I Miss You

Page 429

Sigh.

Guess you can't expect the unexpected.

Another week without meeting you again.

There's no one to blame.

It's not your fault.

Another long week to push through again..

I just..

Imissyou.

Love, Eran.

And I hope you miss me too

Current Song Mood: Adele - I Miss You

I want every single piece of you
I want your heaven and your oceans too
Treat me soft but touch me cruel
I wanna teach you things you never knew, ooh baby
Bring the floor up to my knees
Let me fall into your gravity
And kiss me back to life to see
Your body standing over me

Baby don't let the lights go down
Baby don't let the lights go down
Baby don't let the lights go down
Lights go down, lights go down
Lights go down, lights go down
Down, down, down

I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light
I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light

I love the way your body moves
Towards me from across the room
Brushing past my every groove
No one has me like you do
Baby you bring your heart, I'll bring my soul
But be delicate with my ego
I wanna step into your great unknown
With you and me setting the tone

Baby don't let the lights go down
Baby don't let the lights go down
Baby don't let the lights go down
Lights go down, lights go down
Lights go down, lights go down
Down, down, down

I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light
I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light

We play so dirty in the dark
Cause we are living worlds apart
It only makes it harder baby
It only makes it harder baby
Harder baby, harder baby

I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light
I miss you when the lights go out
It illuminates all of my doubts
Pull me in, hold me tight
Don't let go, baby give me light

I miss you, I miss you
I miss you, I miss you
I miss you, I miss you
I miss you, I miss you

The Feeling

Page 428

It's been quite a Saturday.

Spent the day sleeping in, rolling in bed, dragging myself out, recording a couple of covers, and attending another hiphop event with Buddy.

So much local talent. It was pretty hype as usually. But I was too tired at the end hahaha.

Guess I spent my Saturday well.

I'm glad that you seem to be chatting more now. I guess you were just too busy the other day. Looking forward to our meet-up.

:)

I don't know what I'm feeling right now.

Am I in love? Or am I in love with the feeling...?

Maybe I'll find out soon.

Love, Eran.

Sometimes the heart is deceiving.

Current Song Mood: Justin Bieber Ft Halsey - The Feeling

[Justin Bieber:]
You are to me
A part of me just like anatomy
You're pulling me
You're pulling me in like you're gravity

I'm notorious for thinking you're full of beautiful
Instead of hollow
Sugar on your lips, it's hard to kill
Jagged like a pill, so hard to swallow

[Justin Bieber & Halsey:]
Am I in love with you? Am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?
Trying to find the truth, trying to find the truth
Sometimes the heart is deceiving
Can't get out of my head, and I need you to save me
If I am delusional then maybe I'm crazy
In love with you, am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?

[Justin Bieber:]
You give to me
Everything, anything that I could dream
And at least that's what it seems
Could it be I don't know what's good for me?

I'm notorious for thinking you're full of beautiful
Instead of hollow
Sugar on your lips, it's hard to kill
Jagged like a pill, so hard to swallow

[Justin Bieber & Halsey:]
Am I in love with you? Am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?
Trying to find the truth, trying to find the truth
Sometimes the heart is deceiving
Can't get out of my head, and I need you to save me
If I am delusional then maybe I'm crazy
In love with you, am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?

[Justin Bieber:]
I'm sinking faster and faster
Between heaven and disaster
Sorry if I made you feel like
I'm standing on the borderline

[Justin Bieber & Halsey:]
Am I in love with you? Am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?
Trying to find the truth, trying to find the truth
Sometimes the heart is deceiving
Can't get out of my head, and I need you to save me
If I am delusional then maybe I'm crazy
In love with you, am I in love with you?
Or am I in love with the feeling?

Gasoline

Page 427

Don't know what's been running through my head lately.

This week was full of emotions for me.

And very, very tiring.

I've never laughed so hard. I've never smiled so wide.

Maybe there was a little bit of anger. And a little bit of sadness.

A hint of jealousy.

My emotions were all over the place.

Cant help but feel a little overpowered.

A little overshadowed.

That's just me.

I'm deranged.

I need something to keep me going.

To fuel me.

Like gasoline.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Halsey - Gasoline

Are you insane like me? Been in pain like me?
Bought a hundred dollar bottle of champagne like me?
Just to pour that motherfucker down the drain like me?
Would you use your water bill to dry the stain like me?

Are you high enough without the Mary Jane like me?
Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?
Do the people whisper 'bout you on the train like me?
Saying that you shouldn't waste your pretty face like me?

