Heaven

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'Nenek dah takde'.

('She's gone.')

It took me a while to absorb those words.

I felt the world revolving around me.

You'd think that you'd be prepared for death.

But you never are, and you never will.

My heart broke.

I was at work when I received the news from my Mum.

I took a deep breathe.

And prayed.

Prayed for her.

I didnt leave work because...

What's the point?

She's already gone.

I can't do anything about it.

Rushing there won't help with anything.

I can't stand all the chaos that was probably happening there.

So I stayed.

I only went... 

At night.

When things were calmer.

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I'm at a loss for words.

From everything I've experienced today.

It feels like the whole world is mourning.

The skies have been crying whole day.

A sign that a great one is gone.

Today, I watched my Grandmother get buried.

Before that, I managed to kiss her pale face goodbye.

It's been a painful week.

Watching her getting admitted, having complications in her health.

And watching her slowly deteriorate.

Even so, she fought strong.

Doctors gave her at most two days.

But she pushed through a whole week.

She's always had that fighting spirit that she shows strongly.

I remember her getting a stroke on my 21st birthday last year.

She fought through all the way.

I stayed over last night. 

Accompanying my Mum.

Watching Nenek's corpse on the bed.

Her face - pale, yet it seemed at peace.

She had died in peace.

I was really glad to hear that.

At least she didnt suffer.

Everything went smoothly today.

Alhamdulillah.

There is no one else like you.

You are my role model, my inspiration.

Your compassion, kindness, and unconditional love.

No one can compare.

I love you so much Nenek...

I miss you already.

See you in Heaven.

InsyaAllah, Amin.

Al-Fateha.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Beyonce - Heaven

[Verse 1:]
I fought for you
The hardest, it made me the strongest
So tell me your secrets
I just can't stand to see you leaving

[Hook:]
But heaven couldn't wait for you
No heaven couldn't wait for you
Heaven couldn't wait for you
No heaven couldn't wait for you
So go on, go home

[Verse 2:]
We laughed at the darkness
So scared that we lost it
We stood on the ceilings
You showed me love was all you needed

[Hook x2]

So go on, go home

[Outro:]
Padre Nuestro
Que estás en el cielo
Santificado sea tu Nombre
Venga tu reino
Hagase tu voluntad
En la tierra como en el cielo
Amen
[English translation:
Our Father
Who art in heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy kingdom come
Thy will be done
On earth as it in heaven
Amen]

HEAVEN

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I sat on the bench. 

Alone.

'I'm just a lost boy, lost boy...'

Those lyrics played in my head.

I stared into space.

The wind gently blowing.

The dark clouds gathering above me.

Eyes were getting watery.

What was I looking for?

I've been feeling so lost.

I had to cut away people who were poisoning my life.

Sorry.

I've enough on my plate to deal with.

I can't deal with your problems anymore.

Go find someone else to handle your issues.

My faith has been collapsing on me lately.

My sins have been pinned onto me.

So many tests. So many trials.

Suffocating.

I haven't been myself.

I hope to replenish it soon.

Without changing who I am..

How do I get to heaven?

I guess..

Sometimes you have to be lost, to be found again.

Love, Eran.

I didnt expect you to text me again.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan Ft Betty Who - Heaven

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek
Trying to save face, and daddy heart break
I'm lying through my teeth

This voice inside
Has been eating at me
Trying to replace the love that I fake
With what we both need

The truth runs wild
Like kids on concrete
Trying to sedate, my mind in it's cage
And numb what I see

Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me
Trying to keep faith and picture his face
Staring up at me

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

[Betty Who:]
The truth runs wild
Like the rain to the sea
Trying to set straight the lines that I trace
To find some relief
This voice inside
Has been eating at me

Trying to embrace the picture I paint
And colour me free

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek