Feel No Ways

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The Shower

JV was a depressing state.

No lights.

No proper toilet.

No proper water.

We split up, and I followed a group to TMD.

TMD was fucked up omg.

It was a culture shock for me.

The entrance was muddy, and it was the type where there wasnt much support and you could slip and fall to your untimely demise anytime.

'Omgomgomg don't fall don't fall.' I kept chanting in my head.

The load on my was just as annoying.

Now I have to worry about getting myself injured too.

We placed the mission enemies and luckily, I had to stay with the first one while the rest continued.

I dropped my load, exhausted, drenched. Surrounded by the canopies of nature.

I chitchatted with the cadet who was stationed with me, until the mission started and people passed by me.

We went back the same route by 3-4pm and the trekking was just as challenging. 

I could not wait to get myself out of that hellhole.

And the thought of going through this same route another 3 more times was demoralising.

I quickly scrambled out of there, gasping for air.

By the time I returned to the admin area, I was drenched again, and dazed. Clearly this was taking its toll on me.

The cadets went to their harbouring area, while me and the medics had maggi for dinner.

The Cadre decided to bring us to the river for a quick shower. We followed.

We literally trekked down all the way to the river.

My gosh, I would have given a second thought knowing how far it was.

But by the time we reached.. it was worth it.

The river was beautiful. Slightly murky. But running fast and cool.

I stripped to my pants and went down the unstable steps. Into the cool running water. Stepping onto the hard rocks barefooted.

'Eh, why you wear pants? Take off la. Shy ah?' LFT R playfully smirked at me as he splashed water at me. 

I mumbled, taking them off.

'SIALAH, you like never wear anything sia.' he commented on my nude-coloured undies and laughed.

Everyone did hahaha.

'DONT LOOK LA OI!' I shouted, covering myself and heading in the water.

It was DAMN NICE OMG.

I felt.. refreshed instantly. Words can't express how relaxing it was.

R passed me his soap and we bathed and laughed in the river till it started to get dark.

We then headed back.

I changed, and sat at the stairs of the ammo area.

I started having small chats with B, who was in the area.

He was.. friendly. Very well spoken.

I really wanted to get to know him more. But alas, we changed sleeping locations.

As the nightfall came... the sound of the forest did too. 

It was creeepy. But majestic in a way.

I can't describe it.

You have to be there to experience it.

It was pitch black at night.

But we slept peacefully in the admin area anyway.

What a day...

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No new intake..

Omg. 

Thats crazy.

And unfair.

It's been a month since I stepped into camp.

And it already feels slightly foreign to me..

Some people've changed.

Some just the same.

But its just so diff now.

I feel weird.

Like Im out of place.

Like this place wasnt what it used to be.

Cant feel no ways.

Cant feel a way.

Love, Eran.

I've stopped listening.

Current Song Mood: Drake - Feel No Ways

I should be downtown, whipping on the way to you
You got something that belongs to me
Your body language says it all
Despite the things you said to me
Who is it that's got you all gassed up?
Changing your opinion on me
I was only gone for the last few months
But you don't have the time to wait on me

I try with you
There's more to life than sleeping in
And getting high with you
I had to let go of us to show myself what I could do
And that just didn't sit right with you
And now you're trying to make me feel a way, on purpose
Now you're throwing it back in my face, on purpose
Now you're talking down on my name, on purpose
And you don't feel no way, you think I deserve it

Feel a way, feel a way, young nigga feel a way
I've stopped listening to things you say
Cause you don't mean it anyway, yeah
Feel a way, feel a way, young nigga feel a way
Maybe we should have just did things my way
Instead of the other way

I tried with you
There's more than life than sleeping in
And getting high with you
I had to let go of us to show myself what I could do
And that just didn't sit right with you
And now you're trying to make me feel a way, on purpose
Now you're throwing it back in my face, on purpose
Now you're talking down on my name, on purpose
And you don't feel no way, you think I deserve it

Yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Feel a way, feel a way, young nigga feel a way
I've stopped listening to things you say
Feel a way, feel a way, young nigga feel a way
I've stopped listening to things you say