Before I Ever Met You

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My heart sank. Chills. I was shaking. My body temperature increased tremendously. My breathing turned rapid. I was having a panic attack. I didnt know what to do. I felt like I was dying. Like the soul in me was sucked out. 

'God.. please. No. Please don't let this be true. Please NO. PLEASE!!!!'

I prayed. I prayed and I prayed and and no tears came out cause I was too in shock.

I called her and the tears started flowing. This was too much for me.

I grabbed my green jacket last night because I felt so cold.

In bed, I hugged it, thinking about everything I've been through. 

No idea when or how I slept cause it was really really hard.

You have no idea.

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Is this true?

No.. it can't be.

We just went out..

No… I won't believe it .

No……
NO.

Why. Why would you do this to me.

After everything I've done for you.

Which is a lot.
Are you even human?
Do you even have feelings?

I'm so heartbroken right now.

And I won't feel right until I talk to you face to face.

I need the truth.

The fact that you did this behind my back… I don't think I can look at you the same way again.
I'm so lost.

Before I ever met you, I never thought I'd get broken this hard.
Before I ever met you, I never thought I'd find someone who'd stick with me this long.
Before I ever met you, I never thought I'd experience love again.
You proved it.
And I'm forever grateful to have met you.

Update: Things are much better now, but I guess I'll blog about that tomorrow.

Love, Eran.

You are my only vice.

Current Song Mood: BANKS - Before I Ever Met You

[Verse 1:]
Everyone knows I'm right about one thing
You and I don't work out
You bring out the mean in me
I bring out your insecurities
You know what I am talking bout
Eventually you'll be fine if we break up
And one day I'll be fine too
But we should just end it now
Before someone gets more hurt than they have to

[Chorus:]
As for our house, I'll move out
You can keep the dog we trained
Things soon will be like before I ever met you
Before I ever met you

Before I ever met you
I never knew that my heart could love so hard
Before I ever met you
I never knew I would be enemies with disregard
Before I ever met you
I never knew that I liked to be kissed for days
Before I ever met you
I never knew I could be broken in so many ways
I never knew I could be broken in so many ways
I never knew I could be broken in so many

[Verse 2:]
Everyone knows I'm right about one thing
You are my only vice
And I got you addicted to trying to be bulletproof
But you have too much to lose

[Chorus]

Everyone knows I'm right about one thing
You and I don't work out