You're Mine

Page 42

It's been such, such an incredible day. Started off my day being really late for class (LOLOL). ._. Post b-day syndrome laa. My lecturer was like; 'So how last night? Drink too much ah?' Hahahaha.

Bijpls. Found out that I did well for prac test. Yay me! After class, we went to co-op to do our assignment. But I ended up watching The Walking Dead with my classmates HAHA. Dayuum Michonne! The feeeeels. GF suddenly came up from behind and hugged me HAHAHA OMG. So sweet laa :) Also had a lot of belated wishes on the way :)

After that I had a pizza party with my classmates!! *-* Bye bye to my diet plans hahahaa!

OMNOMNOMNOM

Selfie along the way. So sickening this girl!!!

Hahaha. After that, had lessons all the way until 4. After tutorial class my classmates surprised me with a gift hahaha! Ida took a video but FAILED LOL. THEN WE RE-TOOK THE WHOLE SCENE AND I HAD TO ACT SURPRISED. ._.

Hehehe love them so much! I was honestly surprised!!!

 After class I went to logi room to slack with Ida. Then YX, Nex, Bern, Farah & Dan came in. Hahaha I smelled something fishy because they wouldn't look me in the eye. :P And Dan and Ida kept whispering & hinting something to each other hahaha. So cute. I'm not dumb okay!! x)

True enough, while playing hilarious rounds of Fun Run with them, Lily & Prem came in with boxes of Donuts & a birthday card! Hehe.

Ps. COOLEST CARD EVER.

Thank you guys so much for the surprises, gifts and love. I can't express how much I appreciate it. <3 I haven't felt so happy since… well. Since November. I feel so blessed and I really REALLY appreciate you all in my life <3
:')

Love, Eran.

I feel empowered and stronger now with all this positivity.

Current Song Mood: Lea Michele - You're Mine

You were insecure but I was so sure
But I wanted you
Yes I'm powerful, and a little girl
But I wanted you
So I told you so, wanted you to know
We've just one life to live

And I told you all my dreams and fears
And you looked at me and your eyes filled with tears
And you said those three words I'd been waiting for
You became a part of me, yeah

You're mine, for life
And I'll be by your side
We are entwined
You're mine, for life,
Hold me until we die,
I'm yours and you are mine

I'm yours (I'm yours, I'm yours)
You're mine (You're mine, you're mine)
I'm yours (I'm yours, I'm yours)
You're mine (You're mine, you're mine)
Now I'm so happy you found a place for me
Boy you wanted me
Some security and two heartbeats
Boy you wanted me
Then you told me so, wanted me to know
You let the past go

And I told you all my dreams and fears
And you looked at me and your eyes filled with tears
And you said those three words I'd been waiting for
You became a part of me, yeah

You're mine, for life
And I'll be by your side
We are entwined
You're mine, for life,
Hold me until we die,
I'm yours and you are mine

I'm yours (I'm yours, I'm yours)
You're mine (You're mine, you're mine)
I'm yours (I'm yours, I'm yours)
You're mine (You're mine, you're mine)

I'm yours, you're mine,
I'm yours, you're mine

Back2TheBeginningAgain

Page 41 (CHAPTER 3)

Today has been such a blessing. Thank you to those that has wished me and even those that sent me audio notes of 'Happy Birthday' HAHA. You don't know how happy that makes me :)) 

To my classmates for the 'surprise cake' at the lecture, THANK YOU. SO EMBARRASSING YOU KNOW ._. HAHAHA.

