Faded

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The Arrival

We left Changi Airport.

The plane ride was unexpectedly comfortable.

Meals and a small pillow was provided.

Wow...

The thought of flying again was surreal.

Especially.. to Indonesia.

The last time I was here, was a year ago, for a completely different reason.

I started feeling emotional.

My mind wandered as I stared out the small plane window. 

We flew off, and 2 hours later, we reached.

It was around 12am.

We took a bus to JA Camp and spent the night there.

The next morning, we had breakfast.

I mentally said to myself; alright, blend in. Be cool. Don't make yourself stand out.

We were queueing for food. There were cadets in front of us.

One of the officers, urged them to go first.

Me being me (half-awake), I thought he meant us (the support staff) as well.

I followed them (LOL).

He turned to me and said out loud;

'YOU CADET MEH?'

The ones around him laughed.

I got caught off guard and went back.

'What a way to start the day'.. I muttered to myself.

After breakfast, we took a long ferry ride (3 hours) off from the mainland.

They played Civil War and Deadpool (both I've watched) and I was pretty impressed with the ride. Had a good nap, then we reached our stop.

The sun was blazing HOT, a big contrast from the chilly cold ferry ride.

We took another short bus ride to LK Camp, where we unpacked and changed to green and black.

I wore my purple socks cause.. I packed all my white ones in my kit bag and it hadn't arrive yet.

As we were going through the camp for our orientation, one of the Cadre pointed me out.

'Hey you, wheres your socks? Not wearing ah?'

I pulled them up.

'Eh, why your socks so special?'

'They're in my kit bag, it hasn't arrived...'

'Oh, ok. I'll let you off this time. Next time you'll kena.'

I quietly nodded.

'JEEEE Syah, what a way to not make yourself stand out.'  I was mentally cursing myself.

Those around me giggled and smirked.

We finished the tour, had lunch (the food was amazinggggg) and chilled in the bunk.

The next few days were pretty relaxed.

I laid in bed, staring into the blank spaces of the ceiling,

As the hustling around me kept on going.

I was relaxed, quiet, alone.

3 days had passed.

James Bay's 'Let It Go' was playing.

How true.

I felt like I was letting everything go back in SG.

Where were you?

What were you doing?

Will your feelings change in these 3 weeks?

Will.. mine?

I wouldn't know.

Felt like I was floating around in emptiness.

We haven't been texting.

Do you still care?

Or have you found someone new already?

Or am I overthinking, just like I always do?

Maybe, maybe.

The possibilities are endless.

And all this thinking were giving me a headache.

Too tired to think about it.

Too tired.

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I don't know why I feel so uneasy.

Ever since I came back.

Is it Christina?

Is it the change of feelings I've had recently?

Is it.. just me?

Where are you now?

You're so.. faded.

Love, Eran. 

Was it all in my fantasy?

Were you only imaginary?

Current Song Mood: Conor Maynard  - Faded (Alan Walker Cover)

You were the shadow to my light
Did you feel us?
Another star
You fade away
Afraid our aim is out of sight
Wanna see us
Alive

Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Was it all in my fantasy?
Where are you now?
Were you only imaginary?

Where are you now?
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now?
Another dream
The monster's running wild inside of me
I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded

These shallow waters never met what I needed
I'm letting go a deeper dive
Eternal silence of the sea. I'm breathing alive

Where are you now?
Where are you now?
Under the bright but faded lights
You've set my heart on fire
Where are you now?
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Atlantis
Under the sea
Under the sea
Where are you now?
Another dream
The monster's running wild inside of me
I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded
I'm faded
So lost, I'm faded