Cruel // Heat Of The Moment

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Bumped into these lovelies on my way to work today :)

Finally, orientation is over. Was so annoying please. Some people are so fake. Ugh. Anyways, had some role-playing/ presentation today. You could see the diff between the two schools. Lol.. so much 'competition'. And there were really a lot of hilarious moments, mostly by my friends who went up on stage lmao.. But the most funny one has to be Kenneth!! HAHA. 

Joker la he. :)

 Ps. GF your smile is incredibly gorgeous!!!

Also had lunch with the gang. All gossips and talking bout guys.. hahaha. After this, we will all be going our separate ways… Our own separate journeys. Work starts tomorrow. I'll truly miss you all. I wish you all the very best. :)

<3

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You were incredibly cute today. But I had to remind myself to stop thinking that way. We made eye contact for a moment. But it was a cold one.. I quickly looked away, as if it pierced right through me. Everything was in slow motion. Throughout the day I was just so cautious of when you were around. I felt uncomfortable. What am I supposed to do if we were to bump into each other directly somehow? I don't know. I swear. Thank goodness it's the last day of orientation. No more of this shit.

It just feels so cruel.

Current Song Mood: The Veronicas - Cruel 

Wish I could say you're not the one
My heart hangs on, you're having fun
We can't be lovers and we can't be friends
But I still want you and I can't pretend
It fuckin' kills me that we're done

A little twist of the knife, yeah
A little salt in the cut, yeah
A little thorn in the side and it stings like hell
Feels so
Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger

Cruel
When you're looking like that, oh oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter
Cruel

The way you treat me like a stranger
Cruel
When you know me like that, oh oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter

I'm making out like I don't care
But in her sleep I cut her hair
We can't be lovers and we can't be friends
But I still want you and I can't pretend
The way it hurts it's just not fair
A little twist of the knife, yeah
A little salt in the cut, yeah
A little thorn in the side and it stings like hell
Feels so
Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger

Cruel
When you're looking like that, oh oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter
Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger
Cruel

When you know me like that, oh oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter

Once upon a time I thought that we were going strong
What we had would never move
No, it would never fall down..
No, I've never been so wrong
No, I've never been so wrong
Once upon a time I used to dream I'd be your wife
I could hear the bells were ringing, I was dressed in white
No, I've never been so wrong
No, I've never been so wrong

A little twist of the knife
Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger
Cruel
When you're looking like that, oh oh
Cruel

The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter
Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger
Cruel

When you know me like that, oh oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter

Cruel
The way you treat me like a stranger
Cruel
When you're looking like that, oh, oh
Cruel
The way you touch her when you kiss her
Take my endless summer and turn it into winter
You're so cruel

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*Flashback*

I'm envisioning it all again, in black and white.

Strange how we were strangers before, but then we quickly got close & intimate. We were suddenly contacting one day. It turned to flirting. And we got more and more.. personal. Then we finally decided to do it… in school. It was totally in the moment. Our hormones were high. We acted normal as we walked out of class. We scanned the area, and decided to go to the floor below. We stepped into the cubicle, eyes on each other. Awkward. This was super weird. This… what's happening? You were my classmate. How… And it happened. We started.. doing it. It was so wrong but it felt so right. It was amazing. The best I've ever had. And the most daring one. After we were done with our business, we walked back to class like nothing ever happened. And from then on, you disappeared. Out of my life. Blocked me. I was a fool to even think we even had a chance. Let alone, be friends again. No matter how hard I tried to contact you, you avoided me. You treated it as if it never happened. You treated me like I never existed.

I guess it was just.. the heat of the moment. 

Ps. Hint: The Heart Wants What It Wants.

Love, Eran.

Who am I gonna be, when it's all over?

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Current Song Mood: Drake - Heat Of The Moment

All the school kids are so sick of books and learnin'
They don't read anymore, they don't even read anymore
They just wanna be like all the rappers that I can't stand
Niggas we don't need anymore
All the niggas we don't need anymore
And all the cops are still hangin' out at the doughnut shops
Talkin' 'bout how the weather's changin'
The ice is meltin' as if the world is endin'

She asked me
"Who are you gonna be when it's all over? When it's all over?"
She asked me
"Who are you gonna be when it's all over? When it's all over?"
I don't wanna think about that right now
Heat of the moment
Heat of the moment, girl, heat of the moment
I ain't even got a strap if you think we really need one I'm on it
The last man fucked up, I'll take it since he doesn't want it
Everything straight in the heat of the moment, heat of the moment

What are we even doing?

Ridin' clean
With you on my mind and I'm thinkin' dirty things
Yes Lord, yes Lord, yes Lord
I've seen some things
I wish we had met when I was in my teens
Yes Lord, yes Lord, yes Lord
Cause these days I only know conditional love
I'm not used to settlin' down
I'm too used to switchin' it up, oh
And she says, "you don't know how good it is to be you cause you're him"
And I say "well, goddamn"

Then I asked myself
Who am I gonna be when it's all over? When it's all over?
Who am I gonna be when it's all over? When it's all over?
I don't wanna think about that right now
Heat of the moment
Heat of the moment, girl, heat of the moment
I ain't even got a strap if you think we really need one I'm on it
The last man fucked up, I'll take it since he doesn't want it
Can't think straight in the heat of the moment, heat of the moment