One Way

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Pain.

Going through today...

Was just painful.

I woke up at 3am. Looked at your last seen. 2 hours ago.

1am?

Who were you talking to that late?

Am I obsessed?

I shut my phone.

Tried to sleep it off.

Tossed and turned.

I might have dreamt of you.

I might have...

But I woke up for work.

And to work it was.

It was a smooth shift. Though my mind was constantly floating.

I tried to keep myself busy.

To keep my mind off things.

But all I remember was what you said last night.

'to be frens'

A friend.

After all this?

After you gave me so much hope..

My heart bled again.

I tried to shake it off.

Work finished and I left. As fast as I could.

Didnt concentrate to what that bitch colleague was talking about.

I had my own problems in my head.

The rainy dark sky...

As gloomy as me.

To the gym.

Gym.. To distract me from the pain.

It worked... a bit.

But then it happened again.  As I walked pass the park.

My legs just.. brought me there.

My heart.. heavy.

I felt like I couldnt breathe.

Was it the anxiety again?

Rain.

Rain was drizzling softly upon me.

But I kept walking.

I walked through the park.

My heart crying.

My eyes... frantic.

What was I finding?

The playground.

There.

There was where.. the magic happened.

As I proceeded... my steps grew slower. Heavier.

Feeling the drops of rain on my skin.

I stopped.

Sat down.

At the same spot.

Where we laid. 

Where we looked in each other's eyes. 

Where we fell completely in love with each other.

That.. no more.

I looked up at the sky.

Slightly hyperventilating.

My heart still fucking heavy.

Why?

Why do you do this to me?

The dark grey clouds looming around me.

The ground wet. Dirty.

I stared at the surroundings..

Every place we've been.

Every place we've touched.

I closed my eyes and breathed in.

As the flashbacks played.

The smell of rain.

The smell of despair.

There's only one way.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: 6LACK Ft T-Pain - One Way

[6LACK:]
Hands 'round my neck
You know I got a lot left
Can't have nobody else getting on me
You should get your confirmation today
And usually, I don't do no flying out
But I been going through some things on the road
Thinking 'bout that old thing
We still haven't even been to each other's house
But baby that could wait for another time
I never been one to fuck up the vibe
Though I might fuck up your life

Take one breathe, take two (two)
The other side of you is on the loose
Ain't got much to say
I shoulda copped the one way
Girl, I know you wanna stay

You gon' have to say my name for this
'Cause usually, I don't do no flying out
But something feel different this time (this time)

Don't feel no way (no way, no way)
Less it's from foreplay (foreplay)
You know you wetter than most
Brought you out on first class, that's better than most
Now usually, I don't do no flying out
But to keep it G, it's been a long week and I'm feeling lonely
We still haven't even fucked on each other's couch
Maybe that should wait for another time
I never been one to fuck up the vibe
But I will fuck up your life

Take one step, take two (two)
The other side of you is on the loose
Ain't got much to say
I shoulda copped the one way
And I know you wanna stay

You might have to catch a plane for this
You gon' have to say my name for this
'Cause usually, I don't do no flying out
But something feel different this time (this time)

[T-Pain:]
Just getting off stage now (when will you be home?)
Cause Facetime ain't enough face time
Tell your boss ain't working tomorrow
And ask 'em why they got my girl working so hard
Now, you gon' make me use up all my miles
Fame is getting so lonely and I know you gon' come and put it on me
And I can't wait to put this in your mouth
I should go and take care of my [?]
Text me when you land in South Carolina
Tell the Uber she can take one left, take two
Oh, I don't really know what I'ma do when I see you
I don't really have not much to say
That's why I got the one way
That shit is expensive pay
So I had to put you on the plane for this

You might have to catch a plane for this
You gon' have to say my name for this
'Cause usually, I don't do no flying out
But something feel different this time (this time)
Something feel different this time (this time, this time)