U

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Didnt blog yesterday because I was too tired. Had such an annoying day ugh. Lucky I had my kakaks to let it out to. Cause they were going through the same shit as I was. Haha.

Oo I also got a new cut yesterday! Decided to chop all my annoying curls. 

But I kinda miss it. It was pretty.

Today… :)

Went down to Malay Heritage Centre to support Rentak Budaya cause ya know… #MalayPride

*rolls eyes*

Okay I'm not a fan of the Malay Culture. Haha. Never was and never will be. Me = Post-modern Malay? Haha. Ni la budak Melayu lupa asal usulnya.

._.

Kudos to the Malay Dancers because there were brilliant! :) On point. And the Milo air batu was splendid, especially in the blazing weather. Lick slurp sucks sluuuurp.

In other words...

The weather was so hot and there were so many people and I was getting anxious as usual and being anti-social to everyone around me and I was carrying a bouquet of roses and getting judged by everyone who was staring at me and I was insecure about my short hair and I bumped into the people who I DIDNT want to meet. Ohhh the things I do for love.

'Dont post this cause I look like a drag queen.' Lmao.

But it was worth it I guess.

For you.

Love, Eran.

Need to get used to this.

Current Song Mood: Mikky Ekko - U

Well, well, well, well
Look at you, you, you, you

You tell me all the things you wanna do
Baby it's your body, let it choose
To love, love, love, to love

Still remember the first time that I saw your face
It was not love at first sight
The only reason I tell you that now
Is cause everything feels so right
With you lyin' next to me
And tellin' me your fantasies
Yeah everywhere we go it's so
So easy

You tell me all the things you wanna do
Baby it's your body, let it chooseIt's a long long road to love
Show me, what it means to take it slowly
Friendship into love takes growingIt's a long long road to love

Now you got me swimmin' in your ocean
And in your eyes I see devotion
And in my eyes you see a man hopin'
That you're not leavin' 'til the mornin'
So baby stay with me a little while longer
And know I beg, I plead to see you smile
No hesitatin', never keep you waitin'
But I will always take my time with...

You tell me all the things you wanna do
Baby it's your body, let it choose
It's a long long road to love
Show me, what it means to take it slowly
Friendship into love takes growingIt's a long long road to love

Leads back to you
Give it all, give it all, give it all, for you
Give it all, give it all, give it all, for you
You're the only one I live for, try for
Weep for, die for, you know I'd give it all for

You tell me all the things you wanna do
Baby it's your body, let it chooseIt's a long long road to love
Show me, what it means to take it slowly
Friendship into love takes growingIt's a long long road to love

Leads back to you

Smile

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*'Comatose' on replay*

Sigh.

We're so busy nowadays.

But we understand our schedules.

I'm busy with work, and you're busy with your dance.

It's fine...

But I think I saw something that made me.. doubtful.

I dont wanna think about it.

I dont wanna ask. 

I'm scared.

Because I know what it'll lead to.

So I'll just keep it to myself..

I don't wish to let my emotions control me.

But it's gonna kill me inside.

I hope you let me in.

Cause you already are.

:)

Love, Eran.

Just force a smile, Syah.

Current Song Mood: Mikky Ekko - Smile

Smile, the worst is yet to come
We'll be lucky if we ever see the sun
Got nowhere to go, we could be here for a while
But the future is forgiven, so smile

We're trying so hard to get it all right
But only feel lonely at the end of the night
And I wanna be somewhere away from this place
Yeah, somewhere just a little closer to grace

I'll smile, the worst is yet to come
We'll be lucky if we ever see the sun
Got nowhere to go, we could be here for a while
But the future is forgiven, so smile
Smile

Well, call me loser, call me thief
Tell me I'm special when you spit at me
'Cause I don't wanna be lonely, I wanna be loved
And I want you to hold me like I'm the only one
I'll smile, the worst is yet to come
We'll be lucky if we ever see the sun
Got nowhere to go, we could be here for a while
But the future is forgiven, so smile
Smile

And time will eventually knock on my door
And tell me I'm not needed around anymore
But he'll hold me so close at the end of the day
When I'm quiet I can nearly hear him say
Smile, the worst is yet to come
We'll be lucky if we ever see the sun
Got nowhere to turn, and we've got nothing but time
But the future is forever, the future is forever, so smile, so smile, so smile

Smile, the worst is yet to come
We'll be lucky if we ever see the sun

Love You Crazy

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I have a throbbing headache.

Ugh.

Work sucks.

But the end is nearing.

Exactly 1 more month.. and I'll be free.

Just holding on a lil bit longer.

I get worked up when I'm emotional.

I tend to overreact..

But that's because, I love you.

I love you like crazy.

Love, Eran.

Love you crazy.

Current Song Mood: Mikky Ekko - Love You Crazy

Love you crazy
Love you crazy

Everybody's sayin' seize the day
All I hear when they say seize the day is your name
So alone with the love so tragic
One taste, I'm a full blown addict
Now I keep comin' back, gotta have it
Gotta have it, gotta have it
In jail or devil or neither
And you got me sweatin', that fever
And when the heat is gone you make me a believer

Love you crazy
Love you crazy
Love you crazy
Love you crazy

Everybody's sayin' seize the day
Your love is a little bit crazy, my love is a little bit crazy
Cause everything that we could feel, we feel insanely

Love you crazy
Love you crazy
Love you crazy
Love you crazy...

Coming Up For Air

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Time passes too fast sometimes.

Especially when you know you've spent it well.

Just wished I had more time.

There goes my off day, and I'm back to work tomorrow.

I always look forward to spending time with you.

It's like.. a reward for myself.

Something to look forward to every time I'm off duty.

:)

I can always count on you to take my worries away.

It's like.. coming up for air.

From swimming in a deep sea of blue…

Now I understand.
You have a certain way with things..

It's not about what you say.

It's about what you do.

Feeling blessed to have you in my life.

You left your mark on me.

Love, Eran.

When we're apart, I hold my breath till I'm with you.

Current Song Mood: Cheryl Cole - Coming Up For Air

Come and get me right now
Hurry up it's been too long
Since the last time
I fell in love with a free fall
Hold tight I'm on my way love
To lift you out of the storm
Been drowning in the haze of who we are

[Chorus:]
Suddenly I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air from the deep blue
And everything we know
Leave it far below
You let me know that I'm the only one
When you let go I'll hold my breath till I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air

Honey turn the lights down
Don't be afraid know your safe now
You hurt my heart core
Fell in love with a free fall
No distance in between us
When we're together we're home
So close it's like I feel us becoming one

[Chorus:]
Suddenly I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air from the deep blue
And everything we know
Leave it far below
You let me know that I'm the only one
When you let go I'll hold my breath till I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air

Its the night time
You're pulling into my front drive
I hear you and I see your headlights
You steal my beating heart, heart
Its the night time
I'm pulling into your front drive
My mind is busy doing overtime
It knows what's gonna start, start
Start, start, start, start
I fell in love with a free fall
Start, start
I fell in love with a free fall
You steal my beating heart
I fell in love with a free fall
You steal my beating heart

[Chorus:]
Suddenly I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air from the deep blue
And everything we know
Leave it far below
You let me know that I'm the only one
When you let go I'll hold my breath till I'm with you
It's like coming up for air
Coming up for air

Comatose

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Weeeee and there ends my night shift!

Just woke up from a nap actually.

Felt like I was in a comatose hahaha.

Didnt even realise the timing.

Had such a blast today. Or should I say yesterday… hahaha it gets me so confused. ._.

Bonded a lot with this girl. Bumped into her at first at the supermarket before shift started hahaha.

Me: 'I don't know what to buy!!!'

She: 'That's always the problem during night shift.' 

Hahaha.

She offered me so much coffee drinks HAHA. I'm not a fan of coffee but they were super nice!! :')

The design's soooo cute!!!

It was as milky as ice cream.

