Lucky Day

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Somebody forced me into meeting him to kill time haha.

Went down to Admiralty, but there was really noooothing much there. We settled down at KFC and he got his meal while I got my KFC FROYO!

It's nice *-*

I observed how he was staring at a toddler from afar, that mesmerised look in his eyes, and that smile on his face. It warmed my heart.

After eating we went to find some seats under the block. The rain was still drizzling and me, I was  chilled to the bone. Lucky I had my green jacket along with me. We found a seat and started looking through the rooms.

'The connection so SLOW. Like you.' he says.

BITCH WHAT. >:o
#smh

Haha after reading lots of reviews, we finally settled on one that had all our essentials facilities. Hopefully this will be the right choice.

'If anything goes wrong, I'm blaming you.' he says.
._.
YEA LA OK LA.
#SMFH

 I'M SO EXCITEEEEEEED.

Ok dah bye.

Love, Eran.

I guess it was a lucky day.
:)

Current Song Mood: Nicola Roberts - Lucky Day

[2x]
Could it my, could it be my,
Could it be my lucky day?

I like a phone call,
I like to hear something like this.
Woah, woah, woah, woah.
A conversation,
That maybe leads into a kiss (aha)
Mwoah, mwoah, mwoah, mwoah.

Aah, say that you love me,
Say that you need me too.
Best you ever had.
It could be so easy,
For you to please me, baby.
So how come you tease me?

You told me so what do you say?
Are you gonna take this golden opportunity?
Won't you give it to me, because you've got what I want.
Maybe it's my lucky day.

Just like the first spark,
And watch the fireworks explode.
Boom, boom, baby.
You've got a fast car,
So why the hell we driving slow?
Zoom, zoom, zoom to me.

Kisses on my pillow,
I've hundreds of those though
I want something more.
So congratulations,
It's not the occasion they went.
I get my way.

You told me so what do you say?
Are you gonna take this golden opportunity?
Won't you give it to me, because you've got what I want.
Maybe it's my lucky day.

Uhu, ow.
Gonna be my lu-uh-uh-uh
My lucky da-ay, my lucky day.
What do you say?
Are you gonna take this golden opportunity?
Just give it to me, because you've got what I want.
Maybe it's my lucky day, my, my lucky day.

[3x]
Could it my, could it be my,
Could it be my lucky day (day, day, day, maybe it's my lucky day)?

You told me so what do you say?
Are you gonna take this golden opportunity?
Won't you give it to me, because you've got what I want.
Maybe it's my lucky day.

My day, day, day,
Maybe it's my lucky day.
Maybe it's my lucky day.
Maybe it's my lucky day.

Good Goes The Bye

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Obnoxious.

That's all I can say.

That was the last straw.

I guess people do change, huh?

Because you didnt.
In fact you got worse.

I should have left you in the past with all the rest.

Bye.

Love, Eran.

Now back to PEOPLE that matters most..

Current Song Mood: Kelly Clarkson - Good Goes The Bye

They say Rome wasn't built in a day
But you and I went and built it anyway
And it only took a second to watch it all fall to dust
I thought you hung up the moon
And you thought I lit up the room
But the lights turned off and it was the end of us

[Chorus:]
Slam goes the door
Hush goes the phone
Out goes the flame
And I'm standing here alone
Burn goes the drink
Down go the tears
Drip goes the sink
And I'm missing you like hell
Break goes the heart
Wrong goes the right
Good goes the bye

It's like we pulled the pin out of a grenade
It just didn't go off right away
But man did it go off when it finally did
Everything's suddenly magnified
It's loud and it's quiet at the same time
As the echo of it's all over sets in

[Chorus]

I can't go back, we can't be friends
And we can't be what we were then
You can't be mine, and I can't be yours
And it's not love anymore

Slam goes the door
Hush goes the phone
Out goes the flame
And I'm standing here alone
Burn goes the drink
Down go the tears
Drip goes the sink
And I'm missing you like hell
Break goes the heart
Wrong goes the right

Goodbye

Fair Game

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I've never played a fair game.

With all the previous ones.. I've always.. kinda had the advantage.

The one that gets pampered. Time and money spent.

And so far...

You're the only one that's ever spent this much time with me.

And I really appreciate it.

Everything that you've done for me. 

You're so different than the rest.

You're a man, not a boy.

When you felt that you did me wrong, you planned to make it up to me.

Just the thought alone, showed me the kind of matured person you are.

And I really, really love that.

<3 <3

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Met the gang at Woodlands today. Hehe. Met up with YX and Lily at Starbucks and we had some *ahem* discussions. Amsyar and Prem came along and we walked to Woodlands CC for Tomei's siblings' wedding!!! It's my time going to a double wedding. Hahaha. So coooooooool!

Ate all the delicious food, chatted, and watched as the brides and grooms walked up the stage. Such a beautiful moment. And I wish to experience that one day.

;)

;)

;)

xoxoxo

After having our tummies filled, we went our separate ways. I went to fetch this butch from Somerset, and we went to JEM! Been ages since I've been here. Walked around aimlessly, then went to eat at this Vietnamese restaurant, So Pho!

Nomnomnom. Somebody owed me dinz. Hehehe.

Like emo only.

Maciam convict.

Dessert!!

Had a really nice dinner. :)

We then went to this new place we haven't been before. Called.. Big Box. Hahaha. Damn it's huge!!!

Meh.

Bitch stop avoiding me.

:DDDDDDD

IM SO FULL AND TIRED NOW. 

BAI.

Love, Eran.

Things will get better. 

xx

Current Song Mood: Sia - Fair Game

You terrify me, cause you're a man, you're not a boy
You got some power, and I can't treat you like a toy
You're the road less travelled by a little girl
You disregard the mess while I try to control the world
Don't leave me, stay here and frighten me
Don't leave me, come now enlighten me
Give me all you got, give me your wallet and your watch
Give me your first-born, give me the rainbow and the...

So go and challenge me, take the reigns and see
Watch me squirm baby, but you are just what I need

And I've never played a fair game
I've always had the upper hand
But what good is intellect and therapy/airplay
If I can't respect any man
Oh I want to play a fair game
Yeah I want to play a fair game

You terrify me, we've still not kissed and yet I've cried
You got too close and I pushed and pushed hoping you'd bite
So I could run, run and that I did but through the dust
You saw those teeth marks, they weren't all yours you had been thrust
Into a history, that had not worked for me
Into a history, from which I could not flee
So go on shake me, shake until I give it up
Wearing me down baby, I know that we could make some love

So go and challenge me, take the reigns and see
Watch me squirm baby, but you are just what I need

And I've never played a fair game
I've always had the upper hand
But what good is intellect and therapy/airplay
If I can't respect any man
I want to play a fair game
I want to play a fair game

Mourning Doves

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I don't wish to say much today.

It's been a mournful period. 

For everyone in Singapore in the past week.

Everybody grieves in their own way.

I'm sure everyone's been there before.

And I too, shall grieve.

In my own special way.

In moments where I can't find the words to say,

The song speaks for me.

Love, Eran.

Are we running out of time?

We've gotten this far..

We can't stop.

I promise you can lean on me.

Listen.

..

Current Song Mood: Mikky Ekko - Mourning Doves

[Verse 1:]
Look at how far we've come
Look at this mess we've made
I'm still praying that the sun
tears my body from the shade
Tell me that we're too far gone
Tell me that we'll be okay
Swear to God I'd leave right now
If Heaven wasn't so far away

[Hook:]
But this is not an exercise
And nobody gets out alive
Stop. What if I, what if I stop?

[Chorus:]
Mourning doves, meet me in the morning
Love, what if I, what if I die before you wake?
Promise, I promise you can lean on me, lean on me
I can be your shoulder
There's still room for us to pull over
But we can't stop
I swear to morning, Love
We can be together like mourning doves

[Verse 2:]
Yeah, realize that no escape
Releases you from your mistakes
Oh, this is not a warning
But innocence is calling
And I sense that's it's a falling embrace

[Hook:]
Because this is not an exercise
And nobody gets out alive
Stop. What if I, what if I stop?

