Helicopter

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I'm still shaken about what happened last night. I didn't have time to blog because I had to go make a police report. And I guess I just took the rest of today to recover. It was pretty traumatising..

I was on my way home, and an old Indian guy came up to me. He had puffy eyes, tattooed sleeves and I recognised him as a visitor from the ward I was working at. At the ward, he was super friendly to me. And I thought that he was just being nice. He complimented my service to the patient he was visiting. He even wrote a feedback form for me. I was honoured. But then he started getting more strange. He shook my hand. And he held it for a really long time. He then asked me to take down his number, and I didnt want to come off as rude, so I wrote it on paper. Then he asked what time I ended work. And told me to call afterwards. In which, I just smiled and went back to work. While I was working, he and his companion kept coming up to me, making weird comments, asking weird things. And me being me, I just smiled and entertained them for a bit. The rest of the day, I tried to avoid him till he went off.

So when I ended shift, I went down the lift with Riri, and out of the hospital where we parted different directions. I was walking alone, through the darkness, with my earpiece on. When I reached past a common hdb void deck, there he was. He came up to me, said hello and shook my hand. This time, he didnt let go. I knew something was wrong with him. He kept talking and talking and talking. And I was getting scared. He wanted to be friends with me. And then… he started asking me to go back to his place. At this point, I knew what I was dealing with. I said 'No, I have to go home.' and just walked off. And he followed. And he freaking held my hand. And I told him 'Don't touch me…' He said 'Why?' And I repeated. Then he stopped. So I played my cool again and just walked. And he kept following. I had to pass a dark park which was a shortcut to get to the train station. He followed and kept talking. A lot of nonsense stuff. I was getting scared. He wanted me to accompany him smoke and talk for 5 minutes. I refused. I tapped through the tapping gantry. He did too. I went up to escalator. He followed. I went into the train. He followed. Even though I told him not to. There was a lot of people. And I didn't know what to do. So I texted a friend, who then called me. 

And throughout the journey, I stayed on the phone and pretended I was busy talking. I was on the verge of tears. He was right beside me. He kept talking.. talking about how 'good' he was to me. Asking whether I was calling the police. Saying that they can't help me since he wasn't doing anything 'wrong'. Talking about how he wanted to hit me *hand gestures*, but that he didnt want to. At this point, I reached my station, so I moved away from him fast into the next cubicle. And alighted. Guess what? He did too. And he kept staring. But this time, he moved towards the opposite train. I walked fast down the escalator. Kept walking, tapped away, walked out. My heart was beating fast. I turned around to the crowd, I didnt spot him anymore. But I just kept walking. Took a different route to my block, and all the time I kept turning to see if he was there. But he wasn't. And I heaved a big sigh of relief as I reached my doorstep. The minute I walked in the house. I went to my Mum and just broke down.

It was embarrassing but I couldn't keep it to myself. Not this time. I felt like a nuisance. But hey, I was threatened alright? Yeah, so that's what happened. I've never been so scared. It was such a close call. And It's kinda… changed me in a way.

Just wanna thank all my friends who've been reaching out to me.

xx

Love, Eran.

Even the strongest fall sometimes.

Current Song Mood: HalfNoise - Helicopter

They left you

Alone in your room

When a helicopter

Swings and toss to you

Don't let go

Don't let go

Oh oh friend

Lover,

Don't go away.

Lover,

Be here, today.

You saw them

Leaving your room

When the helicopter

Swings and toss to you

Lover,

Don't go away.

Lover,

Be here, today.

Lover,

Don't go away.

Lover,

Be here, today.

Are you fine?

Are you fine?

Will you try? 

Will you try?

Are you fine?

Will you try?

They left you

Alone in your room

When a helicopter

Swings and toss to you

Don't let go

Don't let go

Oh oh friend

Lover,

Don't go away.

Lover,

Be here, today.