All Of Me

Page 49

Back in style *-* Haha. Today was the Year 3's Graduation Dinner & Dance Night so me and my EXCOs went to help out. Got dressed up and met Tomei at Woodlands then took the train all the way to Somerset. Met up with the rest of the family and I swear we looked like a walking garden today HAHAHA. So cute. Went to the hotel where we were briefed then went to makan nearby. The food was good the price? Nahh. Went back to the hotel to start work and went up and down (sounds wrong LOL). 

I'm in charge of backstage with Dan and Tomei but.. HAHAHA there's no backstage at all!!! We're completely visible and it was so embarrassing. But oh wells we had to do it. Ohh and I'm so impressed with Lily's dance and her team. It was amazing and everyone seemed in awe. *-* Well done!  Oh and Muddy HAD to make a grand entrance by coming out from under the stage HAHA. I swear this guy is cray. As in awesome cray. ._. All in all it was a nice day and we took a biiig group photo with the previous EXCOs at the end of the day :) Love you guys!

Well time to study for my morning paper tomorrow (I'm so dead). Nights!

Love, Eran

I heard this song in the car while I was out shopping with the EXCOs last Friday. I couldn't help but get emotional..

Current Song Mood: John Legend - All Of Me

[Verse]

What would I do without your smart mouth

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

Got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down

What's going on in that beautiful mind

I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

[Bridge]

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus]

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

[Verse]

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you

[Bridge]

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

[Chorus]

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you,oh

Give me all of you

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

Risking it all, though it's hard

[Chorus]

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, ohh

Glory #LoveJo

Page 48

What a beautiful day it is today. I went out of the house feeling different. Like I felt.. safe. Being watched from above. That feeling like I know everything's going to be all right. It was a beautiful feeling.

I went for my Friday Prayers after a loooong time (been busy with school) and I've never felt so good. In fact I felt like the old me again… The always so positive and hopeful person. I guess its the things that I've went through last year that has made me feel changed/different. That made me felt like I've lost my innocence. How I wish I can hold on to that feeling longer..

After my paper (which sucked) went to CCK with my Exco family but got left behind with Khan because it was soooo crowded ._. Haha, but we took long bus rides and finally caught up with them. Had a great chat with him along the way :) We then went to Dan's house where we played with his pussies and his CUTEEEE NEPHEW, Hakim *-* OMG DAMN CUTE. Kept playing with him hahaha. Then we took Dan's car and Ida drove us. DAN WAS SO ANNOYING WITH THE GPS. WE KEPT GETTING LOST HAHAHA. & The girls kept playing my hair. *flips hair* Haha come la touch la touch. It was so much fun in the car with all the craziness and laughter. :3 I felt so cosy in between. ._. I never wanted it to end hahaha. We then went to Beach Road where we bought stuffs and had our supper :) In the meantime I took Khan's phone and spammed some pics >:p

After supper we went to Marsilling to go grocery shopping. Headache sia. And Farah scared us when she said there were more Year 2s in the camp than Year 1s haha. We were so panicky but I'm glad that wasn't the case. Finally bought the bunch of stuffs and went home. I can't wait to get my exams over and done with!

Love, Eran.

1 more paper to go. At stressful times like this I wish I had someone to support me mentally. Like… last term...

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Glory

Oh glory, 
Oooh glory 
There is room enough in paradise 
To have a home in 
Glory 
Jesus my own to Heaven's gone 
To have home in glory 
He who I'm fixed my hopes upon 
To have a home in glory 
Glory-yyy uuuuh 
Glory 
There is room enough in paradise 
To have a home in glory 
His light I see 
And I pass to to have a home in glory 
Uuuuu, glory-yyy 
Glory-yyy there is room enough in paradise 
To have a home 
To have a home 
To have a home 
In glory-yyy

Caught Up In The Rapture #LoveJo

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Went to school today early in the morning and the shuttle bus was LATE ._. Forrealz. 

Met Lily outside Cheers then we went to the Logi room together. Dan came at 9 when we all agreed to meet at 8 lolol. Idiot!! Planned for the camp schedule some more and I'm so proud because we were quite productive :) YX came by to join us and we had to figure out riddles for some locations. HAHAHAHA AND ALL THE RIDDLES SOUNDED SO DIRTY. Example: Dip it deep, Put it in… or.. Hit it hard, Play it smart… etc. HAHAHA. I'm glad I can put my rhyming skills into good use.

So after the plannings, went to Munch Level 2 to study while Lily went for her dance practice with my other friends & juniors. Let me just say, I had been staring at the same page for about 4 HOURS STRAIGHT HAHAHA. Seriously, nothing could go in my head and I was so easily distracted. Even went for a short photoshoot with Tomei. :3

Here's Dan getting excited to show off his floral costume.. HAHAHA

'Cause I don't remember..'

Meh.

Feeling-feeling haha.

#swag

I like this one.

*haiyakkkkk*

 Emo.

A wonderful shot by Tomei :*

Love love loved today. Attempted to study some more but the wind was so syiok & we realised there was no point because we were so tired and decided to go home together :) Going to the library tomorrow to meet my classmates & study. Gonna go study more tonight. My brain seems to only function well at night. .-.

Love, Eran.

Here's a song from Anita Baker covered by JoJo in her latest EP. Lily loves it and it's my favourite song off the EP too. :) 

A good one to play if you're in love.. Something that I don't get to feel anymore.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Caught Up In The Rapture 

When we met

Always knew I would feel that magic for you

On my mind, constantly

In my arms is where you should be!

(Da Internz, it’s the Remix)

I love you here by me baby

You let my love live free

I want you in my life – for all time

Aaaa-aaa,

Caught in the RAPTURE OF LOVE

Nothing else can’t compare

When I feel the MAGIC OF YOU

Aaa-aaaa

We stay side by side ’til the storms of light

Passes by

Line my life, won my heart

Say tonight we’ll be just the start!

I love you here by me baby

You let my love live free

I want you to be with me – for all time

Aaaa-aaa,

Caught in the RAPTURE OF LOVE

Nothing else can’t compare

When I feel the MAGIC OF YOU

Aaa-aaaa

Feelings always knew

When I’m caught up in the RAPTURE OF YOU

Aaaa-uuuh yeah!

I love you here by me baby

You let my love live free

I want you to be with me – for all time

Aaaa-aaa

Caught in the rapture of love

Nothing else just can’t compare

When I feel the MAGIC OF YOU

Feelings always knew,

Caught up in the RAPTURE OF YOU!

LOVE YOU-UUU!

My Time Is Money

Page 46

Today was SO mentally draining for me. Overly stressed, don't even know if I should cry or laugh it off. I've never felt so f-cked up before in my life. Crazy.

I knew it was going to be a bad day. I just felt it. I started the day meeting Dan and Lily in school to plan for the camp. We then ordered Mac and I had a lovely chat with the Filipino lady over the line (wink wink). Lol. Halfway through the call I went out. And when I came back to the Logi Room, jengjengjeng, the next thing I knew we were locked outside and our bags were inside the room. *slaps forehead* Turns out the faulty knob was in the room and the only thing we had was the useless key. We then attempted to *break* the door down but it was useless cause we were all small sized and had no strength. LOL. We tried to go around the room, seeing if we could get through the windows but to no avail. Then we decided to try break the knobs off the other rooms nearby HAHAHA. We're such idiots. We finally gave up and proceeded to the exit, and noticed the knob was loose. So we tried to break that too HAHAHAHA. While doing it, Dan's papers on the ground was blown by the wind and we had to chase after it HAHAHA. We finally gave up and went to meet Mr J. 

'WHY DO WE ALWAYS GET INTO STUPID SITUATIONS?!' I had to say it HAHAHA. Damn.

We walked to Blk 81, and bumped into Fai. Told him our situation, and LUCKILY, helped us to break the door down. Don't know what we'd do without him, THANKS FAI!!! We then went to Hogs just in time to meet Mr J too. Told him our situation and as usual he laughed his heart out at us LOL. Well done.

Continued with our meeting and then had Mac Breakfast :) I'm so broke though, NO MORE MAC FOR ME >:o

After breakfast, we went around the whooooooooole school just to take photos of the venues we will use for our camp. It was SO tiring omg. We then realised one of the venues we booked wasn't the one that we wanted and was a COMPLETELY diff area. Then we went to SDAR to ask them to help us with the room booking and the idiot there told us to go to EM. So we went down the Sports Office, to try to ask them questions and we got deathstares. Sheesh. Finally giving up, we went back to Logi Room and packed our bags. We attempted to plan some more stuff but ended up going CRAZY. GILA I TELL YOU HAHAHAHA. LAUGHED AND LAUGHED UNTIL I FELT LIKE CRYING. 

Muka steam pls HAHAHA

Our brains literally couldn't function because we were sooo tired. We decided we haaaad to come to sch tomorrow again. :( Hais.

After Lily left, me and Dan went to co-op to have a break and study. Then we went to EM to ask them about the bookings, and another idiot came to us and told us he can't help us. And he kept asking us, 'WHY WHY WHY' and even proceeded to nag at us (WTF) . AND I'M LIKE.. 'B-TCH I DONT KNOW'. Sheesh wtf is wrong with these peopleeee. So I went back to SDAR with Dan and we were so angry HAHAHA we even thought of what remarks to say to them. We went to the office and the idiot #1 mentioned earlier was in the office and didn't attend to us. Lucky for him or else I would've asked for his f-cking name. IDIOT. Luckily a Malay lady attended to us and directed us on who we should talk to. 