To GF for the late birthday wish, sweet message, and sexy birthday song ._. IHY FOR MAKING ME WAIT BUT ILY SO MUCH NOW <3

To my cousin for the sweet birthday gift and note <3 <3

To my parents for buying me a cake. :))

Its been an amazing day. THANK YOU EVERYONE!! :))

#BirthdaySelfies

I made 2 covers in the morning and posted them on Youtube. Back2thebeginningagain and Thinking Out Loud. Planning to post covers every Monday, if God's willing. :) Feel free to check them out. :)) -> https://www.youtube.com/user/eranistheone

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Back2TheBeginningAgain

It took me 22 years to trust myself
Too many people told me to be somebody else
They said there's two things you gotta do to succeed
One, forget about you, and listen to me

But on the 20th day of December this year,
What I needed to do became ever clear
I got drunk in a crowd and I fell asleep
When I woke up, I knew who I needed to be

Took off my shoes and my socks and I ran through the snow
To the center of town I left long ago
Frost bite on my ankles and I don't care
Got some shit on my mind that I wanna share

I'm riding around, stomping the ground
Riding around, stomping the ground
I know where I'm going cause I know where I've been

I've been riding around this small town
Riding around this small town
I don't know where I'm going
Back to the beginning again

Take it to the strip club
Make a "YOLO" pop song
Do whatever I say
Industry, get along

You should make another song
You should make a Katy song
You should put your titties out
Then I'll put your record out

Then I'll put your record out...

I'm Not Angry Anymore // Future

Page 40

Happy Birthday to my Dad <3 Had a pizza party today! Nomnomnomzz. Me and Dad's birthday are one day apart from each other. Must have been cool huh? To have me right after his birthday :) Wonder how he felt at that time..

It's the last day of me being 18. And I have to say.. I'm so afraid of growing older. Like, where did my childhood go… Wish I could have held on to it a little longer. Well now that I'm getting older.. I wish I looked more matured though LOL. ._.

I will always remember the words of Heidi's Mum: 'It's okay to look young. You never want to grow up too fast.' :) So sweet.

18 has been such an important milestone for me. The age where I braved myself to try out things I never thought I would have. The age where I got to travel to lots of places on my own, and made a bond with new friends that I hold so dearly in my heart. The age where I finally overcame my fear of singing in front of people.. and expressing myself. The age where I experienced all kinds of feelings. Happiness, Fear, Love, Lust, Heartbreak, Sadness. Even feelings I've never felt before. It has been such a transcendent journey. Looking back and appreciating where I am right now. The people I surround myself with. The opportunities I have been given. I believe everything has happened for a reason. It's been so memorable and I'm looking forward to the years to come. :) 

Here are some random selfies lol:

Back when I was.. really happy.

 I miss this jacket. Lol.

Oh, & meet my bunny. ._. He also wants a cameo lolol.

Leaving the past behind and venturing into the future. I just hope to be more matured and professional in handling my emotions. And also to be a more positive person. :)

So, here it is. Just a few hours more. Might release something special tomorrow. xx

LOVE, Eran. <3

Hey.. I… I'm not angry anymore.

Current Song Mood #1: Paramore - I'm Not Angry Anymore

I'm not angry anymore
Well, sometimes I am
I don't think badly of you
Well, sometimes I do

It depends on the day, 
The extent of all my worthless rage
I'm not angry anymore

I'm not bitter anymore
I'm syrupy sweet
I'll rot your teeth down to their core
If I'm really happy

Depends on the day, if I wake up in a giddy haze
Well I'm not angry
I'm not totally angry
I'm not all that angry anymore

Current Song Mood #2: Paramore - Future

Im writin' the future, Im writin' it out loud

We don't talk about the past

We don't talk about the past, now

So Im writin' the future, I'm leavin' a key, here

Something won't always be missing

You won't always feel emptier

Just think of the future and think of your dreams

You'll get away from here, you'll get away eventually

So just think of the future, think of a new life

And don't get lost in the memories

Keep your eyes on a new prize

Keep Forgetting To Forget About You

Page 39

Woke up with a fever today hais. I'm always sick near my special day. Popped 2 pills and it got better when I woke up again. 

