Honest

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Sorry if I am not myself these days.

It's been a rough time for my mental health.

I cant seem to sleep properly these days.

And I am having PTSD triggers now and then.

I'll daze out, imagining the worst. 

Because I'm scared.

Of things that might happen.

I am.. paranoid. 

To be honest.

At this point, I am afraid to wake up to dead bodies.

That is how paranoid I am.

Thank you for letting me get away for a while.

I know you tried your best.

I really appreciate it. 

Time passed really fast.

Thank you for letting me be honest.

It is not easy for me, to talk about my problems.

But I love you, so so much. 

Just for listening.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Rei Brown - Honest 

[Verse 1]

I've been laying wide awake

I have something I have to say

I look at your face, and

I'm ready to cave in

No one I'm waiting

I'm driving the blade in

There's no easier way to explain

Make it all go away

I am to blame

I ain't ever, I ain't ever

[Chorus]

I ain't ever loved you if we're honest, honest

I ain't ever settled what we promised, promised

Thought you could be the one I wanted

But you're so far, far

[Verse 2]

You're not like me, you're too good

Still you want me, I knew you would

I thought it was love, cause

I was hooked like a drug, and

If that's not enough, yeah

I'm calling my bluff, no

I knew you would want me to stay

No, I'm walking away

Don't you wait

I ain't ever, I ain't ever

I ain't ever loved you if we're honest, honest

I ain't ever settled what we promised, promised

Thought you could be the one I wanted

But you're so far, far

[Chorus]

I ain't ever loved you if we're honest, honest

I ain't ever settled what we promised, promised

Thought you could be the one I wanted

But you're so far, far