So we went back to the Sports Office where we had received the deathstares earlier, and went inside. We talked to this grumpy-looking old man who had the NERVE to tell me that the rooms were unavailable. And the thing is, HE HAVENT EVEN CHECKED THEM YET. And he asked me why I booked until 11pm when I can only book until 9.30PM. EXCUSE ME HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO KNOW? THE BOOKING SYSTEM GAVE ME THAT MAX TIMING SO I TOOK IT. OMG. I tell you I was going crazy in there. He finally said that he would get back to us by then end of the week. Okay, fair enough. But if we don't get the rooms. I will seriously give up.

CONCLUSION: MOST ANNOYING F-CKED UP & MENTALLY EXHAUSTING DAY EVER.

Dying, Eran.

I'm annoyed at you too.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - My Time Is Money

(1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4)

I need a man, not a boy (4x)

Uh, uh, livin' in the city with brown, some so pretty

I, I got everyone with me

I'm runnin' this, really, oh, really

I, I don't need your dollars

I've given you a chance to holla

Tell me, can you keep up?

My time is money

Homie, you're not payin' my bills

My time is money

Give me somethin' I can feel

(My time is money)

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

I'm a busy girl, in the busy world

Hey, my time is money

Oooh, ya think so hot

Can't keep holdin' your spot

Cuz you're not lookin' at the clock

Ya think ya got this girl on lock

But I gotta 9AM, I'm always on time

That's why I'm the CEO

And I ain't tryna wait all night

Hurry up, come and put my body next to yours

My time is money

Homie, you're not payin' my bills

My time is money

Give me somethin' I can feel

(My time is money)

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

I'm a busy girl, in the busy world

Hey, my time is money

Time's tickin', it's time to show me

Stop delayin', and put it on me

Turn it up and rock-and-roll me

Hey, hey, hey, hey

Time's tickin', it's time to show me

Stop delayin,' and put it on me

Turn it up and rock-and-roll me

Hey, hey, hey, hey

I need a man, not a boy (4x)

My time is money

Homie, you're not payin' my bills

My time is money

Give me somethin' I can feel

(My time is money)

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

Tell me whatcha gon' when it runs out

I'm a busy girl, in the busy world

Hey, my time is money

Homie, you're not payin' my bills

My time is money

Oh, at least my money's real

(My time is money)

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

Tell me whatcha gon' do if it runs out

I'm a busy girl, in the busy world

Hey, my time is money

Take Me Home #LoveJo

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I woke up feeling really weak today. Like my body couldn't function. I knew I was sick but had to drag myself to school. But then I remember: JO WAS RELEASING HER NEW EP TODAY. I quickly went to her Soundcloud, press Play, volume to the max, and closed my eyes, like I ALWAYS do every single time she releases something new. And I'll be in another world.

Let me just say HOW BRILLIANT HER VOCALS ARE NOW. They were ON POINT. Freaking amazing. And she did some gospel-like vocals too on a song called 'Glory' which I HAD NO IDEA SHE COULD HIT. Woahhh. It was out of this world! I've been waiting for her new stuff since her release from her former label.  Makes me so proud to be a fan to see her grow artistically and vocally.

Amazingness.

Went to school today and met Tomei and who was so late and so sorry, I was like its okay guuurl ._.

So we took the train to school. When we came my friends already started Dance Practice and OH. MY. GOSH. Lily's moves were sooo hard but we danced anyway and I'm so proud of ourselves for doing it :D 

Haven't danced in a long time and it felt soooo good. In between I felt sick and totally knew I was having a fever cause I felt heaty. But I had to pull through anyways. 

We then helped the previous year's Exco guys in their DnD set-ups and stuff. It was fun playing all the games and testing them out :D But I was so sick I couldn't enjoy myself. :(

Anyways after helping out, we went to Logi room for our meeting. I've never felt so stressed before. Things aren't going the way they are supposed to.. But I HOPE to pull through. Please give me the strength.. Sigh. Oh and Baby Lily, wipe those tears cause you're one of the strongest person I know. Take care and good night. :)

Love, Eran.

Its like… she's singing about her freedom. <3 I long for freedom too.

