Bad Decisions

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The FallOut

Us medics were allowed to go back to camp and rest for the night.

The next day, we joined them again, and headed to H3 for the last mission.

As the cadets slowly walked out, one of them, barely walking properly, was called out.

I went to attend to him.

Temperature was a little high.

I told him to rest a bit and drink up.

I saw the look of distress on his face.

He really didnt wanna fall out.

His name was HZ.

He told me he felt better.

And deep down I knew he wasnt.

But I knew how important this was to him.

'Lets go.' I said.

By then, everyone had left.

We ventured after them on our own.

A bad idea.

We were probably gonna get lost, and we didnt know the route.

So we went back and I got one of the Officers to guide us.

Another mistake.

This dude, went all the way ahead of us, without waiting, without stopping.

By the time we trekked up halfway, me and HZ were already gasping, panting, feeling dehydrated.

And he kept on walking. I got pissed.

'WE NEED TO REST'  I shouted. He didn't hear. We barely caught catch a break.

Another 15 minutes and we trekked up the STEEPEST slope ever.

I was gasping for air, the heavy load behind me was taking a toll on me.

My legs were as week as jelly.

I collapsed on top.

An Encik was waiting there and he told me to rest.

'This route damn jialat right? I know.' he told me.

He reassured me that was the last one, and it was all downhill from then on.

He even gave his water to me. Which I could've finished in one gulp.

I was almost seeing stars.

I laid on my bag. My temperature was definitely freaking high.

But I didnt bother checking.

I knew I was starting to get heat injury. I could feel the numbness.

I regulated my breathing.

Just naturally cooled myself down.

Drank up.

After a good 15 minutes, I stood up, slightly shaken.

'Where was HZ? Did he make it?' I wondered. I hope he did.

I went down the route, to the cadets crowded around and having their debrief.

I could see a lot of them, exhausted. Some who fell out. Claimed they collapsed too.

Apparently 2 got evacuated by Ziq. 

'Woah, I missed all the action.' I thought.

No I didnt. I was a casualty myself.

I spotted HZ at a corner.

'HZ?' He didnt reply.

I sat down beside him.

'Did you make it?'

'No... I'm gonna OOC because I missed this mission.'

'If... 'He started holding back his tears.

'If I don't faint, I won't get labeled as heat injury right?'

I silently agreed.

He started breaking down beside me.

I was stunned.

I placed my arm around him. Silence. Comfort.

I then checked his temperature. He was feeling flushed. He wouldn't let me see the reading.

Definitely above 37.5.

I told him to unbutton his shirt.

And I gave him my last share of water (Even though I knew I needed it just as much)

I wanted to do everything I could. Because I felt so damn bad for him.

'You Ok?' I asked.

'I'll be fine,' he waved me off and left.'

Well, alright.

At the end of the whole thing I sat down with my medics, super exhausted. Told them everything that happened. We each had our own fair share of experience. We were in high spirits, as we trekked back to camp.

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I've made a lot of bad decisions in my life.

So far, I've managed to get out of all the potential bad ones this month.

And I wanna keep it that way.

It feels so good to get to say the things you want to say.

Especially a 'Fuck Off' to someone you've hated for a long time.

It's been a blessed month indeed.

And controlling my sins has never been as challenging as this year.

Please guide me to the right path.

Amin.

Love, Eran.

Current Song Mood: Ariana Grande - Bad Decisions

Boy, you know that you drive me crazy
But it's one of the things I like
Cause I know when you need it, baby
That I got that, ooh ooh
Let 'em keep, let 'em keep on talking
But it don't matter what they say
Cause you know when you hear me knocking
Gonna get that, ooh ooh

I been doing stupid things
Wilder than I've ever been
You've become my favorite since
So let 'em keep, let 'em keep on talking
That's right

We got that hood love
We got that good love
We got that hot love
We got that I don't give a what love
We got that one life
Give me that all night
We got that Bonnie and Clyde love
They say it's wrong, but
That's the way you turn me on
We got that hood love
We got that good love
Make me make bad
Boy, you make me make bad decisions
Bad boy, you make me make bad decisions

No, they ain't gonna understand it
Understand what I see in you
They don't know when you touch my body
That I see the truth
Let 'em keep, let 'em keep on talking
Cause I know that I got someone
Anytime that I need some danger
Gonna get that, ooh ooh

I been doing stupid things
Wilder than I've ever been
You've become my favorite since
So let 'em keep, let 'em keep on talking
That's right

We got that hood love
We got that good love
We got that hot love
We got that I don't give a what love
We got that one life
Give me that all night
We got that Bonnie and Clyde love
They say it's wrong, but
That's the way you turn me on
We got that hood love
We got that good love
Make me make bad
Boy, you make me make bad decisions
Bad boy, you make me make bad decisions

Don't you know I ain't fucking with them good boys?
Know you love me like ain't nobody here, boy
If you want it, boy, you got it
Ain't you ever seen a princess be a bad bitch?

We got that hood love
We got that good love
We got that hot love
We got that I don't give a what love
We got that one life
Give me that all night
We got that Bonnie and Clyde love
They say it's wrong, but
That's the way you turn me on
We got that hot love
We got that good love
Make me make bad
Boy, you make me make bad decisions
Bad boy, you make me make bad decisions
Bad boy, you make me make bad decisions
Bad boy, you make me make bad decisions