Small Things

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I guess I've been getting better at holding things in.

All the small things.

That are actually huge.

Because sometimes.

Sometimes I just feel like breaking down.

Or bursting out in anger.

I try to contain it.

And it's not healthy.

For me. For my head.

Maybe my partner's dad was right.

Maybe I do have a lot of anger in me.

Unresolved anger from the past.

That I just keep hidden away.

Current mood?

I'm currently having a panic attack.

From all the personal attacks I've been having the entire day.

From my Mum - to my Partner.

It seems like I cant have proper conversations without triggering anyone.

So I'm just gonna keep quiet.

Maybe I'm supposed to be a superhero that absorbs all your emotions.

But I am human too.

And there's only so much I can take.

And I will back away.. if I have to.

I just need some time on my own.

Don't ask me how I'm doing.

Because right now, I feel like absolute shit.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Small Things

Heard your name
Just as I was heading home the other day
And I swear I couldn't even sit up straight
I swallowed hard
I found a shirt
Cleaning my apartment and it made it worse
And I swear you couldn't even see the hurt
I swallowed hard

Now when my friends ask how I'm doing
I say I'm great now, but the truth is

I'm getting good at holding it in
All my emotions, all my feelings
But the more that I fight them, the bigger they seem
What really kills me is all the small things

I saw your car
Wasn't you, but for a minute I thought it was
Swear to God, I almost didn't think of us
I swallowed hard

And when my friends ask how I'm doing
I say I'm great now, but the truth is

I'm getting good at holding it in
All my emotions, all my feelings
But the more that I fight them, the bigger they seem
What really kills me is all the small things

All the small things
Oo-oo-oo-oo-oo-ooh, ooh, yeah

This city has your fingerprints all over it
And I can't even think about how some day she will too
And I know I'll get over it 'cause that's just what I'll do
But what really kills me is everything you get used to

I'm getting good at holding it in
All my emotions, all my feelings
But the more that I fight them, the bigger they seem
What really kills me is all the small things

Ooh, it's always just the small things
Yeah