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My head hasn't been a great place to be in lately...
If I could rip my mind out, I would.
A throbbing headache.
A certain sorrow.
And so much negativity lately.
The worst part is going through work and having to be kind to those around you.
Having to hold all my crumbling shit together.
Putting a facade on because that's the only way to get through the day.
'Can you change the channel?'
Sure.
'Why you never do this??'
Smile.
'Can you help me with this?'
Yeah.
Dealing with people's problems.
Entertaining nonsense requests.
When I am battling my own personal demons.
Dwelling beyond my subconscious.
I don't know.. who I am anymore.
Love, Eran.
Current Song Mood: Jacob Lee - Sorrow
She left a thousand tears upon my bedspread
A couple thoughts, a box of regrets
Full of memories that we shared
I left a single kiss upon her forehead
A selfish heart out by the doorstep
And carved a chasm into her chest
I
I wonder whether she knows
That I am imperfect
I wonder where the time goes
In her uncertainty
I wonder, if I let go
Would she return to me?
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
She wept, slid out past inside the cabinet
Kissed my shoulder out of habit
Asked if this had really happened
Now I
I wonder whether she knows
That I am imperfect
I wonder where the time goes
In her uncertainty
I wonder, if I let go
Would she return to me?
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
Someone more
Someone more
Someone more
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
A couple thoughts, a box of regrets
Full of memories that we shared
I left a single kiss upon her forehead
A selfish heart out by the doorstep
And carved a chasm into her chest
I
I wonder whether she knows
That I am imperfect
I wonder where the time goes
In her uncertainty
I wonder, if I let go
Would she return to me?
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
She wept, slid out past inside the cabinet
Kissed my shoulder out of habit
Asked if this had really happened
Now I
I wonder whether she knows
That I am imperfect
I wonder where the time goes
In her uncertainty
I wonder, if I let go
Would she return to me?
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
Someone more
Someone more
Someone more
Sorrow is all I see
I try to breathe but I
Never seem to find
The will to take one more
Stay with me
And help me grieve
'Cause I, honestly
Have never needed someone more
Current Song Mood #2: Jacob Lee - Conscience
Let me become what I want
You won't believe what I ponder
I saw the world through a notch
Somewhere within I uncovered
Everything that I once was
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I saw myself as a god
That's when I realised I wasn't
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked could I see through your eyes
And you told me I already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
I will get another day
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
Let me become what I'm not
I don't decide what I ponder
I saw the Earth as it was
The moment I fell to its aura
There I erased all my thoughts
Teaching myself to discover
Everything I thought I lost
Hiding right where I left off
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked you to see through my eyes
And you told me you already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
Everything will be okay
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
I'm unsure if I should ask
But I question everything that I see
I venture into my past
Reliasing that it's in front of me
I sit with hands in my lap
Piecing together these memories
I left you where I began
Knowing that I'm what you used to be
You won't believe what I ponder
I saw the world through a notch
Somewhere within I uncovered
Everything that I once was
Dwelling beyond my subconscious
I saw myself as a god
That's when I realised I wasn't
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked could I see through your eyes
And you told me I already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
I will get another day
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
Let me become what I'm not
I don't decide what I ponder
I saw the Earth as it was
The moment I fell to its aura
There I erased all my thoughts
Teaching myself to discover
Everything I thought I lost
Hiding right where I left off
When I asked how you colour the sky
And you told me I already knew
When I asked you to see through my eyes
And you told me you already do
Oh then why do I feel like a fool
Tell me there's a path to take
Where I'll know
Everything will be okay
Tomorrow
If you could just elaborate
I'll follow
Cause I don't know if I'm awake
I'm unsure if I should ask
But I question everything that I see
I venture into my past
Reliasing that it's in front of me
I sit with hands in my lap
Piecing together these memories
I left you where I began
Knowing that I'm what you used to be
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