Wilt

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It's JUNE!!!

We're already halfway through the year, wow.

I know I've gone missing a while.

Just been.. going through some stuff and feeling like a wilted flower.

A Pain In The Ass

Seems like I'm going through some kind of painful trauma each month. Haha. Can't catch a break yea? 😅

The past two weeks I've been having this consistent pain in my rectum area, after a series of constipated bowels. My first thought was that it was some sort of haemorrhoids, growth or the worst case scenario; some sort of prolapse. The pain grew worse and I couldn't sneeze, pee or even shit properly. Tried self-medicating for a week, and there was not really much progress. It was so depressing, and I tried not to let it get to me.

So I saw the doctor yesterday. After some painful examination and embarrassing screams of pain from me, she concluded that it was just a laceration, which should heal up in 2 weeks time. Phew. 

Today was the first time it felt slightly better, and I could finally pee & sneeze without flinching. Do y'all know how much you use your rectal muscles in a day? A LOT 😂.

Ah well that side, it's a road to recovery from here. At least I know what's been going on with me. And I definitely get to appreciate performing basic ADLs without any problems.

It'll get better. The only way out is through. 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Holding Absence - Wilt

"Could you fade away just as quickly as you came?
You're a burnt bouquet
There's nothing left to say
Simply dissipate, dissolve or just decay
You're a burnt bouquet
There's nothing left for me to say"

Hold me now, for a little bit
Burn it down, get it over with
If I admit that our lives were doomed to entwine
I'd turn back the time for your piece of mind
Hold me now, for a little bit
The love that we watched wilt

"Could you fade away just as quickly as you came?
You're a burnt bouquet
There's nothing left to say"

Hold me now, for a little bit
Burn it down, get it over with
If I admit that our lives were doomed to entwine
I'd turn back the time for your piece of mind
Hold me now, for a little bit
The love that we watched wilt

Whenever I see the tapestry, your blessed hand wove for me - The poetry, the misery - It all meant so, so much to me
Just give me a lobotomy and cure these things inside of me, and maybe I can be free to love you for an eternity

If in another life, my heart is beating fine, and love is on my mind... You'll be the first in line

Whenever I see the tapestry, your blessed hand wove for me - The poetry, the misery - It all meant so, so much to me
Just give me a lobotomy and cure these things inside of me, so maybe I can be free to love you for an eternity

If in another life, my heart is beating fine, and love is on my mind... You'll be the first in line

(Whenever I see the tapestry, your blessed hand wove for me - The poetry, the misery - It all meant so, so much to me
Just give me a lobotomy and cure these things inside of me, so maybe I can be free to love you for an eternity)