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Hey. I know you're reading this. And I'm sorry.
I just want you to know, that it's not your fault.
It's not you. It's me.
When you lashed everything out to me before you left, I felt so guilty. So hurt. You were talking about everything you've ever done for me. And I couldn't help but think… that this is all my fault. I should've ended this long ago. Before you got too attached to me. Truth is, it never felt right in the first place. I was just lost. You gave me the love that I'd always wanted. The love that I'd never thought I would experience. You were always there for me. And I thank you so much for that.
:')
I don't know what to do with it. But I can't go on like this anymore. I don't want to hurt you by doing this. I don't want to give you false hope. I don't want you to waste your efforts. You are a wonderful lover. But I know that we won't last. I'm not gonna be having much time for you. Don't waste your time on me. … All i'm saying right now is that we shouldn't see each other anymore. Not for the time being. After all that's happened too… (the stalker incident, my Mum getting paranoid.)
I just need the space. I guess.. I just want to concentrate on my work. And use my off days to spend time for myself and my passion. I think it's for the best. I'm just not ready to be committed. I'm sorry.
K? K.
Love, Eran.
Thank you for teaching me that love does exist.
Current Song Mood: Taylor Swift - This Love
Clear blue water, high tide came and brought you in
And I could go on and on, on and on, and I will
Skies grew darker, currents swept you out again
And you were just gone and gone, gone and gone
In silent screams,
In wildest dreams
I never dreamed of this
This love is good, this love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me
Tossing, turning, struggled through the night with someone new
And I could go on and on, on and on
Lantern burning, flickered in my mind for only you
But you're still gone, gone, gone
Been losing grip,
Oh, sinking ships
You showed up just in time
This love is good, this love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me
This love left a permanent mark
This love is glowing in the dark
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me
This love, this love, this love, this love... [4x]
Your kiss, my cheek, I watched you leave
Your smile, my ghost, I fell to my knees
When you're young you just run
But you come back to what you need
This love is good, this love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me
This love left a permanent mark
This love is glowing in the dark
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me
This love, this love, this love, this love
I know this will hurt you.. But just know that I'll still be here.
Nothing lasts forever.
Current Song Mood #2: Taylor Swift - Wildest Dreams
He said let's get out of this town
Drive out of the city
Away from the crowds
I thought heaven can't help me now
Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
He's so tall, and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
I can see the end as it begins, my one condition is
Say you'll remember me
Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams
Wildest dreams
I said "No one has to know what we do,"
His hands are in my hair, his clothes are in my room
And his voice is a familiar sound, nothing lasts forever
But this is getting good now
He's so tall, and handsome as hell
He's so bad but he does it so well
And when we've had our very last kiss
My last request is
Say you'll remember me
Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams
Wildest dreams
You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Some day when you leave me
I bet these memories follow you around
You see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burnin' it down
Some day when you leave me
I bet these memories follow you around
Say you'll remember me
Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset, babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again even if it's just pretend
Say you'll remember me
Standing in a nice dress, staring at the sunset babe
Red lips and rosy cheeks
Say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams
In your wildest dreams
Even if it's just in your wildest dreams
In your wildest dreams
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