I ate a lot. .-. Literally didnt do much haha. We shared ghost stories and it was so fun to hear! But creepy at the same time. We also had some creepy moments.. uhhh. HAHA. You gotta ask me personally. ;)

Took these selfies at the end of our shift. These girls were so crazy and high!!! HAHA. Y'all don't know the crazy shit they did during shift HAHA. We were all literally smiling and greeting good morning to the morning shift. Too excited to go home LOL.

'Omg. So on ah you all.' said the morning team hahaha!

Managed to end on time. :)

Gonna miss the night atmosphere!
So peaceful.

Sigh.

After work, I slept a bit. 

Then I headed out again.

Becaaaaaaause.

I wanted to spend time with someone. :)

So I sacrificed my sleep.

And that's a lot coming from me LOL.

._.

Haha. It was worth it.

Thank you for introducing me to this song.

It's beautiful.

One thing I love so much about you, is your taste in music.

<3

Love, Eran.

See you tomorrow, love.

Current Song Mood: Mikky Ekko - Comatose

I lost my head out in the cold
Pins and needles always waiting
You lost your nerve and all control
I can feel it, I can feel it and it feels like waiting

Push and pull, revolving doors
We end up where we were before, right there at the scene

Like an open door to an empty room
It's still a part of me needing part of you
In another life we could work it out
But we never speak, so it's hard to
Do we really want to live this way?
Cause all I really want is you to stay
Maybe it's easier, comatose

We worked so hard to stay above
All temptations we created
Now we go under and call it love
I can feel it, I can feel it, but the feeling's fading

We push and pull, revolving doors
We end up where we were before, right back in the dream

Like an open door to an empty room
It's still a part of me needing part of you
In another life we could work it out
But we never speak, so it's hard to
Do we really want to live this way?
Cause all I really want is you to stay
Maybe it's easier, comatose

Like an open door to an empty room
It's still a part of me needing part of you
In another life we could work it out
But we never speak, so it's hard to
Do we really want to live this way?
Cause all I really want is you to stay
Maybe it's easier, comatose

But I don't really wanna live this way
And all you really want is me to stay
Baby we can work it out, comatose

Stars

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Just survived my first night.

And I feel.

Like.

Crap.

Seriously haha. So zombified.

Well it wasn't as scary as I imagined, since there was always people around. My cubicle wasn't that heavy, so I was quite unoccupied. It was nice for once to be able to do whatever I want. I ended up spending most of the time texting Baby and drinking hot drinks to keep me awake. ._. 

It was certainly a good experience.
 :)

By the end of the shift I felt so weaaaaaaaaak. Forreal tho. Need to bring lots of food tonight haha! 

Can't wait for my last round tonight!

All ouuuut.

Love, Eran.

A day closer to seeing you again.

Current Song Mood: Cheryl Cole - Stars

We can all be stars

Open your eyes
Let your mind take flight
See your dreams come to life

Open your mind
Let your heart ignite
And believe it's your time

See a light, through the dark
Picture you, like a work of art
If you dare, to go far
We define who we really are

We can rock the night
Like we fucking own it
Come up, go hard, everybody knows it
Just shine your light
Baby, just forget who you are

We can all be stars
We can all be stars
We can all be stars
Just forget who you are
We can all be stars

Open your eyes to the fire inside
Let your world come alive
Look to the sky
Put your hands up high
And take hold of your life

See a light, through the dark
Picture you, like a work of art
If you dare, to go far
We define who we really are

And we can rock the night 
Like we fucking own it
Come up, go hard, everybody knows it
Just shine your light
Baby just forget who you are

We can all be stars
We can all be stars
We can all be stars
Just forget who you are
We can all be stars

The spirit that's inside of you
Lifts you up and pulls and your through
Tell me you believe that we can all go far
The spirit that's inside of you
Lifts you up and pulls you through
Tell me you believe that we can all be
All be, all be, all be

We can rock the night
Like we fucking own it
Come up, go hard, everybody knows it
Just shine your light
Baby just forget who you are

We can all be stars
We can all be stars
We can all
Just forget who you are
We can all be stars

All In One Night

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I feel like a zombie.

And I haven't even started shift yet. LOL.

Was supposed to stay up last night.. and I was texting with Baby.

Closed my eyes for a while and BAM!

