Brother

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I don't know what to do.

What to feel.

Or how to react anymore.

I can't do anything right now....

Literally just staring in a daze.

With my puffy eyes.

And a sick feeling in my gut.

I have had too much.. trauma.

With my family.

And my dysfunctional brothers.

And I am just.. trapped.

Trapped in between of it all.

I cant .

Breathe.

Nobody should ever go through this.

Nobody should ever grow up in such a toxic household. 

25 years of my life. 

And I am just frankly tired of it all.

The worst part is seeing my Mum helpless and crying.

I've always hated that.

What can I do?

I am just a sponge.

I am just trying.. to stay strong.

Cause that's the only option I have.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ryan Beatty - Brother 

Speeding with no hesitation
Crushed up the pills that you had
Just like the matches you're burning
To see if it all falls down

Why do you leave yourself
Leave yourself
Leave yourself alone
Why don't you ask for help when you're needing someone
I'm giving everything to get to you
I'm knocking at your door
I'm knocking at your door
If only you would let me in

Brother you can lay your head
You can lay your head on my shoulder
I see that you, you try your best to be someone that you don't want to

You know, you know you can call on me
You know, you know

Why do you leave yourself
Leave yourself
Leave yourself alone
Why don't you ask for help when you're needing someone
I'm giving everything to get to you
I'm knocking at your door
I'm knocking at your door
If only you would let me in

You are so quiet
I wonder if you cry yourself to sleep
There is a light within your eyes
If only you could see