And all the people say,

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream,
You're part of a machine, you are not a human being,
With your face all made up, living on a screen,
Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline."

Oh, oh, oh, oh,
I think there's a flaw in my code,
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
These voices won't leave me alone,

Well my heart is golden, my hands are cold,

Are you deranged like me? Are you strange like me?
Lighting matches just to swallow up the flame like me?
Do you call yourself a fucking hurricane like me?
Pointing fingers cause you'll never take the blame like me?

And all the people say,

"You can't wake up, this is not a dream,
You're part of a machine, you are not a human being,
With your face all made up, living on a screen,
Low on self esteem, so you run on gasoline."

Oh, oh, oh, oh,
I think there's a flaw in my code,
Oh, oh, oh, oh,
These voices won't leave me alone,

Well my heart is golden, my hands are cold.

Counterfeit

Page 426

I've been alone for far too long to get so affected by this.

By you.

Gotta remember..

Independence.

That's how I've been surviving on my own the past 3 months.

I dont know what else to say.

I mean, you made my birthday feel special to me.

And it doesnt feel right that.. today, I cant do anything for you.

The pain.. it doesnt stop. But I've grown immune to it.

Today, we're basically strangers. You've moved on.

I know I have too.
I'm trying.
I've changed.
You have no idea.
I'm no longer that little boy you used to know.
I've grown.

I dont know about you though.
I hope that as you grow older, you've learnt & grown as well.

Time is passing by fast over here.
Being here.. going through every shit..
It's made me feel human again.
Everything else no longer feels counterfeit.

Love, Eran.

It feels counterfeit, without you here.

https://katelauramcgill.bandcamp.com/

Current Song Mood: Kate McGill - Counterfeit

You told me you were going 

That November knowing 

We didn't feel time 

It didn't even align 

There's something in the glowing 

That helped us keep it going 

When the time came 

There was no one to blame 

But since you left I feel sadness never gone away 

Six months to live my life in such a different way 

This feels counterfeit 

Without you in it 

Is there something in a cloud to give a reason 

Why I think about you every time I see the sun? 

This feels counterfeit 

Without you in it 

With you over the ocean 

I feel every emotion 

I'm so happy when you're coming to life 

But I can't control my fears 

As November nears 

Will it be the same? 

Will it be the same? 

'Cause since you left I feel sadness never gone away 

Six months to live my life in such a different way 

This feels counterfeit 

Without you in it 

Is there something in a cloud to give a reason 

Why I think about you every time I see the sun? 

This feels counterfeit 

Without you in it

credits

What Do You Mean

Page 425

It seems like you're doing doing it on purpose.

Replying late? Ignoring me? Blue tick?!

Really now?

I really wanna ask but I can't be bothered.

Honestly, I don't know what crosses your mind.

Do you think of me?

If not.

What do you mean?

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Justin Bieber - What Do You Mean

What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
When you nod your head yes
But you wanna say no
What do you mean?
Hey yeah
When you don't want me to move
But you tell me to go
What do you mean?
Ohh
What do you mean?
Said we're running out of time
What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
What do you mean?
Better make up your mind
What do you mean?

You're so indecisive of what I'm saying
Trying to catch the beat, make up your heart
Don't know if you're happy or complaining
Don't want for us to end
Where do I start
First you wanna go to the left and you want to turn right
Wanna argue all day, make love all night
First you up then you're down and then between
Ohh I really want to know...

What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
When you nod your head yes
But you wanna say no
What do you mean?
Hey yeah
When you don't want me to move
But you tell me to go
What do you mean?
Ohh
What do you mean?
Said we're running out of time
What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
What do you mean?
Better make up your mind
What do you mean?

You're overprotective when I'm leaving
Trying to compromise but I can't win
You wanna make a point but you keep preaching
You had me from the start, won't let this end
First you wanna go to the left then you want to turn right
Wanna argue all day, make love all night
First you're up then you're down and then between
Ohh I really wanna know...

What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
When you nod your head yes
But you wanna say no
What do you mean?
Hey yeah
When you don't want me to move
But you tell me to go
What do you mean?