Ended up, I was the one who fell asleep first HAHA.

Someone wasn't too happy. :x

Hahaha.

Tried staying up all morning in the end. Then when I couldn't take it, I slept through my afternoon for 5 hours straight. ._. 

I hope it's enough sleep to get me through the night.

:D

I caaaaaant waaaaaait.

Lets hope everything goes smoothly.

InsyaAllah.

Love, Eran.

I've been thinking bout it.

Current Song Mood: Cheryl Cole - All In One Night

(Yeah, oh)

I'm not afraid of my desire
Cause I know what you like
When I'm ready, said I'm ready
To get down in one night
But two better
What do you say?
You better walk my way
And come baby we can go play
What do you say?

I'll be your, be your desire (us)
You'll be my, be my mistake (shh)
We can walk, walk to the fire (ooh)
(Say)

[Chorus:]
I'll tell you my secrets
Show you where I keep it
We can do it all in one night
Clothes, somebody's falling
Midnight turn to morning
We can do it all in one night
Let me open your mind
Bring your body to mine
Wanna get to know ya
And let me show ya
We can fall in love in one night

It's like the sea with open eyes
Feeling love at first sight
And I'm ready, are you ready?
To get down in one night
Ooh baby, what do you say?
You better walk my way
Come baby we can go play
What do you say?

I'll be your, be your desire (us)
You'll be my, be my mistake (shh)
We can walk, walk to the fire (ooh)
(Say)

[Chorus:]
I'll tell you my secrets
Show you where I keep it
We can do it all in one night
Clothes, somebody's falling
Midnight turn to morning
We can do it all in one night
Let me open your mind
Bring your body to mine
Wanna get to know ya
And let me show ya
We can fall in love in one night

I can throw it back and baby
You can work without a maybe
We can lay in bed and feel all it go tonight
I can throw it back and baby
You can work without a maybe
We can lay in bed and feel it all go tonight

[Chorus:]
I'll tell you my secrets
Show you where I keep it
We can do it all in one night
Clothes, somebody's falling
Midnight turn to morning
We can do it all in one night
Let me open your mind
Bring your body to mine
Wanna get to know ya
And let me show ya
We can fall in love in one night

I can throw it back and baby (boss)
You can work without a maybe (bitch)
We can lay in bed (ooh, switch)
I can throw it back and baby (boss)
You can work without a maybe (bitch)
We can lay in bed (ooh, switch)

Love Me Like You Do

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It struck me today that 200 posts meant 200 different songs. And that there's many more to come. Can you imagine that? The amount of songs that exists.. woah. 

Today was a peaceful day.. Spent my day off just recording and chilling as I gear up for my night shift duty tomorrow :) So excited!

Now that that's happening, I need blog earlier tomorrow. ._. 

I probably won't sleep tonight. 

But who am I kidding right? xD

Decided to watch a movie today; The Babadook.

Man, quite recently, I realised that I am really not a fan of kids. Especially annoying, screaming ones. Ohmyyyyy. So annoying! The show was about a single-Mum going through depression after her husband died, even after almost 7 years. And to make it worse, her son keeps talking about monsters. The first part of the movie was nice as it portrayed how tough it was to be a single Mum, and going through grief… Then one night they read this creepy book that the kid found on the shelf, and it turned out to be the worse mistake ever. The Babadook (Baba… dook dook doooooook) is one hella creepy monster LOL. It's like.. Boogieman meets Wolverine with a tinge of Magic. (Ignore my nonsense.)  Especially when it went inside the mother. But I'm glad nothing happened to the kid. He turned out to be pretty loveable in the end. But still annoying.

No idea how I'll handle my own kids in the future HAHA.

Today's song of the day will be Ellie Goulding's Love Me Like You Do.

Getting into my Fifty Shade-esque feels.

Mmmdap.

Cause.. I love how you love me like you do.

Whuut? 

HAHA.

Love, Eran.

Can't wait to see you again.

