I wanna hurt, feeling used
Take the edge off it, just take the edge off it

Small World

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I'm not looking for anything.

Anymore.

But I guess... My heart's been opened up a little more.

Emptiness.

Sorrow.

Loneliness.

How do you fill it up?

I guess in this time and space, only one thing can.

Everything happens for a reason.

What a small world.

It's such an amazing way we all.. connect.

The people we meet.

Every second that passes.

It happens for a reason.

And I want to.. soar above it all.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Idina Menzel - Small World

I'm standing in the field
My feet lift off the ground
No one here will see me
No one will hurt me now

I'm brushing off the rain
While climbing through the clouds
Nobody can see me
No one can hurt me now

Goodbye, gravity
Goodbye, enemies
I'm going up to a place where the world is small
Where I can fly above it all
If I don't make it, sing my song
From here I'm weightless
No stars are famous
And the world is small
And the world is small

Still rising towards the dark
Don't care what's down below
'Cause no one can see me
And no one has to know

The atmosphere is lonely 
And beautiful
I don't miss a thing I used to know
I used to know

Goodbye, gravity
Goodbye, enemies
I'm going up to a place where the world is small
Where I can fly above it all
If I don't make it, sing my song
From here I'm weightless
No stars are famous
And the world is small
I feel so tall

If there's nothing to break my fall
It's OK, I've seen it all
And maybe I was always small
But I could fly before I crawled

If I don't make it, sing my song
From here I'm weightless
No stars are famous
And the world is small
And the world is small

I Am

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Doesn't matter does it?

I'll do it if it feels right.

I don't need anyone's validation.

Not gonna put in effort for people who don't appreciate me.

Others know how hard I work.

No matter how hard I'm being shot down.

Whether you care or not.

Doesn't matter.

I'm trying.

I am.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Jorja Smith - I Am

Try it if it feels right (try it)
Try it if it feels right, yah
When you try
Ohh, ohh

[Jorja Smith:]
I'm trying
I'm just, I'm just
I been out here tryin' to see my homecoming
And of course somebody is always gonna say something
Try and shoot me down for voicing my own opinion
Triggering a part of me that's always been indifferent

And I know that we have asked for change
Don't be scared to put the fears to shame

When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free
When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free

Open up this letter, you ain't tryin' to be
You been blind to the subject but not blind to me
And I know that this margin ain't too small to me
Not too real, not too much anymore, not alone

And I know that we have asked for change
Don't be scared to put the fears to shame

When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free
When you know what you got
Sacrifice ain't that hard
Feel like depending on me
Sometimes we ain't meant to be free

[Jorja Smith (Kendrick Lamar):]
If who I am offends you
Don't feel sorry
Don't feel, don't feel sorry
Don't feel, don't feel sorry
(My loss is worth more than your wins)
(I'm satisfied if it starts to look in)
That is everything, that is everything, that is everything
That is everything
That is everything
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop
I try to make it stop
I do want you want to stop

Human Nature

Page 1018

Sometimes it's better to just...

Give in.

Open up.

Talk about things.

And cry about it.

Let out the bottled feelings.

And embrace... each other again.

After all, it's just human nature.

Thanks Ma. 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Sevdaliza - Human Nature

[Verse 1]
Soft is the tone of my voice
Water has trebled my eye
Black
Ashed by a taste of his world

[Chorus]
Touched by an angel
Have you met an angel?
Touched by an angel
Touched by an angel
You were touched by an angel

[Bridge]
Our souls have been seperated
Our souls have been seperated

[Chorus]
Have you met an angel?
Touched by an angel
Have you met an angel?

You were touched by an angel, an...
Touched by an angel

Have you met an angel?
Touched by an angel
Have you met an angel?

[Post-Chorus]
Human nature
Human nature
Human nature
Human nature

[Outro]
I am teaching you to be selfish
Let me repeat it
Because the word 'selfishness' has been condemned so much
That it is every possibility to misunderstand
But, the word is really beautiful
To be selfish simply means to be yourself