See You Again

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I walked out of the school, dark clouds were gathering. I walked alone, in fast, unsteady steps. My mind was in a daze. I started to feel drops of moisture on my skin. I looked up, it was starting to drizzle. And before I knew it, I arrived near my block. I walked all the way, and I didnt feel a thing. I was too consumed by this.. feeling.

I had walked through the route that we used to. But that chapter is over. Here's to a new one.

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So sleepy today but couldn't sleep in at all! ._.

Went down to RP today with B's parents for his graduation. 

Hahaha I became a nanny today cause his nephew kept running off. Into the carpark. ._. Dangerous kid ugh. I cannot with hyper kids!! I was so worn out hahaha.

Managed to snap a pic with him.

So proud of you. <3

You've come a long way.

After eating (free) food, I decided to leave cause I still need packing to do.

Leaving for Bali tomorrow morning. And it's my first independent trip! I'm so incredibly excited. Hope everything goes smooth and safely.

See you soon, Bali.

:)

Love, Eran.

I'll tell you all about it when I

See you again.

Wiz Khalifa Ft Charlie Puth - See You Again

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again

Damn, who knew?
All the planes we flew
Good things we've been through
That I'll be standing right here talking to you
'Bout another path
I know we loved to hit the road and laugh
But something told me that it wouldn't last
Had to switch up
Look at things different see the bigger picture
Those were the days
Hard work forever pays
Now I see you in a better place

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side
And now you gon' be with me for the last ride

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again (I see you again)
We've come a long way (yeah, we came a long way) from where we began (you know we started)
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again (let me tell you)
When I see you again

First you both go out your way
And the vibe is feeling strong
And what's small turn to a friendship
A friendship turn to a bond
And that bond will never be broken
And the love will never get lost (and the love will never get lost)
And when brotherhood come first
Then the line will never be crossed
Established it on our own
When that line had to be drawn
And that line is what we reach
So remember me when I'm gone (remember me when I'm gone)

How could we not talk about family when family's all that we got?
Everything I went through you were standing there by my side
And now you gon' be with me for the last ride

So let the light guide your way, yeah
Hold every memory as you go
And every road you take will always lead you home, home

It's been a long day without you, my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
When I see you again

When I see you again
When I see you again

Drowning

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Went to collect my graduation robe today. Invited Riri to accompany me <3

Because I thought someone would be occupied at home.. But apparently not.

Anyways caught up with Riri in the bus <3 Hehehe. And I made some stunning revelations. The dots were connected. BAM!

Swear we look so damn fabulous here. <3

Got to school and walked to Blk 27. It was soooo hot.

Met a lot of HS people queueing up!!! And surprisingly, we bumped into Mama and Nikki!! AHH!! HAHAHA. Such a coincidence. I didnt even know they were going!

After getting my robe, me and Riri headed to Blk 81 to collect my transcript. Otw there, we bumped into a couple of lecturers hahaha. 

First was our pinoy lecturer. I told her to walk real slowly hahaha cause I didnt wanna talk to him xD

I'm so bad LOL.

And next we bumped into the Director of our school. LOL!!! I quickly grabbed her arm and we walked fast hahahaa.

Such a funny moment. Got my transcript at last and went parted ways with Riri. Joined Mama, YX, Nab, Nas and Ifah at the busstop and headed for Al-Amin. 

:)

Had a lot of laughs with them hahahaha. Like makciks, so kecoooh & funny <3

We went to this Churros place nearby and there was a blackout. They didnt even on the fan for us?? Omg, and they didnt even take our orders. We decided to leave cause it was too much. Haha, but we did have a fun game of Heads-Up with them ;)

Lepak-ed at Macs. Thank God we didnt go to the railway station cause I was so lazyyy haha. Only YX and Mama got ice-cream cause the machine was spoiled/finished?? NUUUUU. :( Hahaha. We just sat there and made dubsmash vids.

Had a great time <3 Even though I was feeling so down.

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Of course I'm gonna be really upset.

It's been affecting me the whole day, even until now. Who won't when their partner is going out with their ex??? I mean call me crazy, but a normal person wouldn't be so accepting about it. I've been really understanding. But I'd also be lying if I said it didnt matter to me. IT DOES. Trust me, when I put it into words, it doesn't look good on your side. So I'll just stop here.

…

Love, Eran.

I'm drowning in my emotions.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Drowning

[Verse 1:]
You try to lie, I can see that you don't need me
Need me don't need me, need me don't need me
All of your words they've been cursed with dishonesty
(With dishonesty, with dishonesty)

[Pre-Chorus:]
Take it from the girl you claim to love your gonna get some bad karma
I'm the one who had to learn to build a heart made of armor
From the girl who made you soup and tied your shoes when you were hurting
You are not deserving you are not deserving

[Chorus:]
(Why would you stay?)
I can see that you wanted me cold
(Caught in the way)
Your so bold while your watching me moan

[Verse 2:]
You try to hide I can see that you don't see me
(That you don't see me, that you don't see)
What do you gain by the names that your calling me
(That your calling me, that your calling me)

[Pre-Chorus:]
Take it from the girl you claim to love your gonna get some bad karma
I'm the one who had to learn to build a heart made of armor
From the girl who made you soup and tied your shoes when you were hurting
You are not deserving you are not deserving

(Cause I'm drowning for ya)

[Chorus:]
(Why would you stay?)
I can see that you wanted me cold
(Caught in the way)
Your so bold while your watching me moan

[Bridge:]
Holding out, like you could pull me down,
Cause I'm drowning for ya
(Cause I'm drowning for ya)
Cause I'm drowning for ya

[Outro x2:]
Can you follow me out to the water,
I can show you were sinking deeper,
Let me know, cause I'm drowning for ya
Can you follow me out to the water,
I can show you were sinking deeper,
Let me know, cause I'm drowning for you

Bitch Better Have My Money

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Hahaha what a ratchet song.

Spent the usual Tuesday at Beau's and we totally chilled the whole day.

Bitch couldn't kept manhandling my hands. :(

It hurts la ooiii.

Watched a horror movie and we kept squirming in fear hahaha.

Had Indian food for dinner and while waiting for the food, we noticed that the poor guy was the only person working, so our food came reallyyyy late. Hahaha someone was being a bitch about it, but I was just understanding. I mean, I've been through work and handling stuff alone, so I was really sympathetic for the guy. In the end when he gave us our food, he gave an apologetic smile.

Him: 'Sorry ah brudder, I'm alone ah.'

Me: 'It's alright. :)'

It's the little things we do that matter.

Went downstairs to the money changer and changed our mahneeeeehs.

Oh gosh it was so dangerous cause we were carrying such a BIG amount HAHAHA.

And people were already eyeing us. 

Dangerrrr.

We quickly went back to beau's and counted our money. HAHAHA so funny, we started imitating bujang kapok.

'Satu untuk kau… dua untuk akuuuu.'

Translation: 'One for you… Two for meeee.'

Lmao.

Watched another movie for a while then beau sent me off. 

:)

It was a nice day together. I love the things we do.

I love having you.

<3

In other words…

Some things just don't deserve my attention lol.

Peace. 

xx

Love, Eran.

3 more days. <3

Current Song Mood: Rihanna - Bitch Better Have My Money

Yayo, yayo
Moo-la-lah
Yayo

Bitch better have my money!
Y'all should know me well enough
Bitch better have my money!
Please don't call me on my bluff
Pay me what you owe me
Ballin' bigger than LeBron
Bitch, give me your money
Who y'all think y'all frontin' on?
Like brrap, brrap, brrap

Louis XIII and it's all on me, nigga you just bought a shot
Kamikaze if you think that you gon' knock me off the top
Shit, your wife in the backseat of my brand new foreign car
Don't act like you forgot, I call the shots, shots, shots
Like brrap, brrap, brrap
Pay me what you owe me, don't act like you forgot

Bitch better have my money!
Bitch better have my money!
Pay me what you owe me
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my money!

