Anxiety (Burlinda's Theme)

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THIS EP IS EVERYTHING.

And has been on replay.

Oh gosh.

This song and it's MV.

I'm just blown away.

Alfredo Flores is such a VISIONARY.

The shots and inspiration from those weird ass 'depression' ads are genius.

The throwback references to Too Little Too Late and Mariah Carey made me squeaaal.

And the cameos from Omarion and Lauren just put the cherry on top.

😍😍😍

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I've had my own anxiety growing stronger every passing year.

My partner would know.

The amount of times I've broken down in our intimate moments.

I guess it's all the grief I've kept in me throughout the years.

I try not to think about it.

And just put on a strong front.

Shove it aside.

Knowing how unhealthy it is.

Most of the time it works out for me.

Other times when I spiral - it hits hard.

Yes, I do have my down moments.

I also apologise if I am such a hard person to read.

Or am too quiet at times.

I conversate better in my head.

But that doesn't mean I am unfriendly or stuck up. 😬

I am just being me.

A quiet, introvert.

Something about how I was raised.

To not talk back to my elderlies and just listen to whatever they said.

To keep opinions to myself.

I didn't have a voice. 

And I grew up thinking that was fine.

And that's why I tend to keep my problems to myself.

Because I had always felt alone.

I never, never want to burden anyone with my own issues.

Now that I'm getting older, it's something that I'm working on.

Talking about them out loud, sharing, is therapeutic. And helps lift it off your shoulders.

I'm not sure if anybody can relate, but it can be hard sometimes for me to say the words I want to say.

It's like - I form it in my head but it just doesn't come out - or come out right. So most of the time I choose to bite my tongue instead.

There's a reason why I dread presentations, performances or even conversations sometimes. I would say I'm a better listener.

That, I can confirm I'm good at haha.

Again - I'm working on it.

That's how introverted I am.

But that's me.

And I hope.. you accept me.

:) 

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Anxiety (Burlinda's Theme)

I wish that I could shut you off, keep you muted
I wish I knew the difference between your voice and mine
And mine
I'm always puttin' out the fires that you started
And every time I look around, it just looks bad on me
On me

You only show up when it's inconvenient
Always talkin' loud, fill my head up with lies
Keepin' me home, keepin' me from leavin'
You love just to take my time

Why you hate me? (Hate me) Hate me
All you do is suffocate me, can't breathe
And if I could choose (Ooh)
It'd be me without you (Ooh)
You drain me (Drain me), drain me
All you do is try to change me (Change me), lately
And if I could choose (Ooh)
It'd be me without you (Ooh)

Ooh, it's crazy, crazy, crazy (Crazy, crazy, crazy)
It's how you make me feel
Oh, your power is amazin' (Your power is amazin')
I don't recognize myself, no, no
(No, no, no, no, no, no)
No, no (Ooh)

You only show up when it's inconvenient
Always talkin' loud, fill my head up with lies
Keepin' me home, keepin' me from leavin'
You love just to take my time

Why you hate me? (Hate me) Hate me
All you do is suffocate me, can't breathe
And if I could choose (Ooh)
It'd be me without you (Ooh), oh
You drain me (Drain me), drain me
All you do is try to change me (Change me), lately
And if I could choose (Ooh)
It'd be me without you (Ooh)

(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
Why won't you let me go? (Oh, oh-oh)
Go (Ooh)
Ooh (Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh) Oh no, no, no
Why won't you let me go? (Oh, oh-oh)
Go, woah (Ooh)

(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)
(Oh, oh-oh)