Mr Music

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Had a little chat with Mum today, and she told me how she was into singing last time too. I had no idea. Haha, I guess it runs in the blood??? The passion. She told me about the old times and how she'd audition in a radio contest but didnt get through. Hahaha.

I guess it really doesn't matter.

To be so passionate about something.

When it's something that you really like.

You just gotta go for it.

All I need is music.

To give my life a purpose.

:)

Love, Eran.

You're only wastin' your time.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Mr Music

I'm not lookin' for anything, baby
So don't go tryna buy me things, fancy
You would just be waistin' your money, whoa
I'm only here for a good time
Nothin' serious, baby don't cross the line
Wanna let go, wanna get loose tonight, whoa

I got a little thing for the beat
And it's coming my way
So back it up, back it up, back it up boy
You're moving too close to me

Hey

You know I'm not the type to get with you tonight
You're only wastin' your time
I'm tellin' you because I'm already in love
His name is Mr. Music

Yeah nice try but I'm already taken
Can't you hear him through the speakers calling
So could you give me some space while dancin', whoa

I got a little thing for the beat
And it's coming my way
So back it up, back it up, back it up boy
You're moving too close to me

Hey, yeah

You know I'm not the type to get with you tonight
You're only wastin' your time
I'm tellin' you because I'm already in love
His name is Mr. Music

Ooh Mr. Music, you're so captivating
Not like anybody else
I can't get enough of whatever you're doing
So keep that beat going & going
Going & going

You know I'm not the type to get with you tonight
You're only wastin' your time
I'm tellin' you because I'm already in love
His name is Mr. Music

I'm in love, I'm in love
I'm in love, I'm in love

Hey
His name is Mr. Music, woah
Hey
His name is Mr. Music, woah
Woah

Numb

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Woke up to a beautiful Sunday morning. Rainy and cold.

Chilled the whole day.

I'm still bothered about.. that.

It's been haunting me.

I've got nowhere to run from this.

Why didnt I try hard enough?

I hope I didnt make the wrong choice.

I feel so numb.

…

Missing my Boo.

I just need someone to hug.

Love, Eran.

Wish I had done more.

https://soundcloud.com/niia/numb

Current Song Mood: NIIA - Numb

My thoughts don't fit inside.
And my nets grown too tired
Never knowing what's wrong.
Yeah i have turned to numb.
And I cry too oft
Each night that same song
Never knowing what's wrong.
Yeah i have turned to numb.
Cause I have seen the quick trick step fit

Draining down to blue chills, White hills

Bruises and deep scars settles in

And I kept on giving it one more try

Kept on giving

Kept on giving

And I kept on giving it one more life

Kept on giving

Kept on giving

Nowhere to run

I've Got nowhere to run

From this

Got nowhere to run from this

Nowhere to run

I've Got nowhere to run

From this

Got nowhere to run from this

No empathy I am done

Feelings left me one by one

Seems nothing scares me anymore

Yeah I have turned to numb

Cause I have seen quick trip step fit

Draining down to blue chills white hills

Bruises and deep scars settles in

And I kept on giving it one more try

Kept on giving

Kept on giving

And I kept on giving it one more life

Kept on giving

Kept on giving

Nowhere to run

I've Got nowhere to run

From this

Got nowhere to run from this

Nowhere to run

I've Got nowhere to run

From this

Got nowhere to run from this

You got no, no where to go

You got no, no where to go

Masterpiece

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Hais stress.

I've never liked auditions.

And it was my first time being in front of so many cameras..

So much pressure.

And filming is so so SO tiring. 

Who knew?!

Even the producers looked tired af. Haha.

I thought I could handle it. 

But I guess my nerves got the best of me.

Lets just say that it could've been so much better.

Well no point for regrets now right?

But I'm glad that I at least tried.

The one thing that I'm happy about is the couple of new friends that I've made. :)

There were so many really dope people. Some I recognise from Instagram. So much talent. So inspired by them.

