HEAVEN

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I sat on the bench. 

Alone.

'I'm just a lost boy, lost boy...'

Those lyrics played in my head.

I stared into space.

The wind gently blowing.

The dark clouds gathering above me.

Eyes were getting watery.

What was I looking for?

I've been feeling so lost.

I had to cut away people who were poisoning my life.

Sorry.

I've enough on my plate to deal with.

I can't deal with your problems anymore.

Go find someone else to handle your issues.

My faith has been collapsing on me lately.

My sins have been pinned onto me.

So many tests. So many trials.

Suffocating.

I haven't been myself.

I hope to replenish it soon.

Without changing who I am..

How do I get to heaven?

I guess..

Sometimes you have to be lost, to be found again.

Love, Eran.

I didnt expect you to text me again.

Current Song Mood: Troye Sivan Ft Betty Who - Heaven

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek
Trying to save face, and daddy heart break
I'm lying through my teeth

This voice inside
Has been eating at me
Trying to replace the love that I fake
With what we both need

The truth runs wild
Like kids on concrete
Trying to sedate, my mind in it's cage
And numb what I see

Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me
Trying to keep faith and picture his face
Staring up at me

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

[Betty Who:]
The truth runs wild
Like the rain to the sea
Trying to set straight the lines that I trace
To find some relief
This voice inside
Has been eating at me

Trying to embrace the picture I paint
And colour me free

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek