In My Blood

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This song.. couldnt have come at a better time.

Help me.

Cause I keep losing myself. 

Over and over again.

It reached its peak today.

As she pressurised me.

And all the bad thoughts started creeping in.

There were so many things I could do.

So many things I wanted to.

To run away.

To fight.

To... hurt.

I felt the toxicity rising.

Someone help me.

And it reached its peak.

As I broke down.

The tears,

The sobs.

And she stopped.

She came closer. 

She comforted me.

And in that moment, I felt like her little boy again.

Just.. a little boy.

Lost.

Keep telling me it gets better. 

Does it ever?

I need... somebody now.

I couldnt do it.

I couldnt.

It's not..

It's not.. me.

It's not.. in my blood.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Shawn Mendes - In My Blood

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

Laying on the bathroom floor, feeling nothing
I'm overwhelmed and insecure, give me something
I could take to ease my mind slowly
Just have a drink and you'll feel better
Just take her home and you'll feel better
Keep telling me that it gets better
Does it ever?

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

Looking through my phone again feeling anxious
Afraid to be alone again, I hate this
I'm trying to find a way to chill, can't breathe, oh
Is there somebody who could...

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
No medicine is strong enough
Someone help me
I'm crawling in my skin
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood

I need somebody now
I need somebody now
Someone to help me out
I need somebody now

Help me, it's like the walls are caving in
Sometimes I feel like giving up
But I just can't
It isn't in my blood

It isn't in my blood
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood
I need somebody now
It isn't in my blood

In My Blood

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The Feast

A feast by the officers.

'BARBECUE TIME!!!!'

We had all just returned from our last boat covers.

I was recovering well from my fever, though it did spike up a couple of times.

And now, everyone's celebrating.

We were all in a light mood.

While the cadets were in the forest on their last night of JCC, here we were, eating away on all these good food.

Chicken Satay, Chicken Breast, Mutton, Prawn.

Me, P and Ziq stood by the side, eating away on all the food, chatting happily as they served us.

I swear I'm glad we skipped dinner before that.

Portions after portions, they kept serving us non-stop.

The Sgt Maj was there, and he smiled at me, asking me about how our schedule was.

One of the officers, teased P, and kept offering him more food.

'Eh no. Sir. PLEASE! Omg...' he funnily whined as more meat was placed on his plate.

I was just about to put away my plate, when one of them came to me too.

'NAH' he placed more chicken on my plate, with a poker face expression.

I was speechless. LOL.

'UHH. WAIT. WHAT?!'

I was pretty full at that time and, no choice, had to finish most of it.

I quickly put the plates away before he could give anymore.

'EH where's your plate???'

'NO MOREEEEEE.' I blatantly said.

Pretty sure my stomach could've burst that night.

We went to bed feeling sick and full.

And guess what was for sahur the next day???

BBQ Chicken.

For the first time in history, I finally got sick of chicken.

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Good meet up with my Balonggongs <3

REUNITED AT LAST.

WE HAVENT MET UP AS A GROUP SINCE BMT.

Had to break fast at Just Acia, then headed to play some Xbox Games.

So fuuuun.

Love them to bits even though Buddy was as annoying as ever.

Hahaha.

Love you guys :)

And thanks Mel for the compliment on my blog! HAHA.

Glad that people notice how I try to write my posts & relate them to the songs I'm currently listening to.

The need to express myself is always there.

It's in my blood.

Actually, I've been pretty down the whole day.

Plus all the shit that happened during my duty last night got me so drained.

Needed this meet-up & de-stress.

Spending time with others to get my mind off of things.

And getting killed during shooting games LOL.

Never be in the same team as me ok (legit, don't).

Till next time.

x

Love, Eran.

I guess I'll have keep it quiet. For now.

Current Song Mood: The Veronicas - In My Blood

When I look into your eyes
I wanna breathe you in to get me high
Crawl into this space inside your mind
Just leave me there, leave me there
Now you got me wanting more
I felt religion with you on the floor
The holy word that I've been waiting for
Baby stay with me, stay with me

We don't have to wait all night
To know if this is really love
We don't have to wait all night
Cause I can feel you in my blood

In my blood
In my blood

I just want us to unite
Feel the needle on my fourty-five
Live like we are running out of time
Just take me there, take me there
Grind you down into my bones
You're the magic dust that gets me stoned
You're the hallelujah on my throne
Baby stay with me, stay with me

We don't have to wait all night
To know if this is really love
We don't have to wait all night
Cause I can feel you in my blood

In my blood
In my blood

I don't wanna come down (I don't wanna come down)
I don't wanna come down (I don't wanna come down)

We don't have to wait all night
To know if this is really love
We don't have to wait all night
Cause I can feel you in my blood

In my blood
In my blood
In my blood
In my blood