Save My Soul

Page 392

Guess it's come to this.. huh.

Back to that old life.

Just me, myself and I.

I'm gonna take it slower now.

I'm gonna need more time.

Time.. is passing by real fast.

Looking back at pictures and seeing posts that were only a few weeks ago..

It still feels so recent.

Incredible to see how things have changed in just a matter of weeks.

But I guess I'm slowly moving on.

I've accepted this fate.

You're etched in me like stone.

No matter how hard I tried.

Everytime I think about it, I feel like I go back to square one.

I can't afford to let that happen.

I can't afford any relapse.

It's like an addiction.

No one can save me now.

No one can save me but myself.

Nothing more I can do to save my soul.

Love, Eran.

Lord I tried but I can't say no...

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Save My Soul

You got what you wanted
Didn't you?
Don't know where your heart is
But mine's bruised
You knew when you started
That I'd lose
The blood on the carpet
Is not you

I tried to wash the scars and marks from under my skin
But you're etched in me like stone

You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
You call it love, but you still hate me? (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
You're the pain and the medicine
One taste and I'm numb again
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no

Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah

A moth to a candle
That's me to you
I was never this fragile
Or consumed
I'm covered in shrapnel
Through and through
And I wish I knew how to
Hate you

I try to wash the scars and marks from under my skin
But you're etched in me like stone

You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
You call it love, but you still hate me? (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no
You're the pain and the medicine
One taste and I'm numb again
You can't save me (yeah, yeah)
Lord I try and I can't say no

Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah

You've got your chains wrapped around me so tight
Give me enough just to keep me alive
I try to run but it hurts every time, I try
Lord I try and I can't say no
(Oh Lord)
Lord I try and I can't say no

Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Ain't nothing I can do to save my soul
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah
Oh lord, na, na, na, na, na, yeah

You got what you wanted
Didn't you?

When Love Hurts

Page 387

What a Saturday.

Woke up this morning feeling surreal.

I was at home, in my own bed.

No morning rush today.

No shoutings.

No exercises.
No one to tell me what to do.

Just me. In bed.

Feeling relaxed.

Yet I couldnt sleep in.

Guess my body clock wasn't used to it.

I kept thinking.

About.. everything.

The emptiness sinked in.

I tried to sleep it off.

And I dreamt.. of you.

I dreamt you texted. I dreamt we were communicating again.

And when I woke up.. I wanted to check my phone immediately. But I didnt.

I stopped myself. Because I knew it was too good to be true.

The feelings I felt at that time.

They came back for a moment.

And then they disappeared.

All I could do was to curl up in a ball and suppress those feelings.

It's all in the past now.

This is my reality.

Spent the rest of the day out on my own. Bought stuffs for tomorrow. Tried to keep my mind occupied. Listening to songs that somehow made me even more depressed, yet slightly empowered at the same time.

I was as alone as I could be, fending on my own.

You'd think I'd get used to it by now..

But I know I wont.

Love hurts.

But I guess that's how you know it's real.

On the side note, if you haven't listened to JoJo's new TRINGLE, then you're missing OUT.

Like seriously, leave get out.

Ready for her to take over.

Love, Eran.

Let's get real.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - When Love Hurts

When love hurts, baby
Yeah, that's how you know it's real
When love hurts, yeah that's how it
Yeah that's how you know it's real

It's like we speak a different language
These double-sided conversations set me up
Keep dodging bullets in the bedroom
But neither one will ever say we've had enough

Help, I can't tell if we're ending
Until we break down, say it now, we're through
All you do

When love hurts, baby
Yeah, that's how you know it's real
When love hurts, yeah that's how it
Yeah that's how you know
When love hurts, baby
Yeah, that's how you know it's real
When love hurts, yeah that's how it
Yeah that's how you know it's real

Those signs went through me like a freight train
You're getting off testing my patience 'til it's gone
But then again, I do the same thing
And neither one will ever say we've had enough

Help, I can't tell if we're ending
Until we break down, say it now, we're through
All you do (oh all you do)

When love hurts, baby
Yeah, that's how you know it's real
When love hurts, yeah that's how it
Yeah that's how you know
When love hurts, baby
Yeah, that's how you know it's real (know it's real)
When love hurts, yeah that's how it
Yeah that's how you know it's real

(Yeah that's how you know it's real)

(Yeah that's how you know it's real)

And that's how you know it's real
Oh and I know it's real