(:

Current Song Mood: Ellie Goulding - Love Me Like You Do

You're the light, you're the night

You're the color of my blood

You're the cure, you're the pain

You're the only thing I wanna touch

Never knew that it could mean so much, so much

You're the fear, I don't care

Cause I've never been so high

Follow me to the dark

Let me take you past our satellites

You can see the world you brought to life, to life

So love me like you do, love me like you do

Love me like you do, love me like you do

Touch me like you do, touch me like you do

What are you waiting for?

Fading in, fading out

On the edge of paradise

Every inch of your skin is a holy grail I've got to find

Only you can set my heart on fire, on fire

Yeah, I'll let you set the pace

Cause I'm not thinking straight

My head spinning around I can't see clear no more

What are you waiting for?

Love me like you do, love me like you do

Love me like you do, love me like you do

Touch me like you do, touch me like you do

What are you waiting for?

Yeah, I'll let you set the pace

Cause I'm not thinking straight

My head spinning around I can't see clear no more

What are you waiting for?

Love me like you do, love me like you do

Love me like you do, love me like you do

Touch me like you do, touch me like you do

What are you waiting for?

Funny

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HELLLOOOOO 200th POST

I'd like to thank every soul that's ever kept up with my nonsensical blogging HAHA.

I mean come on, to reach more than 3.5k views so far.. thank you thank you.

I hope everyone is well. 

I've been so caught up with work nowadays.

Met Tomei before I started work today, and she was so happy to see me. 

One thing I realised about working life is, we're so caught up in it that we almost forget that we have friends. Haha! She confided in me about her problems and I could only share my own experiences. Hope she can pull through! Stay strong babe.

<3

It's funny how shitty I've felt a couple of weeks ago because of work.
It's funny how depressed I felt when I almost lost a lover a couple of days ago,
 and now..
 I feel so.. inspired and motivated to do my best in life.

Just a change of people.. in my life. It makes all a difference.

Life is constantly changing things up for me.

And I appreciate every second up till this moment.

Here's a meaningful song to start off my 200th post.

Some new Tori Kelly music (and hopefully her album) coming soon..

Keep a look out.

 :)

Love, Eran.

Funny how it all goes around.

Current Song Mood: Tori Kelly - Funny (Live)

It's so easy to lose all the meaning of who you are

What is your definition of a true superstar?

Is it beauty? Is it money? Is it power? Is it fame?

Are you in it for the glory?

What's the purpose, what's the gain?

Everything you ever wanted got you tied up in chains

Be careful how you play the game

Cause the same ones that chose you are the same ones that own you

Same things that built you is the same thing that kills you

Same ones that praise you are the same ones that hate you

Funny how it all goes around

If you lose your soul you lose it all

If you're at the top then brace for the fall

Surrounded by faces with no one to call

Funny how it all goes around

If you lose your soul you lose it all

If you're at the top then brace for the fall

Surrounded by faces with no one to call

Funny how it all goes around

If you look through a microscope at this messed up world

You would see every scratch

Every flaw

Every ounce of dirt

Your so called friends you're leaning on but all they do is take

You say its fine but deep inside you wish you could escape

Everything you ever wanted got you tied up in chains

Be careful how you play the game

Cause the same ones that shun you are the same ones that love you

Same ones that shape you are the same things that break you

Same rules that bind you are the same rules that guide you

Funny how it all goes around

If you lose your soul you lose it all

If you're at the top then brace for the fall

Surrounded by faces with no one to call

Funny how it all goes around

If you lose your soul you lose it all

If you're at the top then brace for the fall

Surrounded by faces with no one to call

Funny how it all goes around

Keep on crying out, don't let me hit the ground

Your soul is crying out, don't let me hit the ground

You keep crying out, Lord, don't let me hit the ground

Your soul is crying out, don't let me hit the ground

If you lose your soul then you lose it all

If you're at the top then brace for the fall

Surrounded by faces, no one to call

Funny how it all goes around

If you lose your soul then you lose it all

Surrounded by faces with no one to call

If you're at the top, brace for the fall

Funny how, funny how it all goes around

Yeah Oh

Ooh

Don't let me hit the ground

You keep on crying out

Don't let me hit the ground

Funny how it all goes around...