Went to West Gate & JEM with my cousin, Fanna today! She gave me my advanced birthday gift and a card hehehe. Can't wait to open it on my birthday :) Hehe. We walked around and bought drinks from Starbucks. The cashier was SO. CUTE. LOL. Awkward moments and he kept saying sorry to me x) Haha. I understand how he feels because I worked in an FnB restaurant before :) So got my drink and I totallyyyyy regretted it because it was coffee and I don't drink that na uh. ._. At least it was hot though because I was having a sore throat :(

Anyways walked around with Fanna and window shopped which was totally a bad idea because I bought another shirt AGAIN. Sooo tempting I swear I need to stop .-. Okayyy. No more shopping this month! After that we went to Sembawang (haven't been there in a while) and had dinner at KFC. Feels good to let some things out. :) Looking forward to our next meet-up <3

Love, Eran.

It's hard not to think about you. About what we used to have.

Current Song Mood: Keep Forgetting To Forget About You

Na, Na, Noo
Mmmm
Yeah, Yeah

Thinking back when we got together
And in our hearts we were saying forever
So in love, boy we were so in love, mmm
Jealousy wasn't what we wanted, we broke up
You looked into my eyes I should of spoke up
And held you near, now I'm alone
And here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

I'd be crazy to say that we were perfect
And sometimes I was wondered if it was worth it
But now I see, how good you were for me
And everytime I drive by your apartment
I get this overwhelming urge to walk in
And see your face and to be in that place all over again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
All the things we did and the way that we touched
Just when I think about someone new
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

The way we laughed, the way we kissed
I never thought that I would miss
All the things I used to complain about you
The football games, the hometown friends
I was glad to see it end
But tell me why I feel so lost without you?
Ooo oh, Oooh, Yeah,
Here it comes again

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
And I don't want to think about you baby so much
(I don't want to think about you baby so much)
All the things we did and the way that we touched (we touched)
Just when I think about someone new (new)
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)

Cause I remember every word that you said
It all just keeps spinning and running in my head (head)
But it don't matter what I try to do
I keep on forgetting to forget about you
(I keep on forgetting to forget about you)
Forget about you, forget about
Watch me turn around keep forgetting to forget about you
Forget about me and you

Noo, Oh,
Yeah,
Forget about you

When You Let Me Go

Page 38

Went to school today but I ended up skipping ALL my classes LOL. Sucha badass eh but yeah, I was really lazy and my friends weren't going either ._. Oh wells. Met up with Mr J. at Makan Place alone because Dan just woke up and was still at home >_> RAWR. Anyways, had a nice chat with J. and we talked about lots of stuffs. He has such an stressful life juggling it with all the sh-t he faces at work. Woah. Much respect to him!

After meeting him, ended up lepaking at co-op with Ida before having a meeting with Dan. Really pumped about the camp because finally things are starting to progress! After the meeting, went to SATA @ Jurong to meet Syah and collect my blood results. Yeah that place again but whatever, didn't let it affect me this time. Luckily my blood results was alright and everything went smoothly! Poor Syah had to get another vaccination. :( The school better compensate all the money its costing us! Sheesh.

Afterwards, went to West Gate & JEM with Syah and Ecah for the first time and got myself a new outfit! It was funny because I only intended to 'try' it on but I ended up buying it HAHA. There goes my $$$ hais. Can't wait to wear it on my special day *winks* hehe. Went around the shopping mall then went to this kaya bread stall where I got my kaya balls ._. Yumz. Then we had a chat and it somehow lead them to asking about my life and I swear I love them so much. For being understanding and open-minded. Love you guys. :')

That's all for today. Shout-out to Ginette Claudette for following me on Twitter *-* This weekend is gonna be a good one. xx

Love, Eran.

When you let me go, it brought me nothing but sadness. But now that sadness has turned into a newfound purpose. A new kind of strength.

