MODUS

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I am feeling better each day.

Slowly.

Part of me is still... scared.

Of the past.

Of the future.

& that is not within my control.

But right now, I am here.

I am present.

And that's all that matters. 

Currently spending my Monday morning with my partner.

At Starbucks.

Just chilling & doing work.

Having tea and cheesecake.

And appreciating all the little things.

This is.. nice.

I could get used to this.

❤️

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Joji - Modus 

Speed it up, slow it down
I need control, I need it now
I need to live a thousand times
I cannot stop, I cannot cry
I will not fret, I will not die
I am a machine, I stay alive
Sometimes I think, sometimes I think
Sometimes I think, sometimes I- oh
I've got no aim, a million rounds, it's nothing real
A hundred pounds of heavy steel, it feels so loud
Tied to my chest, it feels so loud
I'll take a peek to across the peaks
The grass is neat, I'm quite unique
But I'd like to be, but I'd like to be

And I hope this is the hardest part
We try, we try
And when they say they're satisfied
They're lying, they're lying
Do forgive me, I've seen the treasure's in the bloom
But right now I'm just not strong enough for you

Sorry, you can see it in my retina
Focus in and out, I'm doing better
Artificial ghost with no perception
I wanna be a Chevy, not a Sentra
I don't feel the way they programmed me to feel today
Some pieces falling from the waist up
I'm so sorry for delays
I just need one moment to erase that burning pain before the rage
I feel good, I feel good, I feel good

And I hope this is the hardest part
We try, we try
And when they say they're satisfied
They're lying, they're lying
Do forgive me, I've seen the treasure's in the bloom
But right now I'm just not strong enough for you
And I hope this is the hardest part
We try, we try
And when they say they're satisfied
They're lying, they're lying
Do forgive me, I've seen the treasure's in the bloom
But right now I'm just not strong enough for you