Hahaha we were so hungry we ate at the staircase. ._.

LULZ. Sent Baby this hahaha.

The gorgeous powerhouse!!! She'll go far. I swear. :)

Had Swensens for dessert!

The two crazies that made me laugh so hard today. Totally cheered me up.

After taking the bus with them we parted ways. Went to town to pick this Ass up from work and went shopping for new pants cause his zip broke yesterday hahahaa. Getting big issit. 

I looooove this store!!!

Hehe went window shopping some more then took the train home.

Gah, still bummed out. Gonna take a while to get over it.

All I can say is.. that this isn't the end.

I'm still working on my masterpiece.

Peace.

xx

Love, Eran.

You haven't seen the best of me.

Current Song Mood: Jessie J - Masterpiece

So much pressure
Why so loud?
If you don't like my sound
You can turn it down

I got a road
And I walk it alone

Uphill battle
I look good when I climb
I'm ferocious, precocious
I get braggadocios

I'm not gonna stop
I like the view from the top (Yeah)

You talk that blah blah, that la la, that rah rah shit
And I'm so done, I'm so over it
Sometimes I mess up, I f*$% up, I hit and miss
But I'm okay, I'm cool with it

I still fall on my face sometimes
And I can't colour inside the lines
'Cause I'm perfectly incomplete
I'm still working on my masterpiece
And I, I wanna hang with the greats
Got a way to go, but it's worth the wait
No, you haven't seen the best of me
I'm still working on my masterpiece

Oooh, oooh
Oooh, aaah
Oooh, oooh
Oooh, aaah

Those who mind don't matter
Those who matter, don't mind
If you don't catch what I'm throwing
Then I'll leave you behind

Gone in a flash
And I ain't living like that

They talk that blah blah, that la la, that rah rah shit
Roll with the punches, and take the hits
Sometimes I mess up, I f*$% up, I swing and miss
But it's okay, I'm cool with it

I still fall on my face sometimes
And I can't colour inside the lines
'Cause I'm perfectly incomplete
I'm still working on my masterpiece
And I, I wanna hang with the greats
Got a way to go, but it's worth the wait
No, you haven't seen the best of me
I'm still working on my masterpiece

Oooh, oooh
Oooh, aaah
Oooh, oooh
Oooh, aaah

I still fall on my face sometimes
And I can't colour inside the lines
'Cause I'm perfectly incomplete
I'm still working on my masterpiece
Masterpiece, masterpiece (Yeeah)

I still fall on my face sometimes (still fall)
And I can't colour inside the lines (inside the lines)
'Cause I'm perfectly incomplete (perfectly incomplete)
I'm still working on my masterpiece (on my masterpiece)
And I, I wanna hang with the greats (oh, with the greats)
Got a way to go, but it's worth the wait, no (wait, no)
You haven't seen the best of me (b-b-best of me)
I'm still working on my masterpiece (I'm still working on my masterpiece)

Oooh, oooh (Yeeah)
Oooh, aaah (Hey)
Oooh, oooh (Still working on, still working on)
Oooh, aaah (Still working on my masterpiece)

Love Love Love

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It's GOOD FRIDAY!!!! And I really had a good one. :) #TGIF

A date out with GF today and omg it was hilarious. We laughed SO MUCH.

We were discussing about guys and kept singing 'Take Me To Church' every time we got too high HAHAHAHA!! SHO PUNI.

We went to Scape anded I got myself a bag! And she made me bought shoes LOL. But ok la, they're gonna be useful. Then had lunch at BK.

She and her selfies. ._.

We also got in an.. awkward situation ahem. ahem. But I'm kinda glad we got out of it.

Went all the way to Taka to surprise & meet <3

Hehehehe. Beau pretended not to see me ._. That bitchhhh.

But we eventually got to hug and chat for a while. :3 :3 :3

I MISS YOUUUUUUUU.