Current Song Mood: Ginette Claudette - When You Let Me Go

(Verse) 

Your carefree attitude has got me worried for myself 

I don't remember when it was but obviously I fell 

I've gotten way too comfortable now 

Don't know if I could do it without your love 

Your daily kiss 

Oh no 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

(Verse) 

I feel it in your movements when we're laying down asleep

The warmth I used to feel inside your touch 

So obsolete

You say "I love you" 

But in your eyes 

It's one of many other white lies 

I believed from you 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

(Yeah) 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

(Verse) 

Watching the sky go dark 

I've witnessed us lose our spark 

I've tried but the same old show 

Reruns,goes on and on 

Your carefree attitude has gone me worried for myself 

I can't remember when it was but obviously I fell 

In love with you 

(Chorus) 

Why is it always gotta be me left alone 

(Heyy) 

Tell me why I'm always the last one to know 

And if it's time again I'd rather 

You just break it to me 

Gently,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

Break it to me,Break it to me,Gently 

When you let me go 

Go 

Go 

Go 

Go

Fix A Heart

Page 37

Finally! A week of presentations and practicals is almost over. Left with tons of ASSignments though… Also really stressed up over my camp which i'm in charge of at the end of the month. Sigh please let things run smoothly… In the meantime, I'm gonna do pushups and crunches everyday hehe. Gotta start somewhere to lose these fatties. Sheesh. :)

Oh and to that fellow who stomped my friends: Get a life and do something meaningful. Spread love not hate. xx

Love, Eran. 

You know.. I tried. I tried my best. I waited. But I couldn't wait any longer so.. I stopped waiting. I ended up with wounds to bind. And now you can't fix my heart.

Current Song Mood: Demi Lovato - Fix A Heart

It's probably what's best for you

I only want the best for you

and if I'm not the best

then you're stuck

I tried to sever ties

and I ended up with wounds to bind

its like you're pouring salt in my cuts

And I just ran out of bandaids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

Even though i know what's wrong

how could I be so sure

if you never say what you feel, feel

I must have held your hand so tight

you didn't have the will to fight

I guess you needed more time to heal

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

ohhh ohhh...

ohhh ooooh

oooh ooooh yeah ( x2)

You must be a miracle worker

swearing up and down you can fix

what's been broken yeah

please don't get my hopes up no no

baby tell me how could you be so cruel

It's like you're pouring salt on my cuts

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

Baby I just ran out of band aids

I don't even know where to start

cause you can bandage the damage

you never really can fix a heart

oh no no no

you never really can fix a heart

oh no no noo

you never really can fix a heart

oh hoo ohhh

oh hoo yeah ohhh ohh ho oh oh oh

You never really can fix my heart

Can't Remember To Forget You

Page 36

Happy 15th birthday to my lil bro! Sad that my family didn't buy any cake for him but well we'll make it up over the weekends. Since dad and mine's birthday are coming and are just one day apart lol. Speaking of which.. I can't believe I'm growing older soon. Sigh. It scares the shit out of me man. It's like… my youth is ticking. And I just want to make it last. Make it count. I don't know if I should look forward or not. But I'll have to face it anyway… I wanna be 18 forever. I wish haha.. I wish…

It's been a stressful week of practical, assignments and presentations. I want this week to be over soooooon. And for those that has been checking up on my blog, I appreciate it so much. :) <3

Love, Eran.

It still hurts. But it's hurting lesser and lesser each day. I can't seem to remember to forget you.

Current Song Mood: Shakira Ft Rihanna - Can't Remember To Forget You

[Shakira]
I left a note on my bedpost
Said not to repeat
Yesterday's mistakes
What I tend to do
When it comes to you
I see only the good
Selective memory
The way he makes me feel, yeah
Gotta hold on me
I've never met someone so different

Oh here we go
He a part of me now
He a part of me
So where you go I follow, follow, follow

Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

I can't remember to forget you

[Rihanna]
I go back again
Fall off the train
Land in his bed
Repeat yesterday's mistakes
What I'm trying to say is not to forget
You see only the good, selective memory

The way he makes me feel like
The way he makes me feel
I never seemed to act so stupid
Oh here we go
He a part of me now
He a part of me
So where he goes I follow

[Chorus]
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

I rob and I kill to keep him with me
I do anything for that boy
I'd give my last dime to hold him tonight
I do anything for that boy

I rob and I kill to keep him with me
I do anything for that boy
I'd give my last dime to hold him tonight
I do anything for that boy

Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I keep forgetting I should let you go
But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you

But when you look at me
The only memory is us kissing in the moonlight
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
Oh, oh, oooh, oh
I can't remember to forget you