I want to know...
Oh
What do you mean?
Ohhh
Said we're running out of time
What do you mean?
(Oh baby)
Ohh ohh ohh
What do you mean?
Better make up your mind
What do you mean?
Ohh ohh ohh
(This is ours baby, yeah)
When you nod your head yes
But you wanna say no
What do you mean?
(You're so confusing baby)
Hey yeah
When you don't want me to move
But you tell me to go
What do you mean?
(Be more straight forward)
Ohh
What do you mean?
(Give it back back back)
Said we're running out of time
What do you mean?
(Give it back back back)
Ohh ohh ohh
What do you mean?
Better make up your mind
What do you mean?

Hotline Bling

Page 424

Well.

I know you've been busy..

But I can't help feeling neglected and all.

At least reply my messages when you see it.

Me being silent doesn't mean I'm okay with it.

It's only common courtesy...

Meh it's okay.

Thought of saving my weekends for you but I guess I'll use it for rest & body recovery instead.

So shagged nowadays.

I'm used to spending time on my own anyways.

Well you know where to get me if you need me.

Make my hotline bling.

Love, Eran.

You don't need nobody else but me.

Current Song Mood: Drake - Hotline Bling

You used to call me on my
You used to, you used to
Yeah

You used to call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
Call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
And I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing
I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing

Ever since I left the city,
You got a reputation for yourself now
Everybody knows and I feel left out
Girl you got me down, you got me stressed out
'Cause ever since I left the city,
you started wearing less and goin' out more
Glasses of champagne out on the dance floor
Hangin' with some girls I've never seen before

You used to call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
Call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing
I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing

Ever since I left the city, you, you, you
You and me we just don't get along
You make me feel like I did you wrong
Going places where you don't belong
Ever since I left the city,
you, you got exactly what you asked for
Running out of pages in your passport
Hanging with some girls I've never seen before

You used to call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
Call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
And I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing
I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing

These days, all I do is
Wonder if you bendin' over backwards for someone else
Wonder if you're rollin' up a backwoods for someone else
Doing things I taught you, gettin' nasty for someone else
You don't need no one else
You don't need nobody else, no
Why you never alone
Why you always touching road
Used to always stay at home, be a good girl
You was in a zone, yeah
You should just be yourself
Right now, you're someone else

You used to call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
Call me on my cell phone
Late night when you need my love
And I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing
I know when that hotline bling
That can only mean one thing

Ever since I left the city

Waitin For You

Page 423

Thinking back about all the things you've said.

And how it's all just empty words now.

The lies you must've told your friends.

The problems that you run from.

I guess I was one of them.

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Don't know why but I just feel full of attitude lately. 

Hormones? Ego? Meh.

I guess I'm just tired.

I don't need someone to point out my flaws.

I already know them.

But if there's a need to be verbal about it, then say it to my face.

Come if you want.

I'll be waitin' for ya.

Love, Eran.

You can run all you want, but I know just what you've done.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Waitin' For You

You said that you'd never hurt me
Be the band-aid when I bleed
But I guess that that band-aid was all made of paper
Cause you never stuck to me
And you say that you conquered the lion
Without even tryin'
But she only gets stronger
She only bites harder and I only die fighting

You can run, you can run
But you know that I know just what you've done
You can run, you can run
But save those words for one on one

So when the lights go down
And the sun hits ground
You should know that I won't back down (I'll be waitin' for you)
Knuckles out
And a guard in my mouth
When you're hungry for the next round (I'll be waitin' for you)
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh
Mmm

Yeah, I don't take things too personal
But you made shit personal
Talkin' 'bout my bad habits
Man, fuck my bad habits
Don't act like you got none

You can run, you can run
But you know that I know just what you've done
You can run, you can run
But save those words for one on one

So when the lights go down
And the sun hits ground
You should know that I won't back down (I'll be waitin' for you)
Knuckles out
And a guard in my mouth
When you're hungry for the next round (I'll be waitin' for you)
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh
Mmm

[Sirah:]
You got my name in your mouth, forgive me when I knock it out
I love it when you talk about me just cause you don't know yourself
My jabs go-go for broke, your teeth is on the floor
Thirty million people watchin', do you still want more?
Fake bitches, gon' get it, I am winnin' but you isn't
Call your dentist cause I meant this, I don't see no competition
Goin' wild, Mikey Tyson, born a fighter, I will triumph
Bitch I thought you knew I was comin' for your title

So when the lights go down
And the sun hits ground
You should know that I won't back down (I'll be waitin' for you)
Knuckles out
And a guard in my mouth
When you're hungry for the next round (I'll be waitin' for you)
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin', I'll be waitin' for you
Oh-oh, oh-oh-ooh, I'll be waitin' for you