Modern Loneliness

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Overheard a conversation between a dad and his Primary School son on the train platform.

They were wearing Taekwondo doboks, talking loudly about universities, and the PSLE score that should be aimed.

Dad: 'You should consider overseas universities... Harvard.  Stanford. Actually our local ones also not bad. But you need to do well in your PSLE first. 

Son: I need to score at least 220 right? 

Dad: *scoffs* Huh? 220??? You better get 250 and above! 250 is okay already.

Son .... *looks distressed*

Damn. I sympathise.

If I had a family like that... I would just kill myself.

Not saying that they shouldn't aim high.

But to what extent would you sacrifice your child's childhood, just for a better future?

Sigh.

It made me look back at how far I've come.

I didn't even get a 200 for PSLE.

I think I achieved around 197?

It was barely enough, but I managed to get into an Express Stream.

It was a struggle at times, also with the pressure of the previous year O Level Students doing damn body.

The pressure was all on my batch.

Worked my ass off, and passed somehow.

Phew, thank god. Worst period of my life.

Got into a diploma. And things got better from there.

Finished NS.

Worked full time while doing part time private degree after and managed to complete it without all my hair coming off.

That is quite enough for me.

Would I still continue further studies?

Sure. If I'm sponsored LOLOL.

But I am contented with everything. 

Even if we're still sandwiches. 

A sandwich generation.

A term I hear a lot lately.

A certain modern loneliness.

It is true isn't it?

Especially in our community.

We have to work hard, to support people who can't support us anymore, and ourselves.

A vicious cycle. 

That is why, I hope to get away someday.

Somewhere better at least,

Peaceful.

Where I don't have to worry about all this.

Do my own thing, & live life to the fullest.

F U L L E S T.

Cause life is so damn short man.

The other day a patient of mine told me:

Her husband is verbally abusive, and doesn't care about her condition.

She said he wasn't like this when they were younger.

He had expectations.. like he wanted to go on holidays with her, after they were retired.

And now, he has to send her to dialysis every time.

All those plans.. never happened.

Life is short. 

Life issss short.

Live it while you can.

Take risks. While you can.

That is all.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Lauv - Modern Loneliness

I've been thinkin' 'bout my father lately
The person that he made me
The person I've become
And I've been tryna fill all of this empty
But, fuck, I'm still so empty
Yeah, I could use some love

And I've been trying to find a reason to get up
Been trying to find a reason for this stuff
In my bedroom and my closet
The baggage in my heart is still so dark

Modern loneliness
We're never alone, but always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text 'em
La-di-da-di-da
Yeah, you get what you give and you give what you get, so
Modern loneliness
We love to get high, but we don't know how to come down

If I could break my DNA to pieces
Rid of all my demons
If I could cleanse my soul
Then I could fill the world with all my problems
But, shit, that wouldn't solve them
So, I'm left here alone

And I've been trying to find a reason to get up
I'm trying to find a reason for this stuff
In my bedroom and my closet
The baggage in my heart is still so dark

Modern loneliness
We're never alone, but always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text 'em
La-di-da-di-da
Yeah, you get what you give and you give what you get, so
Modern loneliness
We love to get high, but we don't know how to come down

Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down

Modern loneliness
We're never alone, but always depressed, yeah
Love my friends to death
But I never call and I never text 'em
La-di-da-di-da
Yeah, you get what you give and you give what you get, so
Modern loneliness
We love to get high, but we don't know how to come down

Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down
We don't know how to come down
Down, down, down, down, down (I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin')
We don't know how to come down (Please don't wake me up)
Down, down, down, down, down (I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin', I'm dreamin')
We don't know how to come down (Please don't wake me up)

Modern loneliness
We're never alone, but always depressed, yeah