[Chorus:]
Mourning doves, meet me in the morning
Love, what if I, what if I die before you wake?
Promise, I promise you can lean on me, lean on me
I can be your shoulder
There's still room for us to pull over
But we can't stop
I swear to morning, love
We can be together like mourning doves
We can be together like mourning doves

[Bridge:]
Because we both know
We're running out of time
We're running out of time 
Listen, listen, listen, listen

[Chorus:]
Mourning doves, meet me in the morning
Love, what if I, what if I die before you wake?
Promise, I promise you can lean on me, lean on me
I can be your shoulder
There's still room for us to pull over
But we can't stop
I swear to morning, love
We can be together like mourning doves
We can be together like mourning doves

Try

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Trembling.
Pain.

My legs were weak .

My heart was aching.

Tears were starting to fill up my eyes.
Control… control damnit.

I felt.. numb.

How could you be so selfish?

I laid there.
Motionless.
Panting.
I closed my eyes and took a moment to breathe.
As this song played...

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You know how I can't resist you.
I told myself I'd try.
For you.

I tried my best to endure.

But I guess I couldn't.
That thing is just not working out for me.

I'm so sorry.

And I know you are too.

I felt like..
I was left hanging.

Incomplete.

And I lost all my feels.

I didn't wanna talk about it.
You knew something was up.
You tried hard to get it out from me.
But I was so scared that I'd breakdown.
And I didn't want that.
I didn't want to look as weak as I already do.
That's why I kept silent.
…

Kinda weird how shitty I feel right now,
But the only one that can make me feel better is you too.
Sigh.
I need to rest.

Love, Eran.

If only you'd put my feelings first.
If only you tried.

Current Song Mood: The xx - Try

We bide our time
Though the time is fine
Oh to be there, I could be there
Say you'll be there

You know the way, I
Can't resist you, I
Said to myself I'll try

Why do we waste time
Hiding it inside?
I want you to be mine

Now it's dead and gone
You say what you would've done
You would've been there,
I wish you'd been there,
I needed you there

And if we try once more
Would you give me it all?
I won't believe it,
'Til I can feel it
Can you feel it?

You know the way, I
Can't resist you, I
Said to myself I'll try

Throwback

Page 258

Pretty sure I kept myself well occupied today. Heheh.

Did some cooking with the help of Mum today. Woo! And this is only the beginning. Sooo excited. But seriously after everything, I literally collapsed on the couch. It was that tiring haha. 

Don't know how she does it everyday. SALUTE.

Yay me!

Soup!

Haha don't worry guys, its meant to be dry. :)

Chef Eran in the house peeepol! Hahaha. Can't wait for more cooking sessions with Mum. :)

Feels like my hidden cooking passion is starting to grow.

Sometimes when I reminisce about the past, I realise why I kept things the way it is. The reason why I avoided certain people. I guess today was a good example.

I honestly don't care anymore.

I guess I ran out of f*cks to give. :)

It's all in the past now.

And I'm over that.

I have yet to tell Baby about the story of my green jacket.

I had a big flashback of the whole incident today.

#ThrowbackThursday ke?

 Hah, no thanks.

Today I got a phone call that could change my life. I don't wanna talk about it now.. But I hope it really happens. It's time for my life to change. And this would be the perfect way.

xoxo.

Love, Eran.

Superficial shit don't mean a thing to me anymore.