Hais regret going back too fast, if not can take train with you.

Went to Far East Plaza with GF to have dinner.

Bishhh ._.

We walked around some more till we got bored.

Dat face. ._.

We had inside jokes on how we were gonna be single for the day hehehe.

Anyways me and GF got really tired & sick and decided to bounce back home. (You're welcome.)

And now I think I'm gonna be sick hahaha. This girl la pass all her disease to me thank you very much ._.

Lubchuuuuu. Thank you for the meet-up. <3

Get rested okay! (Or laid) 

Hehe. I Kidz.

Love, Eran.

So much love. 

Current Song Mood: Of Monsters & Men - Love Love Love

Well, maybe I'm a crook for stealing your heart away
Yeah, maybe I'm a crook for not caring for it
Yeah, maybe I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad person
Well, baby, I know.

And these fingertips
Will never run through your skin
And those bright blue eyes
Can only meet mine across the room filled with people that are less important than you.

All 'cause you love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love you

So I think it's best we both forget before we dwell on it
The way you held me so tight
All through the night
'Til it was near morning

'Cause you love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love you

All 'cause you love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love
You love, love, love
When you know I can't love you

If You're Not The One

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I laid under the soft covers.

The rain pouring hard outside.

The warmth of your skin.
The steady breathing.
The quickened pulse.
And your smell.

I hugged tightly.

This is where I belong.

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Spent the day at my beau's after a countless delays.

*slaps that cheeky face*

>_>

Yes to new bedsheets?!!! Damn cute.

The weather was hot af but then it rained (like how it always did back in December) in the late afternoon and cuddles just became x10000000 better.

We went to Woodlands for dinner cause someone was craving for Ban Mian. Had to wait a while cause it was reallllyyyyy packed. So we did a lot of walking and window-shopping. But hey, we got what we wanted! :D

My very first Ban Mian hahaha I'm serious.

We also bumped into a lot of.. uhm. I would say, Insta people. HAHA. Cause I only know them from Insta??? And they're HOT in real-life. Hais.
.-.
And the countless of times I had to stop beau from overspending money. -_-
CAN YOU PLEASE SAVEEEE.
*smacks*
Hahaha.
I do that a lot.

It was a pretty smooth day.
*winkwink*

Today I realised a lot of things.

I felt a little bit.. guilty.

I know myself well.

And I know that following my heart is what I do best.

No matter how much I tell myself that I don't need you..

I know that that's a big lie.

You make a big difference in my life.

I need you very much.

You're my only one.

Love, Eran.

If you're not the one.. 
Then no one else is.
This song represents how I feel right now.

Current Song Mood: Daniel Bedingfield - If You're Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings 
But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away 
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

I Wont Mind

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AGAIN.

Fuck.

Everyone's getting on my nerves today.

Been getting disappointed over and over again the past week.

It's sooo FRUSTRATING to have plans cancelled at the last minute.

I totally rotted at home today feeling all messed up. Had to run to sweat out all my frustrations.

-_-

And you haaaaaaad to show me you were with Him.

Great.

I don't even care anymore.

Do what you want to do.

Happy F'ckin April Fools.

Love, Eran.

I won't mind…

But deep down I will.

Current Song Mood: Zayn Malik - I Won't Mind

Don't look around cause love is blind

And darling right now I can't see you

I’m feeling proud so without a doubt

I can feel you

Cause we are who we are when no one’s watching

And right from the start, you know I got you

Yeah you know I got you

I won’t mind

Even though I know you’ll never be mine

I won’t mind

Even though I know you’ll never be mine

We messed around until we found the one thing we said we could never ever live without

I’m not allowed to talk about it

But I gotta tell you

Cause we are who we are when no one’s watching

And right from the start, you know I got you

Yeah you know I got you

I won’t mind

Even though I know you’ll never be mine

I won’t mind

Even though I know you’ll never be mine