Current Song Mood: JoJo - Take Me Home

Take that look of worry
I'm an ordinary man
They don't tell me nothing
So I find out all I can

There's a fire that's been burning
Right outside my door
I can't see it but I feel it
And it helps to keep me warm

But I, I don't mind
No I, I don't mind

Seems so long I've been waiting
Still don't know what for
There's no point escaping
I don't worry anymore

I can come out to find you
I don't like to go outside
They can turn off my feelings
Like they turning off the light

But I, I don't mind
No I, I don't mind (x2)
Oh I, I don't mind

So take, take me home
Cause I don't remember, yeah (take, take me home)
Cause I don't remember (take, take me home)
Cause I don't remember

Cause I've been a prisoner all my life,
And I can see you
Take that look of worry
Like an ordinary life
Working when it's daylight
And sleeping when it's night

I've got no far horizons
I don't wish upon a star
They don't think I listen
But I know who they are
And I, I don't mind
No I, I don't mind
Oh I, I don't mind

So take, take me home
Cause I don't remember (take, take me home) (x3)

Adore You

Page 44

Happy Valentine's Day :) It was such a busy day full of challenges..

First met Ida in the morning and accompanied her for breakfast at KAP Mac. Then went to school and literally walked EVERYWHERE just to find a venue to book for my camp. OH. MY. GOD. The pressure was unbearable. Every place we needed was booked. But I guess we sorted some things out now..

Then went to Hogs and met GF!!! <3

:P

She was sad because her friends ditched her HAHAHA.

:3

MUAH :*

Candid ke HAHAHA.

Kept on disturbing Ida and whatsapping about her even though we were right next to each other LOL <3

Then she had to go and Tomei came to help me with the room bookings. Omg ILYSM thanks for the help!!! 

Luhhh youuu :*

After that short meeting then we had class. Wah. I cannot than my lecturer's nagging. Omg. And I wasn't in the mood so I was twice annoyed as usual. After class I went to library with Ida, did my stuff and GF came from behind again ._. (She likes to appear out of nowhere).

HAHAHA its so fun to have her around because she's always crazy <3 I leave my comp for a few minutes and this happens:

>:o My mum better not see this LOL.

Hacker!!!

Act cute.

Act innocent.

Act cool.

Step sexy.

After that we went to the bus stop, planning to go to Arab St for Shisha (It was gonna be my first time!!!). We were so lost and weren't sure of the directions (or was it just me?) LOL. But ended up at the right place :) Waited for Syah to come for like.. 1 HOUR. Perfect example of 'Janji Melayu'. HAHAHA. While waiting at the bus stop for her me and GF had a mini concert and kept singing random songs. Syah finally came and we proceeded to Arab St. :)

It was soooo packed. Too crowded and we couldn't find a place to shisha but we ended up having a light dinner in this cosy place instead (even though the service was horrible!) Thanks ladies for the nights out! :))

Now I'm lying here with a throbbing headache. And I have to be in sch by 9 tomorrow :( Sigh. Goodnight.

Love, Eran

What if we were still… in love. Would we have spent this day together?

Current Song Mood: Miley Cyrus - Adore You

Oh, hey, oh

Baby, baby, are you listening?
Wondering where you've been all my life
I just started living
Oh, baby, are you listening?

When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

Baby, can you hear me?
When I'm crying out for you
I'm scared oh, so scared
But when you're near me
I feel like I'm standing with an army
Of men armed with weapons, hey, oh
When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

I love lying next to you
I could do this for eternity
You and me—we're meant to be
In holy matrimony
God knew exactly what he was doing
When he led me to you

When you say you love me
Know I love you more (I love you more)
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

When you say you love me
Know I love you more
And when you say you need me
Know I need you more
Boy, I adore you, I adore you

From Adam

Page 43

When I woke up today.. I couldn't feel my heart beating. I shut my eyes and opened them again. I felt a thousand emotions rush through me at that moment. I felt like Crying. But I felt Happy. Then I felt Angry. Pain. Confusion. Hurt. Then Disappointment all over again. It's like I was floating in a dark hole of emptiness. I was so freaking scared...

Love, Eran.

I just… I just wish I didn't have feelings..

Do you know how much I've suffered all this time? 2 freaking months. I think about you all the time. Everything I do reminds me of you. When I saw your name again… I couldnt help but get emotional. I f-cking missed you...

Current Song Mood: Travis Garland - From Adam (Interlude)

Every time I see you I don't know
Don't know what the hell I'm 'bout to say
Why am I so afraid of falling in love?
Your beauty keeps on getting in my way

Ain't a wrong way to love somebody
Yeah
Just the wrong way to tell someone
Ooh

Tryna make you understand I'm the kind of man that would treat you like
The perfect girl everybody knows you are

But you don't know me from Adam
And I don't know you from Eve
And if my words don’t come out right
I hope you feel what I mean

Singing Woo
Singing Woo
Singing Yeah
Singing Yeah