Turn up to Rihanna while the whole club fuckin' wasted
Every time I drive by, I'm the only thing you're playin'
In a drop top, doin' hundred, y'all in my rearview mirror racin'
Where y'all at? Where y'all at? Where y'all at?
Like brrap, brrap, brrap

Louis XIII and it's all on me, nigga you just bought a shot
Kamikaze if you think that you gon' knock me off the top
Shit, your wife in the backseat of my brand new foreign car
Don't act like you forgot, I call the shots, shots, shots
Like brrap, brrap, brrap
Pay me what you owe me, don't act like you forgot

Bitch better have my money!
Bitch better have my money!
Pay me what you owe me
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my money!

Bitch better have my money!
Bitch better have my money!
Pay me what you owe me
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my (bitch better have my)
Bitch better have my money!

Bitch better have my money!
Bitch better have my money!
Bitch, bitch, bitch better have my money!
Yo, that bitch better have my money!
Hold up
My money!
Yo, my money!
That bitch better have my money!
Bitch better have my money!

Invincible

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Tick tock. Time is passing by so fast.

Kinda getting anxious already.

Worried yet excited about the future.

Will I get lost during my trip?

Will I look good on graduation?

Will I get a job soon?

Will I be able to release my Mixtape in time?

It's such a mystery.

...

That's the best thing right? Seeing how the story unfolds..

Life, you're exhausting.

I've been getting a lot of hate anonymously lately. For God knows what reason?? Hahaha. Seriously. But you know, I'd lie if I said that words don't affect me. There's some truth in them but it only motivates me to present the best of me.

How weird that people think they know me, that they have the right to tell me what to do with my life.

Haha. Well I've gotten this far. And I've been through so, so much. It would be stupid to throw away my dreams that I've been living for since I was a little boy just because some people aren't happy with me.

Well I'm not a scared a little boy anymore. I'm more than ready to face what's coming.

I kinda feel invincible.

Love, Eran.

The dots are slowly connecting.

Current Song Mood: Kelly Clarkson - Invincible

You know I was broke down, I had hit the ground
I was crying out, I couldn't make no sound
No one hears the silent tears collecting
You know I had lost hope, I was all alone
Never been so long till you came along
Teacher, I feel the dots connecting

Beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall
Cause I can take on so much more than I had ever dreamed
So beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall
Cause baby, I am ready to be free

Now I am invincible
No, I ain't a scared little girl no more
Yeah, I am invincible
What was I running for
I was hiding from the world
I was so afraid, I felt so unsure
Now I am invincible
Another perfect storm

Now I am a warrior, a shooting star
Know I got this far, had a broken heart
No one hears the silent tears collecting
Cause it's being weak, but strong in the truth I found
I have courage now, gonna shout it out
Teacher, I feel the dots connecting

Beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall
Cause I can take on so much more than I had ever dreamed
So beat down on me, beat down like a waterfall
Cause baby, I am ready to be free

Now I am invincible
No, I ain't a scared little girl no more
Yeah, I am invincible
What was I running for
I was hiding from the world
I was so afraid, I felt so unsure
Now I am invincible
Another perfect storm

I was running from an empty threat
Of emptiness
I was running from an empty threat
That didn't exist
I was running from an empty threat
Of abandonment
I was running from an empty threat
That didn't exist

Now I am invincible
No, I ain't a scared little girl no more
Yeah, I am invincible
What was I running for
I was hiding from the world
I was so afraid, I felt so unsure
Now I am invincible
Another perfect storm

Now I am invincible
No, I ain't a scared little girl no more
Yeah, I am invincible
What was I running for 
I was hiding from the world
I was so afraid, I felt so unsure
Now I am invincible
Another perfect storm

Take You High

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Reallyyyy happy today.

Well at first I wasn't because of Home. But once I got out, breathing in the fresh air, I felt free.

Met B and went to Jaybeee yeahhhhh.

Been 2 years since I've been there hahaha. The last time was… pretty memorable.

Well anyways, we got through the checkpoint and into City Square. Bought the movie tickets to Unfriended, then went around surveying barber shops cause someone wanted to get a 'graduation haircut'. *rolls eyes*

Wut. We eventually found one but then went somewhere to eat first! I wasn't gonna buy buuuuut. Oh wells temptations!

What happened after this was hilarious; He was holding the wrong side of the knife hahaha! Ended up smudging it with sauce. JOKE. He eventually got embarrassed and used the fork and spoon instead. :p

We still had a bit of time till the movie. So we walked to the next mall just beside. This ass started putting his hand in his bag and whispering to me 'I have a gun in my bag.' 

*Starts acting like a terrorist.*

Me: ……. ._. Ok.

I kennut.

Went window shopping and bought some snacks. Went back to the cinema afterwards, got our food and got to our seats. Oh.My.Gosh. It was so smelly (probably from the leftover food??). And there were litter everywhere. I kinda felt grossed out hahaha. And the people there were so noisy! Sheesh.

The movie was seriously Mehhh. Suspenseful maybe but it was mostly typings on the internet asking the unknown Skyper who the f she is. ._. Maaaan. 

Got out after it ended, washed up and headed for the salon. While B was getting the haircut, the people there were really nice. They offered me a seat, and they even gave me a cup of water to drink! Woah. Hahaha. It was my first time in such a salon, the service was excellent & professional. Though they tend to really perfect their craft.. and by that, I mean the cut took 1 hour. ._. My gosh. I was gonna fall asleep. Hahaha. But the result was great though! Will consider coming here next time :)

Went back home to the jam. Goshhh.

Got a throbbing headache now. Not sleeping in makes me feel like crap.

Ciao!

Love, Eran.

I'll take you.

Current Song Mood: Kelly Clarkson - Take You High

We don’t know where this is going now
But I’m feeling love for you
I’m feeling something new yeah yeah
We don’t know where this is going now
But don’t be afraid tonight
Don’t be afraid of heights, no

Let me open your heart wide
When your angels fall out of the sky
I’ll be the wings that make you fly
When you come down I’ll take you high
I’ll take you high
I’ll take you
I’ll take you

If I’m dreaming don’t roll over yet
Perfect like porcelain
This could be heaven sent, yeah
Kiss the wind and just hold on to me
'Cause in the free fall is when
We get to live again, yeah

Let me open your heart wide
When your angels fall out of the sky
I’ll be the wings that make you fly
When you come down I’ll take you high
I’ll take you high
I’ll take you
I’ll take you

When we feel down and we’re lost and we’re wasting away
Let’s escape
There’s a place deep in your heart where the trouble can’t go
That’s a heart
Yeah

I’ll take you
I’ll take you
I’ll take you

Love Someone

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KUKUBANDUNGS REUNITE!

Hehehe. Met up with these crazies today.

It's been months since I've met up with them!

Anjek was late as usual so it was me, Nadz and JY. #whatsnew

Hehehe. We went to find a seat and gossiped about the Anjek while she wasn't around. Also talked about strip clubs LOL.

We laughed so much!!! Hahaha till I had stomach cramps and tears came out. :')

Can't remember the last time I had a good laugh.

It went something like:

Nadz: Eh Gaya on soft diet. She say her teeth pain. She old already. She can drink Kimchi soup or not? Spicy leh.
Me and JY: Can la, she Indian what. HAHAHA *hi-5s*

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JY: I went to a strip club yesterday and I could see their buttcheeks.

Me: Pakciks?! What are pakciks doing at a club??

Nadz: Makciks?!

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JY: There were a lot of Thai Girls there.

Nadz: Huh. Tigers???

*picturing Tigers roaring in the club*

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HAHAHA. This JY uh!! Took us a while to understand xD Old already!

Hahahah then this JY decides to let us listen to club songs for some reason. Lucky we wore earpiece or everyone around us would judge. ._.

The Anjek finally came. Her 5 minutes ended up being 15 minutes hahaha.

She called me a paparazzi cause I kept snap chatting her HAHAHA.

#Anjek

Ordered our fooooood. And caught up with each other. :)

 

Forever burdens.

Heaven.

I kinda liked the milo flavour but the rest didnt xD

We were having ice-cream then Anjek suddenly puts a pea (from JY's dish) inside Nadz's bowl. HAHAHA. So Rude!

Took selfies after.

Dat face.

<3

On the way back, this Anjek decided to put something in my bag. Hahaha I caught her in the act, and Nadz burst out laughing, and her saliva got on my hand HAHAHA grosssss. I was literally digging my bag, and I found it; A Pea?!?!

HAHAHAH EWWWW. My reaction was epic. I quickly grabbed it and threw it at Anjek. 

So chaotic with them. x) We hugged and parted ways after.

Went home with Naaadz. So funny cause beside her this guy kept scratching himself and digging his nose. Hahaha what's with everyone today!

And thank you for the gift ah!! Hopefully can make me prettier hahaha.

It was nice to be surrounded by positive people who can make you smile & laugh. I needed this.

Love you Kukus. Till next time. 

<3

Love, Eran.

Spread love, not hate. xx

Current Song Mood: Jason Mraz - Love Someone

Love is a funny thing
Whenever I give it, it comes back to me
And it's wonderful to be
Giving with my whole heart
As my heart receives
Your love

Oh, ain't it nice tonight we've got each other
And I am right beside you
More than just a partner or a lover
I'm your friend

When you love someone
Your heartbeat beats so loud
When you love someone
Your feet can't feel the ground

Shining stars all seem
To congregate around your face
When you love someone
It comes back to you

And love is a funny thing
It's making my blood flow with energy
And it's like an awakened dream
As what I've been wishing for, is happening
And it's right on time

Oh ain't it nice this life, we've got each other
And I am right beside you
More than just a partner or a lover
I'm your friend

When you love someone
Your heartbeat beats so loud
When you love someone
Your feet can't feel the ground

Shining stars all seem
To congregate around your face
When you love someone
When you love someone

We're gonna give ourselves to love tonight
Lifting up to touch the starlight
And we will savor every second
We suspend together
You and I will
You and I will
You and I will

When you love someone
Your heartbeat beats so loud
When you love someone
Your feet can't feel the ground

Shining stars all seem
To congregate around your face
When you love someone
It comes back to you

Dead Inside

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Feeling dead inside.

I can see that you're perfectly okay without me.

Even though I offered my time to you today..

Oh wells. Got a lot of other stuff to focus on.

Went for prayers today and somebody touched my hair.

._.

I looked up and it was my cousin. HAHAHA. Fancy meeting him!

We had a nice chat. And he gave me lots of advices for my future.
Thanks man! :) 

In other news, it's finally MAY!!!!
So many things to look forward to this month.
My graduation trip. My next Mixtape release (new covers yey). And my Graduation.

I can't wait.

xx

Love, Eran.

Draw me to your holiness. Please.

Current Song Mood: Muse - Dead Inside

Dead inside!

Revere a million prayers
And draw me into your holiness
But there's nothing there
Light only shines from those who share

Unleash a million drones
And confine me then erase me babe
Do you have no soul
It's like it died long ago

Your lips feel warm to the touch
You can bring me back to life
On the outside you're ablaze and alive
But you're dead inside

You're free to touch the sky
Whilst I am crushed and pulverised
Because you need control
Now I'm the one who's letting go

You like to give an inch
Whilst I am giving infinity
But now I've got nothing left
You have no cares and I'm bereft

Your skin feels warm to caress
I see magic in your eyes
On the outside you're ablaze and alive
But you're dead inside!

Feel me now 
Hold me please
I need you to see who I am
Open up to me 
Stop hiding from me
It's hurting babe
Only you can stop the pain

Don't leave me out in the cold
Don't leave me out to die
I gave you everything
I can't give you anymore
Now I've become just like you

My lips feel warm to the touch
My words seem so alive
My skin is warm to caress
I'll control and hypnotise

You've taught me to lie
Without a trace
And to kill with no remorse
On the outside I'm the greatest guy
Now I'm dead inside!