Current Song Mood: Cheryl - Throwback

I was looking for what's hot now
But timeless never fades out
Like the beauty of a red rose
The power in a heart of gold

I ran out of fucks to give you baby
Ain't got the time to spend on you
Left it all in the past
Now I'm over that
I'm classic, I'm better than new

[Chorus:]
Something like a throwback
Better put your jeans on
Used to pull me down, now you're playing my song
Like a throwback
When the record comes on
I know you're gonna dance tonight
Cause the beat on the street only lasts till dawn
But the beat that's in me, lasts forever
Something like a throwback
Now you're putting me on
I know you're gonna dance tonight

Superficial shit don't mean a thing
I've thrown away my diamond ring
And if you could see behind the scenes
I'm dancing in my old blue jeans

I ran out of fucks to give you baby
Ain't got the time to spend on you
Left it all in the past
Now I'm over that
I'm classic, I'm better than new

[Chorus:]
Something like a throwback
Better put your jeans on
Used to pull me down, now you're playing my song
Like a throwback
When the record comes on
I know you're gonna dance tonight
Cause the beat on the street only lasts till dawn
But the beat that's in me, lasts forever
Something like a throwback
Now you're putting me on
I know you're gonna dance tonight

[x2]
We're timeless like diamonds
Heads snapping when we throw it back
The finest, don't try this
Still the baddest and you can't hate that

I ran out of fucks to give you baby
Ain't got the time to spend on you

[Chorus:]
Something like a throwback
Better put your jeans on
Used to pull me down, now you're playing my song
Like a throwback
When the record comes on
I know you're gonna dance tonight
Cause the beat on the street only lasts till dawn
But the beat that's in me, lasts forever
Something like a throwback
Now you're putting me on
I know you're gonna dance tonight

[x2]
We're timeless like diamonds
Heads snapping when we throw it back
The finest, don't try this
Still the baddest and you can't hate that

She Moves (Far Away)

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The flashbacks started as I dug into the popcorn bag to grab a few.

I moved my fingers around, to feel the texture. 

To differentiate the salty and sweet popcorns.

Something someone taught me a while ago..

I started thinking about all the times I've been to the movies with other people.

The feelings felt at that time.

I quickly shut it out. 

The past shall remain the past.

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Sooooo. Was expecting to spend the day on my own at home, contemplating to workout but procrastinating as usual hahaha, but someoneeeeeee, blackmailed me into meeting him ._.

HAIS.

The things I do for.. .-.

Hahaha. After getting nagged at Mum, went to town to meet him.

He randomly asked if I wanted to watch a movie, and I said why not :D

Went to Cathay at Orchard and we bought tickets for Demonic :D :D :D

Yey first movie together!!!!

Beyond excited.

But the movie was… hais.

Trust meeeee, it was super boring, but he found it okay.

The insidious series is so much better. >_>

Went window shopping everywhere after the movie.

CAN YOU PLEASE SMILE.

The idiot that always threatens to leave me behind. :')

As usual we train-bounced back home.

Sooo I've been discussing with him.

Of getting brazillian waxing done. 

LMAO.

I don't think I will even survive it.

#IndianProblems

Okay hahaha. Sucha nice day.

Unexpected plans are always fun :)

You kept playing this annoying song we heard earlier haha. 

Now I'm hooked. ._.

Love, Eran.

All alone, I move.

Current Song Mood: Alle Farben Ft Graham Candy - She Moves (Far Away)

Far away, far away in the land where the sun will never rise
Far away, far away in the place with marmalade skies
Far away, far away in the land where the sun will hide its eyes
Far away, far away in the place with marmalade skies

All alone she moves
Into a broken paradise surrounded by the colored lights
On and on she moves
Into a paradise without day and without night

Far away, far away in the land where the sun will never rise
Far away, far away in the place with marmalade skies
Carry on, carry on, deeper into the rabbit hole
Carry on, carry on until you reach the hallway made of gold

All alone she moves
Into a broken paradise surrounded by the colored lights
On and on she moves
Into a paradise without day and without night

Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah
Ah, ah, ah

All alone she moves
Into a broken paradise surrounded by the colored lights
On and on she moves
Into a paradise without day and without night

All alone she moves
Into a broken paradise surrounded by the colored lights
On and on she moves
Into a paradise without day and without night