Let Me Out

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I waited. And I waited.

Nothing.

You didnt come.

That's unusual.

I texted 'Come in.'

No response.

I walked out. You were pretending to be asleep.

'Come inside..'

'No. I wanna sleep outside.'

…

I laid there. By your side. Helpless and confused. While you ignored me and slept away.

Neglection.

On the way to the mrt, you didnt even talk to me.

Silence.

I walked slowly behind.

Weak.

As I walked past the places that were so familiar to me by now.

And all the happy memories that flashed by.

I teared.

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Hurt. So, so hurt.

I'm crying as I'm typing this.

Even when I was praying just now.

I guess I shouldn't have expected so much.

I should have seen this coming.

I just.. didnt think it would be this soon.

You really didnt want me around huh?

I could tell. You didnt say anything but I could tell.

I let myself in and the little one starts to cry.

How welcoming I felt.

It was already a bad a sign.

We didnt even talk much. We didnt even touch.

The weather was perfect for cuddling. 

Yet the only thing I snuggled with was your blanket, in the room, alone.

You left me alone.

On my own.

The way you hurried me out of the house.

Like you just couldnt wait for me to go.

I even asked.

'Do you want me to go?'

'Yeah.'

Heart ache.

Even though you were free the rest of the day.

You didnt want me there.

I kept reminiscing about the times when I would spend the entire day with you, until night.

But then I realised, times have changed.

You're not who you used to be. 

You've changed.

Our texts are getting lesser.

You don't call me pet names anymore.

You're so distant now.

And I don't know whats going on.

What do I do now?

Why did I come then?

All I wanted was to spend time with you.

Yet you just pushed me away.

I was SO close to stomping out on my own earlier.

But I stayed anyway cause I knew I had to be patient.

Turns out it would have been better..

Your actions says everything.

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How can I fight when love is the enemy?

What am I fighting for now?
I'm at my lowest point tonight.

If you think that we're over.. 

then Tell me.

I'll make it easy. 

…

I'll let you out.

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Love, Eran.

You don't even know if you really need me.

Current Song Mood: The Veronicas - Let Me Out

I can't take the blame
I can't take the pain
If you're gonna let me down
Just do it now, just let me down

I'm too scared to sleep
To see you in my dreams
If you're gonna make me cry
Just do it right and make me cry

Never knew much it'd hurt you to keep me
You don't even know if you really need me
How can I fight when love is the enemy?
I don't exist until you release me

If you think it's over
If you think we're nowhere, just let me out
I'm making it easy
For you to go, leave me, just let me out

You dig your claws in deep
I'm way out, breaking free
You can't keep this alive
For me to survive, push me to the side

And I can't run if you're coming on to me
And I can't hide when you've got what's left of me
You leave it unsaid
It's all in my head,
We're better off dead

Never knew much it'd hurt you to keep me
You don't even know if you really need me
How can I fight when love is the enemy?
I don't exist until you release me

[2x]
If you think it's over
If you think we're nowhere, just let me out
I'm making it easy
For you to go, leave me, just let me out

I can't take the blame
I can't take your pain
If you're gonna let me down
Just do it now, let me down

[3x]
If you think it's over
If you think we're nowhere, just let me out
I'm making it easy
For you to go, leave me, just let me out